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It’s been one year since they hooked up, one year of sporadic text messages, one year of Renjun telling himself whatever he and Chenle have is completely casual. Except it doesn’t really feel that casual when Renjun sends Chenle his flight details now, or when Chenle asks where he’s staying. When Chenle replies that he’s just booked a room in the same hotel, on the same floor, Renjun wonders if that’s Chenle’s way of saying, I want to see you too.
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29 Dec 2024
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“You didn’t kiss me goodnight,” Renjun says.
Chenle drags a hand down his face. “You barely ate all night, and you looked really upset—”
“I was upset—”
“—and I was trying to take things slow! You know. You always talk about how much of a romantic you are in your interviews.”
“You thought that was romantic?” Renjun asks, exhaling forcefully. “Wait, you watch my interviews?”
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It’s been a year and a half since Chenle and Jeno last spoke, but all it takes for them to become close again is for something to break. No matter what Chenle does, he always seems to end up right where he’d started —at least if Jeno is back in his life, people will stop asking how he broke his wrist.
Seriously. Stop asking.
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29 Dec 2024
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“Sorry for trying to make things normal again?” Jeno’s jaw clenches in agitation. “I’m telling the truth now, aren’t I?”
“You’re missing the point entirely.” Chenle smiles, despite Jeno’s confusion and indignation. Everything just clicks back into place with a sharp snap, like a bone being set. “We’re so fucking stupid. Ask me how I broke my wrist.”
“What?”
“Ask me how I broke my wrist,” Chenle reiterates, circling Jeno’s forearm with his fingers. “I promised I’d tell you one day, right? Well, it’s barely even been one day. This is it. This moment, right now. Ask me while I still have enough adrenaline to say it.”
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Lost souls like Jaemin always find themselves in Hunter’s Creek one way or another. Mark has a duty to help guide and protect them, as surely as a sheepdog does its flock.
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26 Dec 2024
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He felt like an injured member of the pack that was only a burden —at this rate, Mark would be better off as food.
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wish you'd go (throwing rocks at my window) by sweat (renjuncomplex) for ajayinthedark
Fandoms: NCT (Band)
02 Dec 2024
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When Renjun breaks his leg on a reporting job, he's stuck at home for six weeks on bed rest. He expects it to be the most boring, lonely six weeks of his life, but then he meets the guy who's window is right across from him, Chenle. Chenle is the perfect house arrest-er, rest- partner. Friendly, chatty, a great cook. Everything Renjun has always wanted...
Too bad he's already married.
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02 Dec 2024
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It’s strange, to Renjun, how already in the first week of their meeting, Chenle feels so familiar. Like something that was always meant to be there for him, to hand over just what he needs, be it food or a compliment or a laugh. It almost makes him glad he broke his leg. Like that whole thing was just some cosmic fate to make him finally see what was right there all along.
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Forced to move out on his own to face the blinding lights and winding roads, Jisung must learn what it is to own his own plates, cook edible fried rice, and never look back in anger. Mark may turn out to be a terrible teacher for all of the above, but Jisung is glad to have him along for the ride.
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24 Sep 2024
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They lie on the bed together, Mark’s phone above their heads while he scrolls through booking websites, the sunlight warm through the window and leaving a strip of gold light across the thick of his throat. Everytime they laugh, the mattress creaks and shakes. Jisung’s body floods with affection for Mark that he sorts and labels, tagging them with their taxonomic names and handling them gently as he pins them down like preserved butterflies, to admire and keep. It’s a quiet, lazy afternoon filled with what-ifs for the future, and for the first time since he came to this isolated apartment with its peeling walls and mouldy ceiling, Jisung begins to think of it as home
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Renjun looks at Mark so much, he begins to feel like he knows him as well as his own reflection in a mirror. Some days, Mark stares past Renjun like he can hardly stand to look at him. Some days, his gaze is soft, and falls upon Renjun like the first few gentle flakes of snow.
When Renjun feels affection for him like this, he knows he paints him better. He thinks maybe it hurts them both, every time he brings the brush to the canvas.
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02 Aug 2024
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Renjun wants to tell him that it isn’t so much the art he loves, but the world he is able to recreate through art. He does not love to draw, he loves what he draws. Or he draws what he loves.
While putting Mark onto paper, he fears that would sound too much like a confession.
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throw you for a rush by dandyboy (smartlove)
Fandoms: TOMORROW X TOGETHER | TXT (Korea Band)
01 Apr 2022
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“Everyone’s had a crush on Soobin at some point,” Beomgyu says, “It’s the circle of life. You’re born, you debut, you get an embarrassing crush on your leader and then you die.”
“Exactly,” Kai agrees solemnly, “Don’t worry, you’ll get over it eventually.”
Taehyun frowns, “What if I don’t want to get over it?”Taehyun realises he has a crush on Soobin, chaos ensues.
