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Can't You See That We're the Lucky Ones by fanfareandwhimsy
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp, The Outsiders (1983)
22 Mar 2025
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"'Those bastards,' Steve muttered. 'They coulda killed you. It's shit luck that none of the rest of us were around to help, we would've destroyed them.'
Two-Bit murmured something in agreement, and if he wasn't certain it would've been agony, Johnny might have laughed. Didn't they know by now? Hadn't they figured it out? Johnny had never been lucky, not once, in his entire life. That wasn't about to change now."
Or, in the days after getting jumped by the Socs, Johnny slowly learns to accept the care and kindness shown to him by the rest of the gang.
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- Part 6 of Outsiders Musical Lyrics One-Shots
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02 Nov 2025
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Glue Myself Shut by cherryflavouredvoid
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
18 Mar 2025
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Darry knows, rationally, that healing "takes time".
He just wish he knew how much longer that was, or if Ponyboy was even healing or simply fading away.
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Darry drives Ponyboy home from therapy and gets asked a stupid question.Series
- Part 2 of Aftershocks + Epilogues
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30 Oct 2025
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blood is thicker by catharticdaydream, the_projectionist
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
22 Oct 2025
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"Ponyboy had almost drowned. Somehow, Darry had forgotten."
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A trip to the lake reawakens memories Ponyboy Curtis has been trying to leave behind - memories that Darrel Curtis now realizes need to be confronted to be overcome.
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23 Oct 2025
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everything had changed (like it tends to do) by percyandthepen
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
12 Apr 2025
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“Are you alright kid? You look like you’ve been in a fight.” The words taste odd in his mouth, because he knows better. And he is tired of knowing better. Still, like always, he ignores the piece of him that insists on doing the right thing. Absently, Paul wonders how many times a thing like that can be ignored before it withers and dies.
Paul keeps his eyes on the road as Pony thinks the question over. It’s a moment before he answers, silence filled by the radio he’d forgotten he left on. News. Not local. He’d wanted to hear about someplace else. Someone else’s problems.
“I have been. A rumble. I’m okay.”
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"I might have stumbled around all night except for a man who asked me if I wanted a ride." - The Outsiders, Chapter Ten
It's Paul who drives Ponyboy home after Johnny dies, he's just too out of it to realize.
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06 Oct 2025
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A Measure in Purgatory by HappierThanMost
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)
25 Jul 2023
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The Curtis brothers anxiously await their fate.
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29 Jul 2025
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The First Night by HappierThanMost
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)
10 Dec 2023
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Soda and the night of the accident.
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28 Jul 2025
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The Fifth Night by HappierThanMost
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)
25 Jul 2024
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Ponyboy is having a hard time recovering after his parents' funeral.
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28 Jul 2025
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lights will guide you home (and ignite your bones) by darrelcurtis
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
15 May 2025
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“I don’t know what to do with all of it,” he admitted. “The stuff in my head. Dunno how to hold it.”
“Well, you can start by sharin’ it a little,” Darry said awkwardly.
Pony looked at him then. Really looked at him. Darry’s jaw was tight, like it always was when he didn’t know exactly what he was doing. His hands were tightly folded between his knees, knuckles pale. But he meant well. His eyes were soft.
All the walls Pony had built up since the hospital – since the funeral, since the court hearing – they didn’t exactly collapse. But they cracked. Just a little.
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It starts with a cigarette and a silence too heavy for one person to carry. Ponyboy’s grieving in pieces he didn't know he could. Darry’s trying to be something he was never taught to be. On a quiet porch, under stars that don’t shine like they used to, they talk — really talk — about what’s been lost, what’s still left, and what might come next.
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29 Jul 2025
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your pain is eased (but you'll never be free) by darrelcurtis
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
09 Jun 2025
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“I’m fine,” Darry mutters again, but it’s even more hollow now, more useless. Soda’s still crouched at his other side, one hand steady on Darry’s wrist like he’s grounding him there.
“No, you’re not,” Pony says, but there’s no judgment in it. Just truth. “And that’s okay.”
Darry lets out a breath that sounds almost like a laugh, except it’s broken in half. He drags both hands down his face and then presses his palms into the edge of the table like he needs something to hold on to. “I ain’t ‘sposed to fall apart. Not in front of you two.”
“Why not?” Pony asks. “We fall apart in front of you all the time.”
