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    Puck Buzz @puckbuzzgossip
    Shane Hollander-Rozanov hangs up his skates for the night to sit with the other SAPs (Spouses and Partners) at tonight’s pre-season exhibition game between the Ottawa Centaurs and the Montreal Metros 👀. We’re told Shane’s other half will be on the ice tonight, so watch this space!

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    A couple instances of Ilya being exposed for the Lover Boy(tm) he is online.

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    10 May 2026

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    fun! 🤍

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    “Where are you going?”

    “To the arena, Hollander. We are playing a game in three hours.”

    “That’s tomorrow, Rozanov,” Hollander says, smirking like Ilya might be fucking with him and he wants to make sure he’s in on the joke. He looks behind and around him. “Um, can I come inside?”

    “Hollander, we have game today. You were here yesterday.”

    Hollander is striding toward his kitchen, looking over his shoulder at Ilya like he’s getting tired of the joke. “Very funny. I was in Montreal yesterday, Rozanov.”

    “Hollander.” Ilya goes to stand in front of him. Hollander’s eyes flicker up and down his body the way that Ilya usually craves, but is rather unwelcome right now. “Today is Thursday. Game is today. Yesterday, you came to my house. We ate tuna melts, watched Buffalo game. Then, you left.”

    “Rozanov, it’s Wednesday morning. And I’ve never been to your house before.”

    “Hollander…”

    “Look at your phone if you don’t believe me.”

    Ilya snorts like a bull and pulls his phone out of his pocket, swipes down on the screen to look at the date.

    Wednesday, November 9th.


    Or: Ilya Rozanov in Groundhog Day!

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    08 May 2026

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    amazing story, so emotional, such an original idea. loved it! 🤍

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    Hayden: Jackie is very jealous of your manny.
    Hayden: Says he’s incredible and that a bunch of the school moms are trying to get play dates with Violet.

    Shane: He is great.
    Shane: Kind of a menace, too, but Violet loves him, so I overlook some things.

    Hayden: Oh, I’m sure.
    Hayden: She also said he’s super hot.
    Hayden: Like he missed his calling as a model hot.

    Shane: Geez, Hayd. You want to marry him or something?

    Hayden: NO.
    Hayden: I just thought maybe for you, ya know?
    Hayden: You haven’t dated anyone like…ever.

    Shane: I’m not going to get involved with my daughter’s manny.
    Shane: That would be irresponsible.
    Shane: Even if he is stupid model hot.
    Shane: And obnoxiously charming and funny.
    Shane: Plus, he cooks, and has the best accent.
    Shane: And is amazing with my daughter.
    Shane: God. Fuck my life.

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    08 May 2026

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    LOVED THIS AU! funny & what a beauty! 🤍

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    Shane’s team gifts him a soulmate reading with renowned soulmate seer Ilya Rozanov. The problem? Shane doesn’t want to know anything about his soulmate. Ilya promises to keep whatever he sees a secret; that way Shane can stay oblivious, the team won’t find out he refused their gift and the reading still gets done. Everyone wins, right? Wrong.
    Guess who turns out to be Shane’s soulmate…

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    08 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    lovely AU! angsty but HEA 🤍

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    Ilya suggests Shane can sleep with other people because he’s trying to be selfless. Shane storms out because he thinks Ilya is trying to get rid of him. They both spend the next several hours spiraling in different cities: Shane in a Montreal bar, Ilya in his own head.

    Shane tries to prove a point and almost throws up instead.
    Ilya drives to Montreal like he’s about to commit a felony.
    And Hayden Pike has to witness all of it.

    Or, two idiots in love speedrun an almost breakup and accidentally end up engaged.

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    08 May 2026

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    beautiful, super angsty HEA. TLG scene Ilya telling Shane he can explore. Shane tries, breaks, Ilya proposes, HEA. Loved it!

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    I could marry Svetlana.

    A noise built in his head. A steady, growing sound—and the more he thought about what had just happened, the harder it became to hear anything else.

    Another rush of noise pulsed behind his eyes. He twisted the tap to icy cold and splashed his face—the same water he’d praised not long ago, feeling sheepish and suddenly not knowing what to say. But they didn’t need words anymore. He’d thought so.

    His head felt ready to burst. He cupped a handful of water and poured it over his neck, gasping involuntarily. He stood there wet and shaking, water soaking through his shirt. He hated it. He hated how sticky it felt, how it clung to his burning skin—hated it as much as he’d hated that godawful ad shoot where they kept pouring water over him and touching him—

    “Shane?” Ilya’s voice cut through the noise, both in his head and through the bathroom door.

    Leave me alone.

    “Shane, are you okay?”

    Please leave me alone. Please do it now so it doesn’t hurt later.

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    08 May 2026

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    short beautiful fic, Shane's reaction to Ilya's "I could marry Svetlana" 🤍

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    5 times Ilya Rozanov is loved by Yuna Hollander without asking + 1 time he does ask.

    Or…Ilya learns what it means to have a family.

    Plus one bonus scene of Ilya and David during the Shane/Yuna talk.

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    08 May 2026

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    sweet, Yuna taking care of Ilya🤍 short fic, various little scenes

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    "You're Rozanov," he said.

    "Yes."

    "I'm Shane Hollander." He put the envelope on the counter between them, flat, his hand beside it rather than pushing it forward. "It's all there."

    Ilya picked it up. He should have left; he had nothing else to do there. But he didn't. He stood at the bar and looked at Shane Hollander. At his dark hair, his brown eyes, the freckles, the way his shirt was rolled to the elbow, and how his arms looked strong. He thought about what it would be like to take him apart. Then he left.

    In the car, Marleau handed him his coffee and said nothing. Ilya drank it, looked out the window, and told himself he desperately needed to get laid.

     

    Ilya Rozanov does collections for the Severny Veter bratki. Every Tuesday, he walks into a Japanese restaurant on Avenue Laurier, picks up an envelope, and leaves. It's simple. It's always been simple.

    Then Shane Hollander starts working the bar, and nothing about it is simple anymore.

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    08 May 2026

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    author of hbam, so a must read, obviously. top of my WIP fics list. mafia au. lovelovelove

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    It was supposed to be a simple comment, a passing question asked in jest about whether Ilya had any regrets around their wedding.

    But when it turns out that he does, Shane and his husband vow to right their past wrongs and re-do their wedding ceremony, but this time with a better guest list, their own vows included, and perhaps a couple dozen chairs.

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    08 May 2026

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    sweetest vow renewal short fic 🤍

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.

    The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive. 

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    29 Mar 2026

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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

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    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    29 Mar 2026

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    28 Mar 2026

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    Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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    Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
    Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
    Yuna flies to Russia.
    Lots of Svetlana.
    Healing journey fluff afterwards.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    25 Mar 2026

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