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a longitudinal study in happiness over time by celebreultimaverba
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
25 Jul 2022
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Eight days after Cas comes back from The Empty, Dean and Cas make the decision to date, for one month. One month only.
Of course, in another world Castiel can imagine Dean loving the post, were he not involved. He would flag Castiel down sitting at the kitchen table or perhaps one of the couches, and he would say something like, “Hey, Cas, listen to this. Am I the asshole. Listen.” Dean would clear his throat then continue, reading from his phone, “I, 4.543 billion years old, male, recently broke up with my boyfriend, 42 years old, male. We had dated exactly one month, which we agreed to when we started the relationship. The relationship was quite good, as far as I’m aware, and lasted 30 full days. I broke up with him on day 30, as agreed. Now he is angry at me. I have to assume that this is because I broke up with him. Reddit dot com, am I the asshole for breaking up with him, even though we did agree to a month-long relationship?”
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08 Mar 2023
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Complete!
Dean hasn't seen his father in ten years. And now, he and his partner Castiel have been invited to spend Christmas with John and his new family.
The invitation stirs up feelings and memories for both Castiel and Dean, of the good times, and the bad. A lot can change in ten years - and a lot can stay the same.
How did we end up here?
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- 10/10
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17 Feb 2023
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"I'm Castiel. I wanted to let you know I've been noticing you all night, and I wanted to leave this with you, before I left."
(aka Cas slips Dean his number at a wedding, and a friendship/relationship takes off from there.)
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25 Jun 2022
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It’s nice not to feel sometimes. Maybe that’s why Cas doesn’t delve too deeply into figuring out what this absence of feeling must mean, because he secretly desires that cold, distant nothing feeling. The more likely reason is that Cas already knows what’s wrong with him. He’s not looking it in the face, not acknowledging the truth of it that sits heavily on his shoulders, pinning him to the earth with its undeniable presence.
See, Jack brokered a deal wherein Cas gave the Empty his grace in exchange for a life back on earth and Cas was wiped clean of every angelic notion to the very dregs. And in its place, there is nothing.
Cas is graceless. Cas is soulless.
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- Part 1 of the story they tell later
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- 14/14
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12 Jan 2022
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It would be very inconvenient for Castiel to get a crush on Claire's foster parent.
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- 16/16
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15 Nov 2021
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When Cas comes back from the Empty, Dean has to rethink everything about their relationship, and Dean’s new, post-Chuck duty.
He wants Cas to be happy and get what he wants. So, if he wants Dean, then he has him. Dean’s new responsibility is to be the best boyfriend Cas will ever want or need. If that means moving out of the bunker, and not driving the Impala, and letting Cas fuck him, then that’s what he has to do.
It’s an easy deal. It should be an easy life. So how come Dean still can’t quite make sense of it?
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11 Oct 2021
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“You’re not…nervous, right?" Sam spoke up, as he eyed his brother's increasingly frustrated attempts to fix up the guest room. "I mean, I know it’s been a while since you and Cas have seen each other in person—”
Dean snorted. ‘A while.’ Try three and a half years.
“—but you still video chat all the time—”
Once a week.
“And you guys have been best friends since you were fifteen. Doubt Cas is looking to be impressed.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. I’m just in the holiday spirit. And you’re in the Scrooge-You spirit, apparently,” Dean grumbled, walking past his brother and into the kitchen.
Sam put his hands up in surrender. “Fine, fine. If you want to pretend this is all perfectly normal, I won’t say anything else—”
Of course, that’s when the tabletop Christmas tree—which Dean had put up again this year—tipped over, scattering keychains across the floor.
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25 Aug 2021
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Most people probably wouldn’t take the naked, heavily wounded man they found in an alley home with them. Most people probably wouldn’t also offer that man a place to stay and become his best friend after realizing he’s suffering from an intense case of post-traumatic retrograde amnesia. Most people probably wouldn’t then risk almost everything they know to save said man, and maybe save the world in the process.
But then again, Dean Winchester, RN (with a specialty in supernatural care), has never been like most people. He may not have a magical bone in his body, unlike his brother Sam, but he’ll do whatever it takes to help. Even if Castiel has questionable opinions about Star Trek.
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05 Aug 2021
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01 Jul 2021
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"I mean, you’re–” He gestures at Cas, in his neat oxford shirt and nice pants. “–and I’m a high school dropout who tattoos for a living.”
Wherein Dean makes a hefty living as a tattoo artist who owns the space next to Gabriel's cafe. Sam attends the local university. When Gabe's cousin comes to live with him while starting grad school at Sam's university, Dean thinks for sure that all his negative karma's coming to bite him in the ass because Cas clearly has a thing for Sam. No one would ever choose him over Sam. That's just logic.
