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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    29 Dec 2025

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    “We were doing brunch. It was nice. Your dad made their kitchen look like the fancy brunch places on Instagram. We were talking about my schooling, hobbies, friends, movies, normal shit. Boring shit. Then your mother starts talking about my sponsors and savings and suddenly I am giving her my banking information and the phone number of my accountant and I am signing many, many, many papers. She had a scary folder.” Ilya pulls out the scary folder and the thing was thicker than the book Shane was reading. He tosses it on the couch and it lands with a heavy thump. “It was under her chair the whole time and I did not see. The places I had to sign were already highlighted and the date was already written in.”

    Ilya tosses his body on the couch. Somehow, he makes less of an impact than the Scary Folder. “She owns me now, yes?”

    Seemingly on cue, Shane's phone lights up with a notification that Yuna Hollander has shared a calendar with you.

    Oh, God.

    or: shane's mom keeps slutting out his boyfriend (!!!) to sponsors and shane's totally cool and chill about it no really he's FINE

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    29 Dec 2025

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    “It’s yours,” Shane says quickly, as if he can hear the change in Ilya’s breathing, as if they even know each other that well. “It has to be.”

    “Oh.” For a single, shameful moment, satisfaction thrums through Ilya’s body. Mine, he thinks, briefly, before bile rises in his throat. This is bad. This is so bad. It feels like a nuclear bomb attached to them both, the timer ticking down to annihilation.

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    It's 2016, and Ilya Rozanov's lonely Christmas is interrupted by the worst possible news.

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    27 Dec 2025

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice tiny, like he doesn’t even realise he’s saying it.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    In the 2009 draft, Ilya Rozanov goes first, and Shane Hollander mysteriously drops out at the last minute. A year later, Hollander's back, and to everyone's surprise, he's drafted by the Boston Raiders — to play on the same team as his biggest rival. But being teammates doesn't necessarily mean that anything is easier.

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    18 Dec 2025

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    One blind item calling someone gay is nothing (there is at least one for everyone).

    Two blind items calling someone gay is not nothing, but it's also not something.

    Three blind items calling someone gay...

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    Shane Hollander's very sparse but very interesting blind item life.

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    15 Dec 2025