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    Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.

    Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."

    And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.

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    They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.

    “Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”

    He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.

    Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    This fic is BRUTAL and you loved every single word of it. The fic you read when your heart is broken and your soul is empty and you need a cry to purge the shit in your life. A vicious reminder of how fragile life actually is and that usually love actually IS enough if you’re willing to fight for it.

    Shane is brutal to himself in this but it hurts soooo good.

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    Shane makes a list: reasons to Come Out on one side and to Stay Safe on the other. It's definitely not meant to accidentally star in the background of his mom's Instagram post for fans to find.

    But now that the world knows, maybe Shane can finally let himself have everything he's wanted.

    If only Ilya didn't go out and get engaged the next day. Which is fine! Rozanov was settling down? Shane could settle down, too. He would find himself a nice man.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was about to commit a murder-suicide. Or at least, he felt very close to committing a murder-suicide. It didn’t make sense for him to feel this way. It didn't make sense for him to feel so… possessive over someone who wasn’t his, and yet the jealousy spread from his heart, all over his chest, down to his fingertips and toes, until there was not much he could see behind the green in his eyes. His gaze was furiously and singularly trained on Shane Hollander and whoever it was trailing his fingers up and down Shane’s forearm. He felt sick, physically sick. His fingers tightened around his glass of refilled vodka, willing the cold of it to somehow jerk him out of this stupor.

    Or, Ilya gets jealous over Shane's new friend.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    The slap that settled a million needs. I loved this so much.

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    Shane sleeps with other men, and (of course) Ilya crashes out.

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are invited to a trivia night at All Stars.

    What could go wrong?

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    14 Apr 2026