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    unconnected wilmon drabbles bcos they're everything.

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    Space for one-shots :)

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  1. Public Bookmark 39

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    “Love you!”

    The two little words hit Ilya in the chest like a ton of bricks. He freezes, trapped just over the threshold of the house that’s started to feel uncomfortably close to home. Or not home really, not heavy with expectations he can never quite meet, but real – safe – the way he imagines a home is supposed to feel.

    “Ilya?” Yuna’s voice is gentle, but there’s a question there, something unsure, teetering on the edge of concern.

    And Ilya is aware, vaguely, that there is absolutely no reason for it to be quite so hard to breathe right now. He’s been here before. He has stood in this doorway about a thousand times now as Yuna Hollander shouted her love after Shane with the uncomplicated ease of someone who has said the words a million times and knows, with unquestionable, unconditional certainty, that she will say them over and over again until the end of time.
    It's just – Shane isn’t there.

    or Ilya and his not at all complicated relationship with the words, “I love you.”

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Jackie: hahahaha

    Jackie: I see why Shane likes you so much

    Lily: Ah

    Lily: You would not be saying that if you really knew me

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    Jackie Pike finds "Lily's" number and trys to reach out

    Takes place post-Russian olypmics until just afte the cottage

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    07 Apr 2026

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    [Two basic-looking men in suits sit at a desk inside the Canadian Tire Centre. Hockey players swirl around the ice behind them for warm-ups.]

    Johnny: Hello, everyone, and welcome to the 2021 season opener for the Ottawa Centaurs! I’m Jonny Bernard here with Martin Thomas, and we’re so glad it’s hockey season again.

    Mark: Indeed, we are Johnny. Especially when it comes to this team.

    Johnny: Absolutely. So many have been waiting for the so-called Gayest Team in Hockey to take to the ice for the first time.

    Mark: A mantle they proudly wear, and for good reason. When you have Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and Troy Barrett on your team, being queer might just be a superpower.

    Johnny: Do you think we’ll see a Hollander/Rozanov appearance on the Kiss Cam tonight?

    Mark: I think it might be one of the greatest disappointments in all of hockey if we don’t.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s eyes snap open. Wait a second.

    “Ilya,” Shane says, propping himself up on his elbows. “Ilya, wake up.”

    Ilya makes a pained noise, eyes still shut. “I shut curtains already.”

    “It’s not that. Ilya, hey. Don’t go back to sleep.” Ilya tries to bury back into Shane’s chest, but adrenaline knifes through Shane’s hangover long enough for him to peel Ilya off and roll him into his back. Ilya blinks blearily up at him, starfished in the sheets. Beautiful and naked and missing his mother’s cross.

     

    OR: When Ilya’s cross goes missing after the Centaurs celebrate their first Stanley Cup win, Shane is determined to get it back. And so are the Centaurs. And the rest of Ottawa.

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    18 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 55

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    This was what tended to scare Shane the most, when Ilya was unwell: the gradual loss of him, despite being physically there. He would go quiet, blank, slow to speak and slow to respond, nothing like the pulse of intense energy and liveliness that sparked in him at his baseline. Shane missed him, when he was away in that place. It was not a place Ilya could always describe, and it was not somewhere Shane could rescue him from, or even join him in for company. So Shane waited, every time, for him to come back. He always came back. That was the only relief in it.

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