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    Truth is, he could just say it. He could just be honest.

    Ilya, I'm worried you will see all these hot naked women and remember you miss them. Ilya, I'm worried I'm not enough. Ilya, I'm worried you'll come home and see me in comparison, so inelegant, so bulky, so brash, and realize this is wrong for you. That I am wrong for you. But saying all this would mean opening this entire huge clunky box thing, which only remains closed in virtue of Shane never looking at it for more than two seconds. So he says nothing.

    But one rule supersedes all other rules regarding Ilya: if he wants to fuck around, Shane will make sure he finds out.

    Or: Shane gets himself a set of pretty lingerie as revenge, and Ilya comes all over his pretty panties embarassingly fast.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    “Rozanov needs a place to stay. His visa won’t allow him to go home to Russia over the break, and we don’t have the cash to put him in a hotel.”

    Did the Harvard dorms completely shut down over the winter break? What about the dining hall? Shane supposed he didn’t really know. He’d never stuck around to find out, when he was younger. 

    “Okay?” 

    Coach raised his eyebrows. “So, he’s staying with you.” 

    Shane’s eyes went wide. 

    “What?” 

    “Come on, Captain,” Wiebe looked down his nose at Shane. “Try not to look too thrilled.”

     
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    or, Shane's a senior captain with an empty house over winter break. and Ilya's the freshman who will be crashing his Christmas. 

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    29 Apr 2026

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    “Maybe—maybe Lily is sleeping,” she says. Bargaining, she realizes numbly. She’s bargaining for more time. And for whatever is unfolding here to stop unfolding and in fact fold itself back up. Her thumb shifts away from the call button. “And you should be sleeping too, mister.”

    “He’s not sleeping.” Shane flares his nostrils—another gesture Yuna hasn’t seen in so many years. “He’s waiting for me to call a third time. Mom. Please. He’s—he’ll be so worried.”

    Yuna shifts her thumb and lets it drop. Is Yuna a bad mother if she hopes "Lily" doesn’t pick up?

    -x-

    or: Shane needs to call someone the night he's laid out by Marlow, and Yuna reflects on her quietly, obsessively devoted son.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    “Is this about the choking thing?” Shane asks. “I only said no to that because I’m not letting you compromise my fucking airway during sex.”

    “But it is not compromising your airway when my dick is in your throat?”

    “No. This is why you lost today, because that’d be my esophagus, not my trachea,” Shane corrects. He’s such an asshole sometimes, Ilya loves it. “Anyways, I don’t think we do anything kinky?”

    Ilya abruptly feels like he’s lost the plot. “Hollander, I am pretty sure we do.”

    shane has a bad call. afterwards, ilya makes sure he gets what he needs.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Weed man Ilya thinks Shane is too adorable to pay for weed.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    ‘Was he? What you needed?’

    ‘No. I mean, sort of. But…’

    ‘Did he hurt you?’

    Shane didn’t answer. Instead, his gaze dipped to the floor.

    The blood drained from Ilya’s face. ‘Shane?’

    ‘Um.’

    Ilya’s fingers dug into the desk he was leaning on. He watched Shane’s face. That beautiful fucking face. The one he had to force himself not to stare at on the ice in case he got distracted. The face he had known since he was eighteen years old. Whether Shane believed it or not, there were few people who could read his face like Ilya Rozanov could.

    And he was reading the truth on it now.

    ‘Fuck. He hurt you?’

    //

    In which Ilya finds out that Shane's other sexual experiences have not been as safe or pleasurable as he deserves and decides to make things right.

    (Please check the tags, this might not be for you!)

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane and Ilya trade favorite porn videos. Somehow it’s very romantic.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    “Is it….I mean, it doesn’t bother you, does it? That I need this so much, I mean.”

    Ilya is looking at him now. “You’re asking me if I’m bothered by your need for me?”

    Shane flushes. “I’m just saying, I know it can be a lot.”

    “Solnyshko. It’s not even 10AM, and you’ve already sucked my cock twice and I’ve fucked you. This is not a hardship for me. I am happy to do this for you.”