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A month and a half after the funeral, Darry’s doing his best to hold everything together. But the broken pipe, the long days, and one sharp argument with Ponyboy push him past his limit. When he breaks down in the kitchen, it’s his brothers who help him — quiet, steady, and refusing to leave. It still hurts. But they’re in it together.
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28 Jul 2025
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burn by Rhue
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
12 Aug 2024
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Blond hair and blue eyes crossed his vision. A smile that could kill you followed with the laugh that made you think hey, she’s alright. She did laugh when she held it. It echoed in Two-Bits head, and his face burned.
He shut his eyes tightly and faced away from the mirror. He covered his face with his hands as he forced the image of her out of his mind. He dug the palms of his hand into his eyes until he saw stars. It didn’t work as well as he’d hoped.
“You alright?”
The voice distracted him enough so he saw another pair of blue eyes: Soda’s.
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The missing scene where Two-Bit isn't actually alright after the socs jump him. Where else would he go beside the Curtis house?
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26 Jul 2025
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torn between what is and what could be by cinnamoncider for chrissyjoshys
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
15 Jul 2024
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"You know, boys, as I was watching the poor kid run, I noticed somethin’. Ol’ Ponybaby here, he ain’t gotten a haircut in a minute, yeah? Reckon he’s been lookin’ like a bit of a sissy lately. Suppose he uses his head for more than just storin’ books; grows his hair like dang Rapunzel, too.”
Realization dawns on Ponyboy a beat later.
His ears are ringing, and he’s pretty sure he’s bordering on passing out.
Would that hurt less? Would that make this any easier?
or, seventeen-and-a-half year old ponyboy gets jumped by some socs who cut his hair & inadvertently, with the help of his brothers, finally comes to a heavy realization about his late best friend that's been staring him in the face for a long, long time
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- Part 12 of my outsiders canon :p
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23 Jul 2025
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you only feel it when it's lost by bridiesmindsludge
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
05 Apr 2025
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Dad didn’t understand Pony anymore than he did, even if he loved his son to pieces and would do anything for him. It wasn’t for a lack of trying, there was always just something about Ponyboy that few could decipher. Everything meant everything to Pony; there was always a reason, always another layer, always something deep and complex that he had to work through in order to understand it. To their father-- to Darry, for that matter-- those kinds of mind puzzles didn’t exist. Everything was just what it was. There wasn’t much to it. Still, always Dad listened to Ponyboy’s stories, wiped his tears, taught him to tie his shoes, bought him the books he’d mention wanting, even if he could never understand the well of tenderness his brother held inside of him.
Mom and Soda were different in that way. Mom especially.
Give him some time, honey, she’d say. He needs to feel everything first. Let him come to you.
But Darry was never a patient guy. There was no use waiting for his little brother to come around on anything.
Life can’t stop for you to feel the weight of it. Not even when it’s crushing you.
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or, a study of grief in the curtis house.Bookmarked by AnEquivalentExchange
19 Jul 2025
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there is a child inside you (who’s trying to raise a child in me) by bridiesmindsludge
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
17 Mar 2025
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They sit in silence for a while, and it's almost as if there's a weight hanging between them now. Darry doesn't push the issue, but there's something about the haziness of Ponyboy's eyes that has Darry reaching forward to feel for his forehead. He's hot to the touch, and he frowns. “Do you feel sick?”
Pony shakes his head. “I dunno. I'm okay. You should go back to bed.”
“You don't make the rules 'round here, kid. How long have you been feeling like this?” Darry asks.
“I ain't sick.”
“You're burning up a bit there, kiddo,” he tells him quietly, pushing Ponyboy’s bangs away from his face.
“Not true,” he argues, shaking his head.
Darry furrows his eyebrows. “Why are you arguing with me?”
“Am not,” Pony replies, like it’s autopilot just to counter anything Darry has to say to him.
He rolls his eyes. “Alright, tough guy. Hold still for a second.”~
or the one where darry tries his best to navigate a sick ponyboy without soda. ponyboy wonders if he's ruining darry's life. darry wonders if his brother is clinically stupid for asking a question like that.Bookmarked by AnEquivalentExchange
18 Jul 2025
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it's more than what you bargained for (but it's a little less than what you paid for) by alltehgay
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
13 Feb 2025
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There’s an unfrosted cake sitting in the center of their table, and it’s rotting away.
Darry tries to ignore it. His eyes, head, chest, limbs themselves throb every time he looks at it—so he doesn’t. No one’s touched it, even though they’ve scrubbed every other inch of the house far past clean by now. It simply sits there, made stale by unrestricted air that dries it out and makes it unappetizing in addition to completely untouchable.
