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    Shane’s whining beneath him, head thrown back, exposing the long column of his neck and rutting up against Ilya. Ilya licks up his throat, nibbling at Shane’s jaw, before his lips brush the shell of Shane’s ear.

    “Tell me what you want.”

    The reply is instant.

    “You.”

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    or: after his drunken confession, shane keeps avoiding ilya. at a student party ilya finally gets the chance to speak to him.
    part 2 to Close to Me

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    21 Jan 2026

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    “I’m putting in a transfer request to Carleton this afternoon.”

    Ilya gets off his bike and wraps his sweaty arms around Shane’s sweaty shoulders, presses their sweaty heads together and holds him tight. “Nooo, Hollander, you cannot leave me. Who will put Barrett and Marly in time out when they fuck up too many shots in a row?”

    “I’m sure Bood will do it. He loves bossing people around.”

    Bood stands up straight and salutes his captains. “I take the title with great honor. Enjoy the Ravens, Hollander—your legacy of being a chaste Victorian debutante will be remembered fondly but not carried on.”

    This snaps that last thread of Shane’s refined patience. “I can pick up girls! I have no problem getting numbers and calling them and talking!”

    Hazy smirks. “Innocent until proven guilty.”

    “I can pick people up,” Shane says again, moving off his bike and out of Ilya’s sweaty embrace. “And I don’t have to do it by concocting schemes or stripping on top of the LAX bros’ coffee table.”

    Or, after some team chirping at Shane's expense, Ilya accidentally interrupts a few of his potential dating prospects and then keeps on doing it less than accidentally

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    19 Jan 2026

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    “What are you doing here?"

    He’s thankful his voice doesn’t shake, but he’s trembling. And he knows Ilya notices. Even all these years later, he’s sure he can still read Shane like a fucking book.

    Ilya’s smile softens and he points to the ice, where the player whose eyes had brought Shane back to Before lines up with the other boys.

    “My son."

    Ilya never goes to the cottage. Nearly two decades later, they meet again.

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    17 Jan 2026

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    “I'm serious. We can’t just—what, you want us to dress up and wander into Times Square like idiots? To celebrate the New Year? In public?”

    “See?” Rozanov grins wider. “You already understand concept."

    “You are unbelievable.”

    “And you,” Rozanov counters, leaning in just enough to steal Shane’s attention again, “are very boring.”

    ---Shane and Ilya, in the middle of their will-they won't-they, ring in the New Year together.

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    16 Jan 2026

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    Still, he’s felt like absolute shit for weeks, and the idea of sitting in his hotel room, where he would probably masturbate, cry, and have another night of fitful sleep, did not make him feel any better. Getting to be skin to skin with Ilya Rozanov did. And surely Rozanov wouldn’t be demanding Shane make a nest in his damn bed if he didn’t fully intend on actually kissing him in it and keeping him there until morning, right?

    Maybe that would be enough to pick Shane up out of this drop, keep it from happening again.

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    After not sending the "we didn't kiss" text, Shane's omega hormones go into distress mode. Despite trying to hide his symptoms and play through the misery, when Ilya Rozanov finds out what's going on, the alpha Shane's body wants most is determined to fix it.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of PBTR private fics
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    16 Dec 2025

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    “Wanna dance?” Eddie asks, leaning only slightly away to look at Buck. He’s smirking now, eyes traveling all over Buck’s face, taking in his expression and the color blooming on his cheeks.

    There’s a look in Eddie’s eyes now, one that Buck hadn’t quite seen before this trip. Or had he? Did it just not mean to him then what he realizes, or thinks, it means now? Regardless, it confirms a thought that has been niggling at the back of his mind all night.

    Flirting. Eddie was flirting with him.

    or, Buck visits Eddie in Texas a few months after he leaves LA. They road trip to Austin with Adriana to stay with Sophia, who has planned a night out on the town that none of them will soon forget - especially Buck and Eddie.

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    09 Nov 2025

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    Still alert due to the new change in sleeping arrangements, Buck felt the arm move once more. Oh God. That arm was now brushing against the hem of his T-shirt. Buck felt his breath stutter as Eddie’s arm continued its ministrations. Undeterred by Buck’s shaky breaths, Eddie’s palm and arm slipped beneath the hem of his shirt and lay bare against Buck’s stomach. Oh. God.

