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    “We, uh, Brian and I, that is. We decided to open up the relationship.”

    “Okay?” Ilya says, voice flat. “What is that?”

    Hollander shrugs. His posture has gone stiff again. “It. It means we’re still together, but we can also like...see other people. Or not see, because we’re not dating anyone else but, uh. Fuck. Fuck other people.”

    Oh.

    “And this is why you texted me?” Ilya asks.

    In a way, it’s almost better. Hollander and his boyfriend breaking up and Ilya reaping the rewards would be enjoyable. Ilya having to work for that reward himself, getting the chance to fuck Hollander so good he forgets all about that loser who attached himself to him like a parasite before he was old enough to know better?

    Well. Ilya loves a challenge.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

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    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    Ilya was glowing, and wild, and so bright he was almost blinding. Beautiful, Shane had known, even back then, when he was still too young to know much of anything at all.

    Ilya Rozanov belongs to the summer, and the summer belongs to them.

    (Or, two childhood best friends spend a summer by the lake, before the rest of their lives begin.)

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    In a world where homophobia and queer fear doesn't exist, in a world where love can happen out in the open for anyone and everyone, Shane Hollander is still stubbornly single. As the Captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, he insists he's too focused on hockey and his career for a relationship, when in reality, old fears of being seen as "the hockey weirdo" keep him from unmasking.

    That is, until Ilya Rozanov enters his life. The newly single Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, after a decade-long relationship ends amicably, is now interested in the one man who won't give him the time of day.

    So when Shane, while on National Television, tells Ilya he'll have to "impress him" to earn that first date, Ilya takes it as the greatest challenge of his life. What follows is a whirlwind of grand romantic gestures, public flirting, chirping (flirting) on the ice, social media ploys and and ever escalating spectacle. All while the NHL, their friends, their family, their teams, and fans across the continent watch, cheer, and place bets on when Shane will finally say yes.

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    01 Aug 2026

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    He heard footsteps begin to come down the stairs, and then a deep voice shouted something in a language that Shane thought was probably Russian. The footsteps continued to grow closer, and then Irina’s papa entered the kitchen. Shane dropped his jaw as they made eye contact– it was a face he never thought he’d see again.

    “Ilya Rozanov?”
    “Shane Hollander?”

     

    Or, canon divergent AU in which Ilya drops out of the NHL draft to play in Russia, but he and his daughter end up living next door to Shane many years later.

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    28 Jul 2026

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    Shane and Ilya collide on the ice in 2008, and Shane's career is over before it begins.

    In 2014, when they meet each other in a club in Boston, Ilya wants to make it up to him.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    555-123-181
    If someone got bleach in their eye what should they do
    555-926-024
    Go the the ER and get an eye wash
    555-123-181
    Okay but is that really necessary or can I just wash it myself
    555-926-024
    According the the Internet you might need eye drops for a couple days after so ER it is
    555-123-181
    Urgh fiiine
    ***
    Ilya was looking for advice when he text the wrong number
    Shane couldnt leave a random stranger on read during an emergency

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    26 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has always wanted to open his own bar. When the opportunity presents itself, he manages to make his dreams come true, and opens up his own place. He meets fussy food writer Shane Hollander one night at the bar as Shane is assigned to do a write-up on the new hot spot. What starts out as a quippy, slightly antagonistic relationship, turns into a sweet romance...

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    25 Jul 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    “Are you… are you saying that you want to be in a relationship with Shane Hollander?” The room held a sort of tension, like everyone in it was holding their breath, waiting for Ilya to vehemently deny it.

    The reporter had taken his words in the complete opposite way than Ilya had meant them, but he supposed he was too committed to stop now. “Of course not.”

    “Of course.” The reporter parroted, laughing nervously.

    “Obviously, we are already in a relationship.”

    In Ilya’s rookie season, he impulsively jokes about dating Shane to an invasive reporter. Then, he just… keeps doing it, since publicly announcing it enough times that everyone writes it off as a joke is a great way to hide a clandestine relationship.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    Ilya just wanted to show off how many photos he took of the puppies. He didn’t notice the photos in the top left hand corner of his screenshot that were never supposed to see the light of day.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    Nobody in the Ottawa Centaurs locker room thinks much of the messages constantly arriving on their captain's phone.
    After all "Jane" texts Ilya Rozanov all the time.
    But when Jane starts calling over and over again, the team decides to answer.
    What they hear changes everything.
    A panicked Shane Hollander is on the other end of the line, desperately searching for a missing dog.
    Within minutes, the NHL's biggest secret is out, ten years of hidden history come to light, and an entire hockey team finds itself racing across a city park looking for a runaway dog named Anya.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    26 Jul 2026

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    While in search of a roommate, Ilya comes across an interesting Facebook Marketplace listing from Shane Hollander.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    "So… are you going to tell me what's going on with you?" Ilya asked just as Shane popped a dill pickle in his mouth.

    "What do you mean?" Shane kept his gaze fixed on his empty plate.

    "Come on, Hollander. I've known you long enough to see that something is wrong. Tell."

    Shane let out a long breath and leaned back on the couch. "The summer wasn't… good."

    Ilya remained quiet, waiting, leaving him space to explain.

    "A friend died."

    Shane is confronted with mortality and makes a spur-of-the-moment decision to visit Ilya.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    “There is one more thing. Given the nature of your fall and the force of impact, we ran a full battery of blood tests to check for any internal issues. Everything looks normal, except for one result that… stood out.”

    Shane’s stomach tightened. Stood out?

    “Given your secondary gender presentation and hormone levels, we also ran a standard pregnancy panel,” she said, her words measured and clear. “And the test came back positive."

    For a moment, the words didn’t land. They floated in the air like dust in the sunlight.

    Positive.

    Pregnancy panel.

    Then, all at once, they crashed into him.

     

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    Shane Hollander discovers he is pregnant while at the hospital after getting hit in the ice by Marleau in a Boston vs. Montreal Match and after inviting Ilya Rozanov to his cottage.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    Welcome to my conspiracy theory that there is an alternate timeline to the Great Tuna Meltdown of October 2016. What would have happened if Shane *had* stayed the night? This is a look at the evening and morning that could have been.

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    104,733

    26 Jul 2026

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