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    "Look, it’s not like Shane hasn’t thought about it before.

    He’s bitten his lip, pillows, blankets, around the urge, especially when Ilya sinks into that devastating place where each word is both sympathetic and commanding.

    It’s always harder when Ilya asks 'you can do this for me, can’t you, solnyshko?'

    Instead, he always moans and nods his head. Forces his mouth closed after he breathes out a yes."

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Ilya feels many things at the very idea of his relationship with Shane being called boring. Do not get Ilya wrong; he loves boring. Boring Shane Hollander with his weak backhand, pretty freckles, and a blush that covers his entire chest when he cries after Ilya makes him cum for a fourth time that night.

    But boring sex life? With his Jane? He settles on being mortally offended and scowls at his laughing teammates.

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    26 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 62

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    “A real husband can’t be a work husband. It’s against the rules,” Troy explained, rolling his eyes as if it were obvious.

    “But I am the real husband.”

    Shane moved Ilya’s hand away from his waist.

    He was being, in some very specific and completely absurd way, betrayed.

    “Exactly,” Troy shrugged.

    Shane Hollander didn’t know people had work husbands, much less that Ilya had one too.

    Unfortunately, he takes that personally.

    (Or: how Shane Hollander ended up acquiring a work harem.)

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    26 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 95

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    "Don't get why we have to do that stupid land thing before each game." Comeau sighed as he threw his jersey to the ground. "Waste of time. Just let us play hockey."

    Shane felt sick to his stomach as he heard noises of agreement. He looked at J.J. - the only other person of colour in the room - and saw the distant horror reflected in his eyes. It's a different sort of privileged trauma to be third-generation Canadian, to have established roots in the country but people still assume you weren't born here. The generational trauma is softer - the edges not sharp enough to make you bleed only bruise - but it was ingrained into their family in ways that others wouldn't even realize.

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    The beginning of the end doesn't start with a bang, but with a small sigh. Shane and J.J. are two of the few men of colour in the MLH; that's not something they ever forget.

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    Rachel Reid said that Shane Hollander doesn't carry grief or trauma and I'm going to die mad about it

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    26 Apr 2026

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    JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.

    Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.

    Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MHL sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.

    or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.

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    26 Apr 2026