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11 Jun 2024
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Morbid curiosity gets the best of Taehyun, the corner of his brain reserved for information on Soobin itches for him to ask: “Is he a good kisser?”
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“If Jeno and I weren’t idols together, if we met in a different universe, do you think we’d still be friends?” Jaemin asks.
“I don’t know,” Renjun says. “I mean, wouldn’t it depend on the circumstances?”
But that’s the problem, Jaemin wants to scream. Because no matter what, no matter which world he wakes up in, he’s always in love with Jeno.
(or, Jaemin starts dreaming of alternate universes. Jeno is the one commonality between all of them.)
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03 Mar 2024
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Jeno gives him a questioning glance. “Ready for dinner?”
Jaemin nods. He supposes that the other Jaemin must be used to this. He can’t help but think that the other Jaemin must be one of the luckiest people in the world.
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Desperate to keep his senior Kun’s legacy alive, Dejun takes on the massive, nerve-wracking task of playing Cupid. Giving dating advice. Live. Among hundreds of listeners, for that matter. All while he hasn’t dated anyone in the history of, well—ever.
Somewhere along the way, he meets Doyoung.
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22 Feb 2024
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For the longest time, he feared Doyoung was the biggest one. A whole bunch of things past their age gap could have caused Error 404-levels of catastrophe. Distance. Timing. Irreconcilable tastes in Broadway productions. But things are okay, and have been for a while. Choice and chance hardly fall in anyone’s favor, but together, maybe something good can work.
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Dejun’s eyes glimmer, and Kun thinks of stars spread out across a midnight sky. Dejun’s fingers graze his collarbone as he drops his hand, and Kun thinks of meteors splintering as they pass through the atmosphere, fracturing, disintegrating into dust. He feels like that sometimes, caught between his desire and his sense of propriety. Dejun is so beautiful, so unbelievably talented, so full of love that he brims with it, that it spills over his edges. These past few months have been hell, and when it seems like every other member is pulling away, it’s Dejun who stays; it’s Dejun who grounds Kun, who brings him back down to earth. Or maybe it’s the other way around, and maybe Kun has been caught up in Dejun’s orbit all along.
(Or: The Kick Back stage brings Kun and Dejun closer, in more ways than one.)
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30 Jan 2024
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“Dejun-ah, what do you think of this ‒ ”
There’s a loud snore, and Kun spins around in his chair.
“… part.”
Dejun is fast asleep. His hands are pillowed beneath his cheek and his face is pointed towards the computer screen, almost like he’d been trying to get comfortable while watching Kun work.
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17 Jan 2024
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“You were crying.” Well, that sounded stupid. Chenle takes Renjun’s hand in his and squeezes it, playing with his fingers to have something to fidget with. His nails don’t feel as nice today; they're bitten and uneven when he rubs them with his thumb. “Earlier, before you came here. I just want to know why before we–you know?”
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"These are the rules. You get one wish. If you waste that wish, too bad, no take-backs. I’ll be gone forever and you’ll never see me again. Think carefully.” Chenle watches Renjun swipe his fob at the lobby door, and shuffles in close behind him. “Hey, can I come up?”
“No.” Renjun wedges one foot in the door and one elbow in Chenle’s sternum.
Chenle sways back. “Where do you want me to go?”
“Where were you before?”
Chenle rolls his eyes. “Trapped in an indefinite stasis waiting to be summoned by a miraculous show of sportsmanship from a dunce like you.”
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28 Nov 2023
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But maybe it balances out. In the kitchen, Chenle is unexpectedly patient. He grips Renjun’s wrist with his clever pianist fingers and shows Renjun how to position his knuckles safely when chopping. Chenle never raises his voice in anger, even when Renjun tears three wonton wrappers out of ten. He instructs with the tranquillity of someone with a genuine urge to impart. His skill is Renjun’s to share, and Renjun finds himself craving it.
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Jisung's buttons have a shiny PLEASE TOUCH ME stamped all over them, begging for Chenle to push and pull on them at any given moment. Chenle delights in the way Jisung bristles and puffs out his cheeks when Chenle decides to hit all of the bright buttons. He enjoys seeing Jisung's fingers furl and unfurl whenever they're in front of the cameras or in the practice room. There's a certain tension in Jisung's jaw as he rises to take the bait, the low murmur of "Chenle-yah"— it makes Chenle's blood sing and goads him to push even harder, see just how far he can go before Jisung draws the line.
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08 Nov 2023
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Chenle and Jisung do not flirt. Chenle isn’t jealous or competing for Jisung’s attention because, to put it simply, there isn’t anything to be jealous about. Chenle likes Jisung a normal amount, the amount he likes all his friends.
Although, if held at gunpoint, just maybe he’d admit he likes Jisung a smidge more.
So if there’s nothing to compete for, why does he still feel like he’s losing?