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    09 Apr 2026

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    While at the top of his game, professional porn star Ilya Rozanov is approached by the famous yet boringly untalented OnlyFans creator Shane Hollander who wants to collaborate. What starts as a transactional partnership quickly turns into a war of egos, blurred boundaries, and incredible on-camera chemistry.

    As their views climb and the sexual tension thickens they're left to confront the reality that maybe their mutual hatred might be the spark for some thing far more intimate then just sex.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    Colin is a senior at Duke University, playing on the basketball team.

    Ilya Rozanov is the star sophomore on Duke University's basketball team.

    Rozanov wants Colin's boyfriend, Shane Hollander, who is also a senior.

    And, well. Ilya Rozanov always gets what he wants.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Ilya often enjoys teasing Shane with a certain concept, but Shane knows Ilya is far too jealous of a man, actually, to commit to this idea he likes to throw around, and Shane would never agree to it because he only has eyes for one man.

    A threesome.

    The idea is a threesome.

    Or: how hollanov can ethically, monogamously, have a threesome.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    He watches the tape again over dinner. Listens to Rozanov moan inside a girl's pussy while he eats. By the time he finishes his last bite, Rozanov's inside her, her nails raking down his back, her mouth twisted open in pleasure, and Shane's hard in his pants.

    So, Shane puts his plate in the sink and goes back to his room. Starts the video over.

    ———

    A sex tape of Ilya with a girl leaks. Shane reacts normally.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Ilya laughs. He finds that once he starts, he can't stop. He laughs at the fact that he's in France with Shane Hollander. He laughs at the fact he's Shane Hollander's boyfriend. He laughs at the fact that he gave up Moscow for a better life, only to end up in fucking Ottawa. 

    Ilya's dick stops working one month before he's supposed to leave for the South of France. 

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Ilya’s blood has always run hotter than Shane's.

    Or: Yay Hollanov free use! Everybody cheered!

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    15 Mar 2026

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    When he was a boy, Ilya used to play with his mother’s Matryoshka doll. He’d unstack the wooden layers. The biggest, then the next, then the next. Always finding something new, until he got to the smallest, most delicate one at the center.

    Ilya has always known Shane isn’t like anyone else. After their summer at the cottage together, Ilya learns that being with Shane is like unstacking nesting dolls. Every layer is a new treasure to discover, and the man at the center has re-shaped his entire world.

    Or, 5 times Shane unmasks around Ilya and the new ways Ilya finds to love him.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    “H’rder,” Shane whines into his mouth, not even trying to interrupt the kiss but speaking pathetically muffled and slurred around Ilya’s tongue.

    Ilya knocks their foreheads together, smiles.

    Nooooo Ilya, not before the game, Ilya,” he whines, a sweetly mocking imitation of Shane, “and now look at you, mhm? Why should I ever listen to your complaining, baby, when you’re gonna be such an easy, perfect slut for it anyways?”

    Or: Shane plays four-dimensional chess to get Ilya to fuck him even when he tells him no, for Shane-typical control freak reasons, in Shane-typical convoluted ways, with Shane-typical unawareness of this being a sex freak thing. Ilya provides, of course.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    “Haas,” Ilya says. His tone light, conversational. “He had a good game.”

    “Are you seriously talking about Haas right now?”

    The sting is taken out of Shane’s words by how breathlessly he says them, but he still has that cute scrunched-up frown that Ilya loves so much.

    “He’s a good kid,” Ilya says. “Very pretty.”

    “Fuck off,” Shane snaps. But Ilya just presses deeper into him, the answering gasp as familiar as if it came from his own lungs.

    “You don’t think so? I saw you doing yoga together. Seemed like you were...” Ilya searches for the words. When he finds them, grins. “Admiring his form.”

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    Breaking my silence to say that I think Hollanov would have a threesome and they'd have it with Luca Haas. But don't worry, they're obviously jealous and possessive and insane about it the whole time.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Luca hadn’t been sure he would go through with the plan. He’d talked himself into it and out of it about fifty times.

    But he's made it this far. He's sitting with Shane Hollander, just the two of them. Now all he needs to do it open his mouth and—

    “Look,” Shane is saying, “if you wanted to talk through coming out, I th—”

    “I can’t figure out anal sex,” Luca blurts.

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    117,368

    25 Feb 2026

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