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Buck’s not really sure what to say here, so he doesn’t say anything. For a minute they stand there in total silence, the TV muted, and looking at Eddie – the defeated slump of his shoulders, the hand over his mouth, the eyes staring blankly at nothing – it’s like those modern art installations one of Buck’s exes used to take him to: Man, with broken heart.
Man, eviscerated.
Buck’s no good with people being sad around him – it always feels like his responsibility, like if they aren’t smiling it’s his fault, and this time it really is his fault, at least partially, so he offers, “You can beat me up, if it would make you feel better.”
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[OR: Buck accidentally fucks Eddie's wife.]
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12 Oct 2025
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Maybe he just needs to meet the right person. That’ll help with the giant best friend-shaped hole in his chest. He clicks the end of his pen and writes:
I’ll meet the love of my life tomorrow.
Or, Buck's journal grants wishes. It's not his fault that the only things he wants are the things he can't have.
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04 Oct 2025
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Eddie is happy, with Buck.
He is.
And he’s letting himself be happy.
So he’s not sure why there’s still guilt grabbing at his throat, why there’s something wrong settling in his stomach, and why he looks in the mirror and can’t recognize himself.Series
- Part 1 of trans eddie
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22 Jun 2025
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From there, it becomes a thing. At least once a day, either Christopher or Buck declare that a mild inconvenience is a part of the anti-gay agenda.
They hit every red light? During pride month? Homophobic.
The hot water stops working? In June? Homophobic.
Or, Eddie doesn't think he really needs to come out to anyone. Christopher adopts a new catchphrase. Buck is confused.
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10 Jun 2025
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Carm blows smoke up at the sky and meets her gaze. “No, I couldn’t. You…we’re partners now. We need to be in this together.”
Syd doesn’t seem satisfied with this.
He pauses. Thinks. Starts again. “I’m at my best when I’m in the kitchen with you. Everything turns out better when I make it for you. And I mean everything, not just food. Choices too.”
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25 May 2025
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He knows this is dangerous, that he's feeling things he normally tries to ignore much stronger than usual, but he thinks if he lets go right now he’ll die. “Hey. You know what I was doing when you were stuck in that well?”
“I was trying to dig you out. I couldn't stand the thought of you being trapped like that. But you got yourself out, didn't you?”
or; Eddie sees the TV glow.
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22 May 2025
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“Oh no,” Chim says, before Eddie’s even landed on Maddie, “We’re all happily married. You want someone to kiss you, you find some single lips.”
Buck nods in agreement, lifting his beer again.
He’s barely brought it to his lips when he realizes the entire table is staring at him expectantly. He blinks. “Why’s everyone looking at me?”
“You’re single,” Athena says.
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or, Buck and Eddie are Buck and Eddie.
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30 Mar 2025
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Raphael’s trying his best not to be nosy, but his eyes land on Eddie’s screen anyway, and he huffs out a quiet laugh. “My wife sends me stuff like that, too. I don’t know where she finds it.”
“If she’s anything like Buck, she’s got the oddity section on AP News bookmarked.”
Eddie’s card makes a soft little beep as he taps it against the machine, and Raphael smiles at him as he tears the receipt off and hands it over. “How long have y’all been together?”
...or, everyone in El Paso has lost their minds.
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30 Mar 2025
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The silence on the other end sharpens.
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Buck snaps.
Eddie flinches. “Nothing. I—”
“No, come on, say it. What does that mean, Eddie?” Buck pushes, voice rising.
He feels trapped, like the walls are closing in, like he’s been backed into a corner with no way out. His palms feel sweaty, chest rising and falling too fast, too shallow, like there’s not enough air in the room.
He’s angry.
He’s hurt.
He’s confused.
He’s jealous.It’s too much all at once, emotion piling on top of emotion with nowhere to go.
And it keeps coming.
And. And. And.
His body is trembling under the weight of everything he can’t say, everything he didn’t know until now.
“I’m just saying,” Eddie starts, “it’s only been a couple of weeks and now you’re fucking Tommy Kinard in my bedroom—”
“It’s not your bedroom anymore,” Buck cuts in, his voice sharp. “You made sure of that, when you left.”
Or; 8x11 coda
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- Part 1 of mine.
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23 Mar 2025
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He saw what Tommy must have seen, Buck who was so obviously jealous of them. Buck who always defaulted to Eddie’s side. Buck who asked Tommy to move in despite wanting Eddie to go to the stupid basketball game with him a few hours earlier.
My attention?
You can take Eddie if you want.
I’m not your last.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh no.
Oh fuck.
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After Buck gets dumped, he remembers he agreed to go to Abby's wedding with a date. Eddie steps up and pretends to be his boyfriend. All hell breaks loose.
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20 Feb 2025
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I’ll tell them put me back in it (and I would do it again) by paleredheadinascifi
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04 Feb 2025
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Eddiaz is listening to the slowburn friends to lovers playlist
Eddiaz listened to the POV you’re falling in love with your best friend playlist
Eddiaz listened to the sad gay yearning hours playlist
Eddiaz listened to the he was my best friend and that was the worst part playlistOr, Eddie doesn't know how to make his listening history private. Buck doesn't know what to do with the words in front of his eyes. Chris cannot believe he has to deal with either of them.
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06 Feb 2025
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‘cause i need touchin’ so primal by fruitsdoesnotknow for ChaoticLava101
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
09 Dec 2024
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“Hey,” Buck says warmly into the phone, tucking it between his shoulder and ear with a smile at his lips.
