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I still dream of violence, angry at the waiting game by somevelvetmornings
Fandoms: Leviticus (Movie 2026)
13 Jul 2026
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“I had another dream. About it.”
Ryan’s eyebrows knit in worry, hands extending out to Naim.
“What? C’mere,” he takes hold of Naim’s hands gently, guiding him back to bed.
Naim hesitates for a moment before letting him. He rests his hands in Ryan’s palms, feeling the warmth of his skin.
“It was different from the last one, it was more… real, I guess,” Naim shrugs, taking a seat on the bed. “Sorry if I woke you.”
Ryan is quick to shake his head. “No, no, always wake me when this happens, seriously, Naim. Keep talking, tell me what happened.”
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Naim was the first thing Ryan had ever been able to keep in spite of the world. Naim wanted to give him more things, as many as he could steal away and carry home.
Or: Naim and Ryan shop for cosmetics on Ryan's birthday. Homoerotic eyeliner application ensues. Takes place abt a year or so after they leave Bandee.
Title from Eli's "I Wish I Was a Girl"
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- Part 6 of leviticus healings
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01 Aug 2026
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Naim was the first thing Ryan had ever been able to keep in spite of the world. Naim wanted to give him more things, as many as he could steal away and carry home.
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After Naim and Ryan are lured into a trap, Ryan is more badly hurt than he initially lets on. No matter what happens, Naim can't leave him.
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01 Aug 2026
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University will be filled with men who have trust funds and expensive internships, ones who could afford to take Naim to dinner and museums and on romantic dates. Men who didn’t smell like motor oil and clay dust and cigarettes, men who could take him to parties in polo shirts and nice clean cars. Naim would never have to take the bus again. Roiling, hot jealousy fills his head for this nameless, faceless man, Naim’s future boyfriend. He’d probably play the guitar or something. Write Naim stupid songs. Shit like that. Ryan feels sick.
Since leaving Bandee an over a year ago, they’ve never spent a single night apart. Naim’s University orientation might change that.
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- Part 5 of All that's holy
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31 Jul 2026
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“I think people underestimate how stupid the human brain really is. It’s all very simple, the way we work. Remarkably so, honestly. If something causes us pain, our brain tells us to avoid it. Fear is one of the most singularly powerful motivators for survival we possess.”
Cardboard bites into Naim's palm. Fingers open, then close, crumpling it smaller and smaller, the coffee soaking between his fingers where the bloated paper releases it.
"So what happens when someone betrays you so thoroughly? How does your brain decide to process that? You’re fighting back against your own base instinct.”
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Naim steps off the bus into a new life- but that doesn't garuntee it'll be easy. -
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Ruffled, Naim stands taller. "What'd you mean 'a guy like me'?"
Those ice blue irises dip, lazily dragging down to the front of his converse before taking the same path back up again. When they meet Naim's eyes again, there is a glint in them that makes his stomach flip.
A smirk overtakes the blond's expression. "Dunno. That's what I'm curious about."
The night begins as just another party that Naim is being dragged along to. However, that changes the moment that Ryan Whelan notices him through the crowd.
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29 Jul 2026
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Naim bites his bottom lip to smother a smile from showing. Though he does think there may be something sinister brewing inside of him, with how hot he finds that uncertainty in Ryan's gaze whenever he thinks he is doing something wrong.
love whats wrong with both of us tbh
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Under the weight of Naim’s gaze, Ryan was a boundless thing, forever unspooling like silk ribbon into Naim’s waiting arms. That feeling made him soft, made him complacent and docile and all the things he’d tried to lock away many years ago. It made him vulnerable. Ryan pretended not to know that, but he did know. The thing attached to him knew it, too.
Or: The entity plays with its food. Ryan thinks Naim might hate him.
Ryan's experience with the entity since the film is mostly Naim's POV.
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- Part 5 of leviticus healings
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28 Jul 2026
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He should have known, but he’d always had the survival instincts of a loyal dog, the type that didn’t notice when its owner slowly stopped feeling responsible for it.
lord. this hurt in a good way
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"Naim hangs up the call with a bit more force than is probably necessary, the desperation in her voice still ringing through his ears. Fuck. That was stupid. That was so, so stupid."
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Naim calls his mother.
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28 Jul 2026
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holes in his sneakers (and his eyes all over me) by sonwar
Fandoms: Leviticus (Movie 2026)
26 Jul 2026
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There is something impossible and bright growing in Naim’s chest, like someone has reached inside him and shone a light in him, warm and all consuming. Ryan is dazzling, pink cheeked and white gold in the light, run down converse and a soft mouth, his calloused hand in Naim’s.