    Or, Eddie keeps touching Buck, and Buck is losing his mind.

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    08 Sep 2025

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    Eddie can’t move. Like this, Buck is illuminated by the sunlight streaming through the window; dust motes shimmering around his head, his hair haloed in gold. Beautiful, Eddie thinks. And to his surprise, he doesn’t feel any sort of guilt about doing so.

    Except — he should. Because Buck is dating Tommy, and he’s happy, and Eddie would rather go to his grave repressed and miserable than ever take away from Buck’s happiness.

    Or: Eddie starts to untangle his complicated feelings about himself, and Buck. Mainly Buck.

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    29 Aug 2025

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    “I swear, this doesn’t normally happen to me.”

    He didn’t normally run along trying to justify himself either, but it didn’t matter, because his date — Mia? Maya? — was already halfway out the door.

    “Hey, man, you don’t have to justify yourself to me… just maybe don’t go calling yourself Firehose if the hose is lacking… water pressure.”

    Buck was going to jump out a window.

    “I don’t lack water pressure, okay, this has really never happened before. And Firehose is old, I didn’t even realise that name was still attached to the profile but—”

    She sighed, “We’re not dating, Bock.” Buck’s brows wrinkled, “this was meant to be a short hookup, and your hook just isn’t going up, so I’m gonna head out.”

    Before Buck could even argue any further, Meena was gone.

    Or maybe it was Milla.

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    Eddie leaves and Buck tries to fuck about it. Instead, he fails miserably and repeatedly, gets a cat and makes some discoveries.

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    03 Apr 2025

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    “So we’re into dudes now?”

    Eddie tries not to let the amusement show on his face as he watches this weird version of Buck size him up. It’s reminiscent of their first meeting. Buck had acted like a complete idiot (he’d thought it was because he was threatened, but years later Buck will now finally admit it was because he wanted to fuck Eddie so bad it made him stupid). He’s got that same bratty look and attitude now.

    “We’ve always been into guys, you just haven’t realized it yet.” Buck (3.0? Or is it 4.0 now?) says. Eddie’s not sure what model they’ve upgraded to at this point, but that doesn’t matter. His Buck, current-Buck, husband-Buck is speaking.

    “Are you gay?” 1.0—that’s what Eddie’s taken to calling him in his mind—asks, a disgruntled look on his face. He’s actually quite cute. Smaller and leaner than the Buck Eddie first met when he started at the 118, he kind of reminds Eddie of a puppy. “Because I’m sure I don’t have to tell you this,” he waggles his eyebrows obnoxiously. “I really like women.”

    “Bi.” Buck (husband-Buck) corrects, he’s got his arms crossed over his chest, defensive.

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    Buck 1.0 time travels to a future where he and Eddie are married—everyone is handling it well.

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    17 Feb 2025

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    Eddie is three months into his fifteen month deployment when Evan Buckley shows up.

    Eddie has been in the Army long enough that he knows the type of guys he can expect. There’s the idealists, the patriots, the desperate, the gloryhounds. He can definitely tell the difference between a good soldier and a shitty one. And right from the start he believes wholeheartedly that Buckley might be one of the worst soldiers he’s ever met.

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    Eddie and Buck meet in the Army while deployed in Afghanistan.

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    04 Feb 2025

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    “I feel fucking explosive, Buck. Like I’m about to go off at any second. I don’t want you caught in my mess.”

    His eyes sting. At the very least, Buck contains the sound of it in his voice. “Eddie, I don’t know if you’ve noticed,” he replies, “but I already am.”

    Eddie self-implodes. Christopher, seeking refuge, flees to Buck—whose priorities amount to, in varying order: take in the kid, get Eddie to talk to him, and keep the three of them afloat in the process. (Oh, and Tommy’s there too. He thinks.)

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    15 Jan 2025

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    “Eddie,” Buck breathes, laughing humorlessly, his voice wet and thick. “If we sat here and-- and went through the list of things I want…” his hands gesture aimlessly. “We’d-- be here all night.”

    Eddie nods, catching Buck’s eyes again. “Maybe-- we start with mine, then.”

    The space between them feels charged with static, like the second before the thunder finally rumbles.

    -----

    Eddie’s finally choosing to be better-- finally choosing joy. He just needs a push or two in the right direction, first.

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    10 Jan 2025

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