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- Part 1 of Worthless!verse
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- 1/1
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17 May 2021
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Cas is back from the Empty, and Dean knows how to be grateful.
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17 May 2021
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Since the death of John Winchester, Dean’s come a long way. In the small desert town of Joshua, Dean’s carved a healthy life for himself. He has a home. A business. A dog. He has friends. He even has a… Cas.
Castiel Novak is the name of the long-haul trucker that frequents Joshua’s Desert Rose Truck Stop. They have this… /thing/. They don’t talk about it, but it started when Cas pulled a stranded Dean into the cab of his 18 wheeler and brought him to the Desert rose. Six years later, it hasn’t stopped, this… whatever it was. And it’s great! It’s enough.
Until it isn’t.
When Dean’s brother, Sam, finally moves into the spare bedroom, things change. As long-kept secrets come to light, Dean’s only hope is that things will change for the better.
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- 5/5
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16 May 2021
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Ten years after his best friend moves away, Dean's struggling with his life. He ends up finding a job in LA where Cas moved to so many years ago, and because he's desperate, he looks him up. Dean and Cas get in touch again, but Dean's not so sure he fits into Cas' life anymore, as much as he wants to.
Written for the DeanCasBigBang 2019
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- English
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- 78,329
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- 14/14
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11 May 2021
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06 May 2021
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"No pet names, I popped the damn question, and you're the girl." (Or, Dean and Castiel: fake-married. Set in a hypothetical s9.)
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25 Apr 2021
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Castiel’s father is dying.
As a registered nurse, he’s the obvious choice out of the four Novak boys to uproot his entire life to care for him, despite the fact that Castiel hasn’t spoken to his father in nearly 20 years. So he’s stuck living in rural Kansas with a cranky former pastor and a car that won’t run. Luckily the best mechanic in town takes interest in the broken-down classic, even convinces the old man to restore it. And that’s not the only thing Dean Winchester takes interest in.
Except in Lebanon there are things you just don’t do and Dean knows the rules. You wave at your neighbor, your butt is in the pew on Sunday and boys DO NOT kiss other boys. Castiel can’t be with a guy who’s still in the closet and Dean can’t convince Castiel that it’s safer that way.
That’s just how it is in Lebanon.
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- Part 1 of In Lebanon Verse
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15 Apr 2021
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Castiel Novak receives a rather alarming text message from an unknown number, and what started as a simple misdial quickly turns into the greatest friendship Castiel has ever known. But Dean has many secrets, dangerous truths about the life he lives, and would like to tell Castiel exactly none of them.
A (slightly) AU, (mostly) text fic, S3 fix-it romance (of sorts).
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19 Mar 2021
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Dean is three years sober when Cas comes back into town.
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For a moment, they just stare at each other. Dean, once again, has to swallow the urge to offer to swallow something else. It's very hard to resist the gut-wrenching pull of want that hooks in his chest whenever he looks at Cas. And to think, he used to have him, used to be able to act on that want.
God, he's so fucking stupid.
Well, there's no point in kicking himself three years later for shit he can't change. He'll just sit right here and pretend that his fingers aren't twitching with the urge to reach out and touch. He can't do that anymore, and it's his own damn fault.
"Three years ago," Cas prompts.
Dean huffs a weak laugh. "Yeah. Eventful."
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06 Mar 2021
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Cas asks Dean to marry him, and Dean can't think of a reason to say no.
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"Dean," Cas says calmly, gingerly sitting his fork down, and oh, this is gonna be a thing, Dean can tell. Sure enough, it is because Cas goes on to say, "What would you think if I suggested we get married?"
Dean blinks and swallows the food in his mouth, staring at Cas curiously. "I would think...you were either on drugs or going insane, why?"
"I'm not inebriated, nor mentally unstable."
"I—I…" Dean takes in a deep breath, then blows it out heavily. "Cas, you're not fucking with me, are you?"
"I'm not," Cas tells him.
"Okay," he says, "fuck it, let's get hitched."
"Thank you," Cas murmurs sincerely, then picks his fork back up and goes right back to eating.
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06 Mar 2021
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So, the first thing that happens is Castiel comes back.
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"Right," Dean says eventually, gruffly. He looks down at his shoes. "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life, man. It's—you know, yours. Do your thing, love who you love, whatever. I can't really stop you from loving me, if that's what you've decided to do, but I don't—I can't—"
"I know," Castiel murmurs, still just smiling a little, not looking heartbroken at all. "Don't worry about it, Dean, that's all I ask."
"So we're—" Dean risks a glance up, swallowing thickly. "We're good?"
Castiel hums. "We're good."
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04 Mar 2021