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“I tried to offer you a gift. A gift of eternity and power.”
“Interesting name for collar and leash.”
“You are impossible, Valerie.”
“I try my best to be, Astarion.”
“So this is it then?”
“This is it.”
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Valerie values her freedom over anything in the world.
She helped the vampire spawn Astarion securing his power and freedom without a thought, and she left the vampire ascendant Astarion rejecting his possessiveness and control without looking back. Her whole life on the road and escaping from her past, she never doubted herself once.
But what happens, when three years later another conspiracy presents itself in front of Valerie, and every trial of it points to Astarion - her former lover?
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you and me, we got our own sense of time by Scaryanne
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games), Dungeons & Dragons (Roleplaying Game)
02 Oct 2024
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”Are you sure,” she managed to speak between kisses, “you want this?”“You’re asking me? You’re the one,” he murmured, nibbling her lower lip, “getting married, darling.”
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“Maybe what you really need is a friend, not a lover,” she’d told him.
Tavya's with Gale now; Astarion is just a very close friend.
So it’s definitely not a big deal when she runs into him the night before her wedding… right?
Or, a story about Tav and Astarion becoming more than friends again in the messiest way possible.
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- Part 1 of you and me, we got our own sense of time
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Years after the events of the game, Eon, a High Elf draconic sorceress, battles her inner demons after escaping the clutches of her cruel betrothed, Ryker, with the help of an old friend. The enigmatic pale Elf, Astarion.
As they navigate the tumultuous landscape of their shared history and unspoken desires, Eon struggles to confront the emotional barriers that threaten to keep them apart. Caught between the lingering shadows of trauma and the undeniable chemistry that sparks between them, Eon and Astarion dance like two stars orbiting each other. The magnetic pull is undeniable, but so is the push of conflicting forces.
With Ryker seeking to reclaim what he believes is his and Eon’s parents arriving to drag her back into a life she has fought to escape, the stakes rise higher.
Will they rise from the ashes of their pasts to embrace a brighter future together, or will the ghosts of their former lives tear them apart?
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- Not canon compliant - Ascended Astarion has retained his spawn personality, with very little deviations in his mannerisms.
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Together, Always and Forever by everything_bloodweave
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
15 Sep 2025
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Tav knows what Haarlep wants from her from the moment that he tells her to undress. She’s also sure that letting an incubus have its way with her is worth keeping her companions out of danger.
Fortunately, her companions disagree.
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a crooked touch (Astarion x m!Tav) by eyes_of_the_lamb
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
16 Nov 2024
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“Make it hurt, then. Kiss me like you want to kill me.”
“I can do that.”
Two broken stars in a decaying orbit, passing closer and closer together until the inevitable, devastating collision.
Or, Tav is fucked up and down bad for Astarion, who doesn't quite see the appeal (but he's getting there). Sexual frustration, sloppy handjobs, a heavy dose of masochism, and way too many failed Insight checks ahead. Tav falls first, Astarion falls harder (eventually).
Or, a tragic-but-hopeful romance told through a series of incredibly ill-advised sexual encounters.
If you want to read a story where Astarion is sweet from the start and Tav is here to fix him, this isn't the one. If you want to read about two terribly broken men spending a good long while making each other worse before they make each other better, this might be for you. If you thought the in-game romance was a little too easy and it should have been ten times more painful and difficult to convince Astarion he's worthy of love, this is definitely for you.
Set during the canonical events of Baldur's Gate 3.
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Genuinely devastating... I just finished crying. The ending is so bittersweet. If you re-read make sure to book out some cry time...
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He always knew he was going to die one day. Almost certainly before Astarion. Probably soon.
That’s why he knew it was safe—to love Astarion wretchedly, desperately, the way he could only love something that he’d soon lose. As long as he could see exactly how it would end, he could shape himself around that pain and contain it. He’s had practice.
This is how it ends. Tav was supposed to be ready.
So why doesn’t he feel ready?
Tav makes a judgment call in Moonrise Towers and it backfires horribly. Mid Act 2. Astarion x m!Tav.
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- Part 14 of a crooked touch (Astarion x m!Tav)
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Tutta la serie è molto bella ma questo ha il finale in cui finalmente un muro crolla
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"Astarion!" She's white with horror, frozen. Siobhan makes no attempt to hide her near nakedness. He's already seen too much.
As he gets closer, he can see countless faint white lines crisscrossing beneath the fresh cuts, decades of self-mutilation. This is not the first time she's done this.
"You mustn't tell the others," she begs, tears flowing freely down her face. "Please, they wouldn't understand."
Astarion doesn't know how to respond, struck dumb by what he's caught her doing and her request. Siobhan's eyes search his face frantically, trying to divine what he's thinking and what he'll do next. With a start, he realizes they're playing out the inverse of the night he'd tried to drink from her. Now, he's the one being asked to protect a horrible secret.
But he can hardly focus on what to do next, all thoughts deafened by the sound of her throbbing heartbeat pounding in his ears and the pungent smell of her blood flooding his nostrils.
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Bloodletting is a remedy that is hardly possible to estimate too highly. Or that's what they say. Siobhan has enough darkness in her past that maybe a little bloodletting is called for. Unbeknownst to her, Astarion is more than happy to oblige.
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Written in the Stars | Spawn Astarion Fanfic by Cloudychels
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
23 Oct 2025
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After landing herself above ground after at least a century in the Underdark, Astraea finds she is haunted by her past that she fears is catching up to her. While trying to balance being a leader, and not trying to die, she navigates the loss of what should've been her home while also trying to settle her soul that's been ripped in two.
