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    Merlin is kidnapped and tortured psychologically for nearly a year by a druid who seeks revenge. Afterwards, Merlin has trouble distinguishing what's real and what's not, and it's not until Arthur changes some laws and makes a declaration of love that Merlin finally comes to terms with the fact that the world he's in is real.

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    Merlin's been kidnapped, and everything hurts. Held against his will and without his magic by Camelot's enemies, Merlin has no idea how he'll escape this one. But he does know one thing - Arthur will come. Arthur is coming.

    WRITTEN FOR MERTHUR GLOMPFEST 2024
    Also submitted for Merlin Bingo 2024 - Y3 (Hurt!Merlin)

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    “Where did you learn to do that?” Gwaine asked, following Merlin up the bank.
     
    “This is how normal people fish,” Merlin replied dryly. “Not trying to stab them with swords.”

    “This is a knife,” Gwaine retorted, sounding every bit as sulky as he felt.

    “Still, you didn’t catch a fish.”

     
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    Gwaine saves a young Merlin from a beating and ends up with a new little brother to take care of on his travels.

    Or, what would Merlin be like if he had Gwaine influencing him over his formative years?

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    Merlin felt them – a weighted, clattering presence – mere moments before Gwaine's soft curse coloured the air. Three bones, increasing in size, hung from a branch, knocked softly against each other: gruesome tokens strung up as toys for the soft breeze. Nor were they the only ones. Every few paces, there were more, nestled in trunk hollows or strung in strange shapes. They picked out a path ever deeper, where the trees grew tall and thick and old, indifferent to the fleeting, human lives that crept beneath their bower.

    When Merlin and the others stumble across a grim discovery, it falls to Merlin to set things right. Can he undo the dark magic wrought upon this place, or will the price of the attempt be more than he can possibly afford to pay?

    (Based on the word "Lustrate" for Benji)

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    'Can you fix it?' Arthur rasped, watching Merlin with a desperate gaze. In the months since he and his knights had found out about his manservant's magic, they had all grown to appreciate it. Merlin's power still had to be kept a secret from Uther and his court, but here, among friends and in the privacy of Arthur's chambers, they spoke of it openly.

    'The weather?' Merlin asked from where he slumped over Arthur's table. 'That's – that's not small, Arthur.'

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