The ants will have their way soon, though, because for the first time in Darry’s memory, a chocolate cake has gone uneaten for an entire two weeks.
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it’s been two weeks, and their parents are dead, and darry’s brothers are drowning in tears. darry’s just. drowning.
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12 Jul 2025
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brother, that’s what love is all about by asexualjuliet
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
29 Jul 2024
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Darry’s eyes fly open just as his baby brother collapses, and all of a sudden, he’s running in slow-motion, trying in vain to close the distance between him and Ponyboy before the kid hits the concrete. Two-Bit makes it there first, catches him before he can get banged up any worse, and by the time Darry’s beside them, Two’s got Pony close to his chest, cradling his head in his arms.
“He’s sick,” Two-Bit’s saying when Darry and Soda kneel down next to them. “Shit, he was—he was running a fever before the rumble but he made me swear I wouldn’t tell ya, so I—”
“Ponyboy,” says Soda, reaching out to shake his brother’s shoulder. “Pony, honey, wake up.” Darry puts a palm to Pony’s forehead and finds that Two’s right; the kid’s burning with fever.
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09 Jul 2025
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someone else’s son by asexualjuliet
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
07 Oct 2024
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“Darrel, honey, are you alright?” Mrs. Holden asks. Mortifyingly, a sob rips itself from his chest, and she questions him further. “Sweetheart, what do you need?”
“Um, my brother’s really sick,” he explains, his voice shaky. “He’s been throwing up for, like, twelve hours and he can’t—he can’t keep anything down and he’s got a real bad fever and he’s asking for our mom and I don’t—” He lets out another strangled sob. “I don’t know what to do.”
“I’ll be there in fifteen minutes,” she says. Darry chokes out a sigh of relief.
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09 Jul 2025
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His Tears Are My Enlightenment (We Love Each Other) by As_the_prophesy_foretold
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), That was Then This is Now - S. E. Hinton
10 Mar 2023
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Ponyboy tries to help Darry understand what he's going through. Darry realizes that he has become a parent and ponders on what that means for his life. All three of them love each other. Contains some very mild swearing and carefully non-romanticized depictions of a depressive episode. Also contains spoilers for twttin. Made with love.
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06 Jul 2025
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you're still the one (that i run to) by darrelcurtis
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
02 Jun 2025
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Darry’s eyes flicked away again, like he couldn’t hold Soda’s gaze for long without something cracking open. “I dunno. You’re scared, and I can’t even comfort you properly.”
“You’re comforting me right now,” Soda said quietly.
Darry snorted, not mean, just doubtful. “By sittin’ here like an idiot and talkin’ about bills?”
“Yeah. By sittin’ here and tryin’,” Soda said, a little more firmly now. “By not brushin’ me off. By admitting you don’t know what to do. That counts, D. Y'think I need some perfect speech? I don’t. I just need you.”
Darry let out a breath and leaned back in his chair. His arms crossed over his chest, like he needed to hold himself together.
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Sodapop wakes in a cold sweat, haunted by a nightmare he can’t remember, only that it was about Darry and Pony and losing them. When he finds Darry still awake at the kitchen table, buried in bills and silence, the two brothers end up talking in a way they haven’t in years. It’s clumsy at first — Darry doesn’t always have the words, and Soda doesn’t always know how to ask — but somewhere between the hot chocolate and the half-light of the early morning, they start to figure it out.Bookmarked by AnEquivalentExchange
25 Jun 2025
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You Can Hear It In The Silence by percypersephone
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp, The Outsiders - All Media Types
10 Nov 2024
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The progression of Johnny and Ponyboy's lives and relationship with one another after Johnny is finally released from the hospital.
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25 Jun 2025
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Please Hurry Leave Me, I Can’t Breathe by delilahsgoldd
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
25 Dec 2024
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"What I want from you is to stop living in a vacuum, Ponyboy! They’re gone, and we can’t do anything about it." Darry responded, voice low and vexed. Pony stared at him for a second, eyes wide and filled with hurt.
"You better shut up, Darrel," Pony spat, voice raising. "Let go!" He demanded, resorting to slapping Darry’s arm, trying to push him away. Tears sprang into his eyes, and whether it was from frustration or grief, Ponyboy couldn’t tell. He just wanted to go back to bed and sleep his sorrows away.
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- Part 7 of delilah's outsiders one-shots
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25 Jun 2025