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Mystery Work
Part of renle fic fest round 1, archive
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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20 Oct 2023
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He’s thought about it before. What it would be like to be alive and breathing. Mortal and fragile. Capable of loving and being loved in return. He shouldn’t covet Earthly things, but he wonders what it’d be like to eat a bagel and be able to digest it.
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Chenle thinks he could stay like this forever.
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20 Oct 2023
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If Chenle is sure of one thing, it is the fact that he is so deeply in love it terrifies him sometimes.
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Fifteen minutes later Renjun wishes he had put up a Reddit post instead as Donghyuck bursts into another peal of unflattering laughter, his arms flailing about as though Renjun had cracked the world’s funniest knock-knock joke and hadn’t just described his latest mental breakdown.
I, 23(M) found a ring in the pocket of my boyfriend’s 21(M) favourite pair of pants.
He starts drafting it in his head. Maybe the internet would be able to help.
(Or, the one in which Renjun finds a ring in Chenle’s pocket and proceeds to have several meltdowns about their relationship and himself. )
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10 Oct 2023
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“Do you think I could make it onto one of the book reviews as a green flag character?” It’s an obvious deflection from the current conversation. He’s so annoying. Renjun loves him so much.
Renjun doesn’t have to have it all figured out yet, but Chenle is going to be here, today and tomorrow and even ten months from now. He smiles and leaves a sweet kiss on Chenle’s jawline.
“Yeah, I think BookTok would love you.”
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Jeno kisses Chenle and he knows he isn’t making any sense and he can feel his imaginary audience booing him, but Chenle tastes like pistachio and languidness, like he wants nothing but for Jeno to eat his fancy, expensive food and to get him to stay in his bed for the night.
(Jeno thinks love and friendship are complicated matters. Chenle shows him otherwise.)
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10 Aug 2023
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The weather for the day will be nice. Later, Chenle will come to Jeno’s place for his jacket and will end up staying the night.
Jeno’s heart will alleviate from a weight he didn’t know was there.
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About three things Renjun was absolutely positive.
First, Jaemin was a vampire.
Second, there was a part of Renjun—one powerless to deny the way his heart raced whenever Jaemin flashed pointed teeth at him—that resented Dejun for dragging him to the campus bar’s Halloween party because what if we see someone as hot as Edward Cullen.
And third, Jaemin was way hotter than Edward Cullen. Renjun was going to go broke if he didn’t stop visiting the bar every week to try and uncover why an actual vampire was masquerading as a student at his university. Or to try and get Jaemin’s number. Maybe both.
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02 Aug 2023
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“How old are you?”
A pause. “Twenty-two,” Jaemin answers.
“How long have you been twenty-two?”
A longer pause. “Eight months?”
Renjun’s math isn’t very good, but even he can tell that doesn’t add up.
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By the end of the day, Renjun must finish three impossible tasks. Convince the CRA to let him take over his parents’ laundromat. Finally host his father’s memorial. And get Mark Lee to break up with him.
Renjun has never been one for accomplishing the impossible, his life up until now boring and predestined. His parents left home for this quiet town in Canada when he was 7. He did two years at the community college to get a humble Associates Degree. He’s spent endless days watching dryers spin around and around. He’s never accomplished the impossible, and he hasn’t accomplished much else either.
He tells himself that this is the way it has to be. Some people just don’t get to have a story. Some people are meant to be stressed about money, and have the same conversations with their mom over and over, and spend their life thinking about what they could have done instead.
The most interesting thing that has ever happened to him is Mark, but that has to end now.
Until Mark is suddenly telling Renjun that he's from another universe, and to trust no one.
Renjun’s life here is supposed to be boring. That doesn’t mean it is boring everywhere else.
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01 Aug 2023
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When he reaches the table, he pretends to check they have enough of everything. He sees the bowl of Starbursts and laughs. Mark had forced the packet into his hands this morning saying, “I read online that you eat candy at Chinese memorials, so I got these because it’s like, well, your dad is in heaven now, I mean I believe, and so it’s like, uh, he’s burst into the stars.”
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“I’m out of clean clothes,” Minho grumbles in complaint. “I only packed enough outfits for a 2 or 3 day trip. How much longer is this going to take?”
“Believe it or not, Stockholming you into taking me back has proven to be a very long and drawn out process, hyung.”
Seungmin hops in the car after receiving his divorce papers in the mail. He types in the address on the navigation app on his phone. Destination: Minho or bust.
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07 Jul 2023
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The mood between them is overtly romantic. Maybe it’s the bottle of wine they split during dinner or the sensation of being the only two people in the world amidst so much sensory overload, but Seungmin has never felt so in love. He’s bursting with it; liquid glitter currently running through his veins, one cough away from spilling confetti onto the streets. He looks at Minho and feels the universe come screeching to a halt, time and space giving way to Seungmin’s will to behold this wonderful man forever.