EssayOfThoughts
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Better question: What is this place? What-
There is nothing to recall. No sense of self, no useful memory. There’s the sense this should be accompanied by discomfort, upset, but the only things throbbing in the skull are pain and a distant curiosity.
This person. This body.
If you have no memories, how do you know if you're a person?
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hésperos; “pertaining to the evening”
Night seems to be the only time you get some peace.
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The last thing Percy expects, the night after the Briarwoods’ welcome feast, is to be woken by his tutor, a candle in one hand and her other over his mouth.
“Percy,” Ripley says quietly. “If you wish to live, listen to me.”
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After the attack, the thing Percy wants most is his family restored to him. It doesn’t happen how he thinks.
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- Part 1 of Delia AU
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When Vex is twenty two and a half (after so many years with long-lived elves the “half” becomes very important) something happens to her soulmate.
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The Pain-Based Soulbond AU a few people have tried their hands at, but hey, what's another cake at the buffet but more options? Additional Tags will be added as the story is updated.
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something more than flesh by EssayOfThoughts for Nanyoky
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
11 Oct 2024
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“I don’t want to be afraid,” Percy says, half a mumble against her neck or hair each time. “Not of you. Not of this.”
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- Part 7 of Essay's Perc'ahlia Week '24 Submissions
- Part 2 of Percy-Ripley Oh God I'm Awful (PROGIA)
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all we know how to do by EssayOfThoughts
Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
01 Jun 2016
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The little moments between every thing we see: quiet moments of contemplation, of comfort, of events we don't get to see.
My little series of mostly canon-compliant oneshots for Campaign 1.
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Percy-Ripley Oh God I'm Awful (PROGIA) by EssayOfThoughts
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
11 Oct 2024
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Essay's Perc'ahlia Week '24 Submissions by EssayOfThoughts
Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series)
11 Oct 2024
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An essay exploring how Abdirak's behaviour and beliefs tie into the overarching Loviatan faith.
Bookmarked by EssayOfThoughts
21 Oct 2025
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A very fun analysis of Loviatan faith as depicted in BG3!
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“Something is wrong with you.”
“Says the walking corpse.”
“Says the bomb that fucked a goddess.”
Bookmarked by EssayOfThoughts
20 Oct 2025
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Just such a lovely soft, tender show of two characters and the desire for intimacy without sex.
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A monster has its teeth in your companions. It builds nightmares out of their worst memories and drinks their pain.
One of your companions has a particularly bad worst memory.
But you can interfere. You are a single thread of contact in a dream where to despair is to be devoured.
A game about solitary confinement and hope.
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- Part 9 of Astarion Nonsense
Bookmarked by EssayOfThoughts
19 Oct 2025
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I would like to be very clear: if you enjoyed BG3 and especially Astarion, you should play this game.
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the branch that you break by greatcatsbys for graiai
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
29 Jul 2024
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If Father placed a knife through my throat, then it deserved to be there. I will not shy away from culpability like a child would.
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Bookmarked by EssayOfThoughts
18 Oct 2025
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A terrible, tragic depiction of Orin the Red, and how she's just as abused by the cult as anyone, if not more so.
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The Last Will and Testament of Cazador Szarr by AbigailMoment
Fandoms: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
20 Oct 2025
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"First," said Gale. "Do not kill any thinking creatures in Waterdeep unless you must to protect yourself or you have my express permission."
As Gale spoke, he could feel the weight of his words sinking into the person sitting across from him. It was like casting a spell, but took no effort. Astarion had been staring hollowly into his goblet of blood, but at this he made a faintly interested noise. As if the rule were novel and he was considering the shape of it.
"Second, you will obey me in all things," said Gale. There didn't feel like there was any honest way of softening that. Astarion didn't make any sound at all.
"Third, do not leave the tower without permission." Astarion made another speculative noise, considering this one too. But then his shoulders hunched and his eyes skittered down, as if he didn't want to look at what was about to happen.
"Fourth," Gale said, and paused. He started with some context: "There is a tressym upstairs."
Astarion's head twitched. He looked up at Gale, blinking, startled. He had the air of someone who had been bracing for a blow and instead had just been handed a balloon animal.
"A what?" he asked.
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- Part 1 of Will & Testament
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Bookmarked by EssayOfThoughts
05 Sep 2025
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A personal favourite AU, with a fantastic twist on the dynamics, impeccable thought applied to everything, and such abiding compassion for the various ways people have of dealing with and healing from trauma.