“Fuck,” Eddie muttered harshly into the phone, his voice rough through the receiver.
“Eddie?” Buck called out, frowning. He lowered his phone from his ear to check the call, and yeah, still connected, full reception. He raises it back to his ear and catches the tail end of a noise, a choked-out groan. “Are you okay?”
“Buck,” Eddie panted, his breath coming out in heavy exhales. “Buck –”
Grabbing his keys, Buck makes it to the loft door, jacket half on when he stops dead in his tracks, phone still pressed to the side of his head as he hears Eddie in his ear.
“Yes, Buck, yes, yes, please, yes –”
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Or, Eddie accidentally, sort of, maybe has phone sex with Buck for roughly five seconds, and Buck spirals about it until Eddie finally ends up in his lap.
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Bookmarked by letterlimerence
10 Dec 2024
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“Now that is a handsome man.”
The first thing Hen notices about New Recruit Eddie Diaz is that he is in possession of a remarkable set of abdominal muscles. The next thing she notices is the wedding ring.
And Buck is staring at him like a piece of meat.
“Oh, nuh-uh,” she says immediately. “Don’t even think about it, Buckley.”
or, Eddie is new, and married, and Buck won’t stop flirting. 5+1.
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05 Dec 2024
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The feeling came late (I'm still glad I met you) by paleredheadinascifi
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Nov 2024
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"Come on, Buck. Let it out. I hate this, too. I hate leaving you. Tell me how much you hate it. Yell at me, Buck. Come on, yell at me,” he begs.
Buck snaps. He pushes off the couch and crowds into Eddie’s space.
“Is this what you wanted?” He spits, pushing hard enough against Eddie’s chest that he takes a step backwards. “Hmm? You want me to lose it on you?”
Or, Eddie cannot handle Buck pretending to be fine about his move to Texas. He, in fact, refuses to let him.
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26 Nov 2024
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Eddie is made of shattered glass. Not like a mosaic - not something broken made beautiful. No, Eddie is all sharp points and jagged edges; he’s hurt everyone that’s ever tried to hold him.
But Buck…Buck holds him like it’s easy. Like there’s nothing else in the world he would rather be doing. He holds Eddie like he’s precious, cradling him between gentle hands with a kind of reverence that is usually reserved for something holy. Something god-like. And then Eddie catches a glimpse of him and Buck in the mirror next to Buck’s bed, and he thinks oh. He thinks maybe this is as close to heaven as a man like him will ever get.
So no one can blame him for wanting to enjoy it while it lasts.
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15 Oct 2024
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“I’ll do it,” Eddie repeats, looking at Buck in one of those silent conversation ways again, but Buck actually can’t figure out what he’s trying to say this time. It messes with his brain, until Eddie speaks again, “I’ll pretend to only be a little offended none of you have thought to ask me before, but Buck, I’ve fixed a lot of cars. I can look at yours.”
(or, the check engine light comes on in Buck's Jeep, Eddie volunteers to fix it and carpool with him in the meantime, and it all breaks down from there, literally and metaphorically)
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12 Oct 2024
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The second picture is—oh. It’s of him and Eddie dancing during the Grease song, when Eddie had held him close and dipped Buck like he’d been doing it all his life. It’s—oh. He can’t believe Eddie’s not shown him this one before, because—there’s so much love contained inside this photograph, he can feel it seeping out of the phone and into his hands, liquid sunshine.
Buck’s head is thrown back, face scrunched in delighted laughter, and Eddie’s so close, beaming at him with nothing short of adoration. It’s pouring out of him, clear as day, the happiness in this single photo a tangible thing even over a year later.
or, buck stumbles across some pictures from halloween
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- Part 2 of bucket list fic
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05 Oct 2024
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“It’s just that—I died,” Buck continues, voice unsteady enough that Eddie wonders if this is the first time he’s acknowledged that out loud. “I died, and there’s so much more. There’s so much more I want to do, things I don’t even know I want to do yet, and I almost had the chance to have and live them taken away. I don’t want to die and regret missing out on everything else, Eddie.”
“So let’s make a list,” Eddie says. “Let’s do them.”
or, a bucket list that’s really about buck needing to make a change and an eddie who’s ready to do anything to see him fall in love with life again. it takes some crossing off for eddie to realise—the thing at the top of the list in his own heart? it’s been right here all along
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- Part 1 of bucket list fic
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05 Oct 2024
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Eddie leaves the 118. Two weeks later, Buck dies in a warehouse fire while Eddie and Chris watch the news coverage. That night, Eddie goes to bed, begging the universe for a second chance.
Eddie wakes up the next morning to find out that it's the day before he starts at the 118 - August 5th, 2018.
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Buck dies and instead of letting Eddie mourn, the universe throws him three and a half years into the past to get it right this time.
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- Part 1 of the second time around 'verse
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24 Sep 2024
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Buck never thought that when he finally told Eddie he loved him, it would be at the bottom of the Atlantic ocean.
To be fair, he never really thought he would ever tell Eddie he was in love with him.
Most of all, he didn’t think he would be saying goodbye only moments after.
It wasn’t even that Buck trusted Jonah, all right?
But he thought he could trust Jonah enough to not drop him and Eddie into the middle of the Atlantic in a containment module.
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In which Buck and Eddie are trapped at the bottom of the ocean, only one of them can survive, and confessions are made.
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Based on the FitzSimmons scene in the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. episode "Beginning of the End".
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20 Sep 2024