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Staring at the Sun by Nerve_Itch
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 Apr 2026
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The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating.
The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice.
“I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”
Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.
“Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"
Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little.
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Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.- Language:
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13 Apr 2026
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That Old Black Hole by begonias
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Apr 2026
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Galina makes it a point to remind Ilya that people aren’t mind readers, and unfortunately, if there’s something wrong, he has to actually communicate this. He's aware of this. He is. Even though it's always been so much easier said than done, even on a good day.
But when the unthinkable happens, Shane ends up seriously injured, and Ilya can't bring himself to reckon with his role in it all, or how they'll move forward.
Now it's all the more impossible to communicate the weight of his guilt, the feelings of inadequacy, and the all-consuming fear that Shane might not survive.
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13 Apr 2026
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Sick and Tired, I Am Not to Blame by DisneysFavoriteGleek
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Apr 2026
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He had never seen this look on Ilya’s face before. It wasn’t anger. It was something else. Something scarier than seeing him angry. Fear. He has never seen his boyfriend like this.
Ilya wasn’t even sure if he was physically hurt. He wasn’t worried about that. He couldn’t think straight. His adrenaline was rushing.
“Ничего не стоящий.” Worthless. His father’s words rang in his head.
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Shane and Ilya have a very intense argument. Shane gets overstimulated and pushes Ilya off of him. This sends Ilya into a PTSD flashback. PTSD flashback leads to manic episode. (Ilya Rozanov needs a hug)
Title from “None of Your Concern” by Jhené Aiko
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12 Apr 2026
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I would've died for your sins, instead i just died inside by CosmicPhantoms
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 Apr 2026
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“Hollander.” He practically pleaded.
Not once, but twice.
Oh.
Oh.
It wasn’t casual for Ilya.
And maybe.
Just maybe.
It was as real for him, as it was for Shane.
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08 Apr 2026
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Ilya starts to notice the traits of C-PTSD in Shane. He tries to help Shane realize and understand his feelings.
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06 Apr 2026