What she unfortunately doesn't know is that she will be returning to the Underdark, and the crew is not prepared for what awaits for them in the darkness below.
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Choices, choices, choices by Krampussy
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games), Baldur - Fandom
25 Oct 2025
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Are the circles you run in truly all that different? You know this pale elf. It’s been 13 years, and you hoped you would never see him again.
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Halsin cleared his throat, shuffling the slightest bit closer to her. She stayed where she was, but marked his movement. “Do you remember anything else about that man you mentioned?”
Tav thought about it for a second. Something curious flashed across her face, but he couldn’t name it. “I—I just remember a gold hand."
Dragonborn, maybe? He didn’t voice the theory obviously.
But what he said next surprised him enough that his mouth dried instantly.
“Would you like to kiss me?”
Tav’s eyes widened. “I don’t know how.”
“I can teach you.”
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She aided everyone, himself included, and he hated how useless he felt. But if he were to simply open his eyes, he would see that she too was losing her mind.
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HOLY FREAKIN GUACAMOLE
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For a few moments she struggled to disentangle herself, to remember which traumas were her own and which belonged to the man to whom she had offered her heart, to recall where D’ahtlana stopped and Astarion began. Yet even as she gathered up the pieces of her scattered mind, the screams that had echoed through the now severed connection persisted...
A trap discovered too late results in the Reithwin Mason's Guild being razed to the ground, entombing a certain vampire spawn in the rubble.
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Where heavy hearts rest by whalyrae
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games), Dungeons & Dragons (Roleplaying Game)
17 Jul 2025
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She never meant to break down. Not here, not now, and definitely not in front of him. But Halsin doesn't flinch. He stays. And sometimes, that's all it takes to begin healing.
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- Part 1 of Baldur's Gate 3 Mel's adventures
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A New Chapter in our Odd Life by everything_bloodweave
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
16 Sep 2025
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Astarion and Gale prepare for their wedding while trying to help their closest friend heal. All while working through their own trauma and handling the bumps in the road of their new family.
This is a direct sequel to "Another Chance", and it is highly, HIGHLY recommended that you read that fic first.
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- Part 2 of Together, Always and Forever
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INCREDIBLE, highly recommend (after having reading the first in the series)
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The Blood That Sings In Your Veins (Astarion/Tav) by shockdowndefiance, spruce56, ThePaladinProse (shockdowndefiance)
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
20 Sep 2025
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The last thing a high half-elf paladin expected to do was befriend a vampire spawn, let alone find herself falling for him. And yet over days and hostilities, she senses something deeper beyond his casual flirting and feels herself reciprocating, much to the disquiet of some of their fellow adventurers.
Whether these are adventures told at the beginning of their journey, many years past, or alternative takes they will be present here for all to see
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“I don’t understand!” Astarion huffs, straightens, regains his composure. “You so obviously want me and here I am, offering myself to you,” he spreads his arms, gives a half sarcastic little bow, displaying the strong lines of his body beneath his fine clothes. “I am doing so entirely of my own free will. I am not trying to coerce you, or manipulate you, I am trying— Well, to seduce you, yes, but not for any untoward reasons! I want you. Can’t you trust that?”
“No.” You say.
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Published: 2024-02-29
Work/Series ID: 54157387Relationship Tags:
• Astarion/Tav (Baldur's Gate)
• Astarion (Baldur's Gate)/Reader
• Astarion (Baldur's Gate)/Original Female Character(s)
• Astarion & Tav (Baldur's Gate)
• Astarion (Baldur's Gate)/YouWork/Series Summary:
“I don’t understand!” Astarion huffs, straightens, regains his composure. “You so obviously want me and here I am, offering myself to you,” he spreads his arms, gives a half sarcastic little bow, displaying the strong lines of his body beneath his fine clothes. “I am doing so entirely of my own free will. I am not trying to coerce you, or manipulate you, I am trying— Well, to seduce you, yes, but not for any untoward reasons! I want you. Can’t you trust that?”
“No.” You say.
(Approximate) Last Read: 2025/07/27
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Pain Without Purpose is a Terrible Thing by AshSlays
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games), Dungeons & Dragons (Roleplaying Game), Ravenloft (Roleplaying Game)
01 Oct 2025
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The Loviatar’s Blessing Scene. Only it’s Astarion who delivers Tav’s penance.
While camping in a former temple of Selûne that's been overrun by goblins, Astarion catches Luka Morrigan (Tav) sneaking away to commune with Abdirak, a disciple of the Goddess of Pain. Perhaps this dhampir from Barovia is not such a saint after all?
“Our Mistress teaches us that pain is an intimate thing,” Abdirak explains, “and in embracing her love, a deeper connection forms between minister and supplicant. Bonds tempered in the fires of pain are impossible to break.”
That is precisely what Astarion must avoid. He doesn’t want to bond with Luka, he just wants to seduce the boy. And yet, Astarion can’t deny the power he feels while clutching the whip. Is this really any different than Luka offering over his sweet, nectarine blood for Astarion’s nourishment? If this precious castle-born dhampir is so insistent on debasing himself, then is there anyone better than Astarion to show him exactly what that feels like?
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Lukastarion Collection: A Barovian Dhampir in Baldur's Gate by AshSlays
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games), Dungeons & Dragons (Roleplaying Game), Ravenloft (Roleplaying Game)
26 Oct 2025
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The Dhamphir Luka and Astarion.
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Tav, having seen and been through enough for a lifetime, finds a life of solitude never truly fit them. With an ever consistent physical and mental condition to keep them isolated, they always enjoyed things from afar, until Wyll checks in on them.