A series of firsts.
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27 Jul 2026
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Ryan nods. Something much shyer creeps into his expression as his eyes trail away to somewhere left of Naim’s mouth. “I wanted to see you here. ‘Truth is—I don’t really have a lot that’s just mine, you know? Except for you.”
Ohh my god
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Ryan kicks off his shoes and then he’s crowding Naim against the couch, lips burning like sun-soaked December. He kisses the slope of his jaw, his cheek, the side of his mouth. Naim is breathless trying to keep up. He tangles his fingers in Ryan’s hair and tugs—anything to slow the love spilling out of his mouth.
“Ryan—” Naim can only breathe and moan into Ryan’s mouth, pressing their bruised lips together over and over and over. He curls one hand around Ryan’s left bicep and he twitches in his pants. He’d be a lot more embarrassed if this didn’t happen every day.
When Ryan finally pulls away, their lips are still centimeters apart. He smiles, soft and pretty and unbearably fond. “You hungry?” He asks.
Naim nods. Fucking starving.
(ryan, naim, and their flat in paris.)
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27 Jul 2026
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Naim gets tormented by nightmares and his own insecurities. Ryan shows him he's not alone.
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23 Jul 2026
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As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?***
maybe they can outrun it, if he just keeps driving
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19 Jul 2026
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One of the leviticus fics of all time. Marvelous
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The town had already killed Ryan and Naim the moment they let that healer cross their threshold. A little more violence hardly mattered to them. The manner of Ryan’s devotion definitely didn’t.
or: canon divergence where naim jumps into the fight against macca's boys to protect ryan (and gets hurt)
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- Part 4 of leviticus healings
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17 Jul 2026
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“Naim,” Ryan says lowly.
“Yes!” Naim whimpers against the tile. “Yes, I fucking like it.”
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17 Jul 2026
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Those who have trusted in God may be careful to devote themselves to doing what is good.
Ryan has an emptiness within him that devotion feeds off of. A need for love. Little did he know, that vacuum was perfectly Naim shaped. A place for his devotion to go towards, somebody to believe in and worship. Something Holy.or, the year after ryan and naim leave
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15 Jul 2026
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“It’s okay,” Naim said. There was still blood seeping from his mouth.
“No.” Ryan shook his head. He didn’t know where to touch Naim, didn’t know if he trusted himself to. Carefully he reached for his wrist, the closest thing, and pulled his hand from where it clenched white around the railing. “No, fuck. Come here—”
Ryan could see the ragged skin of the gash beneath Naim’s chin, the blood still dripping freely onto his collarbones. A deep wine-purple was blooming at his brow. And Ryan had done this, the real Ryan.
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In a moment of panic, Ryan mistakes Naim for the Entity.
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15 Jul 2026
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what a mistake to see you (kiss me like all the others) by sonwar
Fandoms: Leviticus (Movie 2026)
14 Jul 2026
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He can’t seem to reconcile the vicious, angry sneer he saw on Ryan’s face with the sweet way he sometimes smiles into kisses, or even with the cocksure, arrogant smirk he sometimes wears that makes Naim feel both annoyed and warm all over.
Naim and Ryan talk about the Hunter thing.
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14 Jul 2026
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It doesn't help that Ryan's fingers are suddenly moving, not holding him anymore, but just…hovering. Pads tickling over knuckles, down to his palm, and then up again. When their sticky palms slot together, it's Ryan's hand that comes up larger.
Or in which Naim yearns, and yearns, and yearns.
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14 Jul 2026
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Years on from Bandee, part of him was still scared of how Ryan made him feel. The things he made him want. Maybe he'd never be able to let go of that fear entirely, ruined by what they'd been through in more ways than a murderous shadow. But tonight there was an ache inside of him like a bruise and Naim needed desperately for it to be pressed.
Naim and Ryan go to a friend's birthday, and Naim lets himself want without fear.
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- Part 2 of i want it to look like you
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14 Jul 2026
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The first time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Ryan was bleeding. The second time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Naim couldn’t keep it in.
or: Neither of them can sleep after they leave Bandee, and Ryan tries to stop the guilt from eating them both alive.
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- Part 2 of leviticus healings
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14 Jul 2026
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“I meant it when I said I forgave you,” Ryan said. “I know what it’s like to be so scared that you…” Ryan licked at his dry lips. “You do things you don’t even want to do.” Ryan thought of being perpetually bruised for years because Hunter’s stones were the closest thing he ever had to real affection.