13 Bookmarks by obsessive_panda

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    09 Aug 2026

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    Shane felt Finn’s sudden rage, the way he resented Dane for how nothing ever touched him—and underneath that, the way Finn, inexplicably, wanted to be the thing that could. “Just because your life doesn’t matter doesn’t mean you get to fuck up mine.”
    Ilya’s eyes widened, just for a moment, sparking with something close to hurt before narrowing back into coldness. “I’ll be ready for your mandatory tour in the morning, Prince Finn.” He turned his back on the camera, still shirtless of course, but somehow it looked defenseless now, instead of cocky.
    “I—” Shane said, and reached toward the screen.
    Ilya shook his head, ever so slightly, and walked out of the room. Shane stared at the empty space where he’d been, bereft.
    “And cut,” Scott said. “Holy shit.”
    Ilya walked back into view, sat down in his chair, smirk firmly back in place. Shane’s hands were trembling.
    “Well,” Kip said. “I think it’s safe to say the chemistry is there.”

     

    Or, Shane and Ilya are cast in a production of Ember & Ice and eventually they fuck about it.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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    Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
    *Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)

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    28 Jul 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    27 Jul 2026

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    Two certainties defined Shane Hollander's life: he was falling in love with Ilya Rozanov, and he was keeping a career-ending secret. When Ilya discovers Shane's suppressants on the heels of seeing Shane injured during a game, fear makes them say things they both regret.

    Nine months later at the All-Star Game, accidentally running into Ilya in the hotel elevator triggers a breakthrough heat—forcing the two idiots to finally talk (and fuck).

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    Contains spoilers for those who have only watched the show, and for The Long Game.

    A/B/O AU that diverges from canon right after Shane is injured in Chapter 21 (and episode 5) of Heated Rivalry.

    Happy ending!

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    16 Jul 2026

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    “Omega.” Ilya was on him in an instant, sprinting across the huge suite and pinning Shane to the door with his entire body weight, sharp fangs snapping closed an inch from the Omega’s jugular. “Yield.”

    Shane took a deep breath of the Alpha’s smoky, searing scent and whispered, “Fucking make me.” 

    “Wh-what?”

    “You either call me your Omega and chase me until I yield to you as mate.” Shane said slowly, firmly. “Or you stay away from me forever, cos I am done with this shit.” 

    “Hollander..?” 

    “You want me?” The Omega goaded, "You better come and get me.” then hooked his foot behind Ilya’s ankle, shifted his weight back and knocked Ilya right on his ass before bolting out the door.

    Ilya scrambled to his feet as fast as he could, fangs bared and eyes gone scarlet as he growled, "Okay Omega. You want to run?"

    “...I will chase you.”

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Welcome to 2025 MHL — where being gay isn’t a scandal, but having the Big Bad Russian Alpha Captain of Boston Raiders openly thirsting over the Pretty Omega Rookie of Montreal Metros definitely is.

    Nineteen year-old Shane Hollander just wanted to play hockey. After a viral scandal – collapsing on the ice and experiencing his first heat on national television during the International Prospect Cup – the Montreal Metros gave him a chance to rewrite his narrative. A life-changing entry contract. A media spotlight. And the title of the first omega in the MHL.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov: twenty-nine-year-old MHL veteran, Boston Raiders captain, and resident villain fans love to hate. An alpha who never forgets a pretty face once he’s seen it.

    And Shane Hollander has a very pretty face.

    A story for those who love confident, experienced Ilya courting a shy and overwhelmed Shane, who tries very hard to pretend he doesn’t enjoy it. Expect a ten-year age gap, primal tension, and an alpha taking care of his Babyboy Shane in public and private. Potential daddy kink.

    Semi-omegaverse. No mpreg. No babies. (I don’t like babies, sorry, lmao.)

    Slow-burn progression.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    A missing tooth. A standard hockey emergency.

    When a brutal elbow leaves Shane Hollander spitting blood on the ice, he lands immediately in the hands of the opposing team's dentist.

    Shane thinks the dentist saw a cavity. The dentist knows he saw a secret.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

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    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    12 Jul 2026

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    The mating run was an event Shane dreaded every year, and when he’s finally forced to participate he decides to simply find somewhere to ride it out, alone. What he doesn’t bank on however, is Ilya Rozanov. And this year the alpha is determined to finally claim what is his.

    After so long being the hunter, Shane is now the hunted - he just doesn’t quite know it yet.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    “I do not want to make you uncomfortable. With how I talk about us. To others. Like . . . reporters. Or how I treat you in front of others, like the guys on the team.”

    Something like understanding settled on Shane’s face now, and it immediately made Ilya’s heart stop racing. “You think I don’t like PDA.”

    “First time I held your hand in public I thought you were going to have a panic attack,” Ilya admitted.

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    Or: Shane's first season on the Ottawa Centaurs, as told through five times Ilya initiated PDA (and one time Shane did).

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Now, for the first time in years, he found himself praying. Not caring who listened. Not caring if anyone listened.
    Take anything.
    Take the game.
    Take my career.
    Take whatever you want.

    Just let him wake up.
    Because Shane couldn't be gone.
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    Cliff Marlow isn't the one who sends Shane Hollander to the hospital.
    Ilya Rozanov is.
    And when the worst thing Ilya can imagine happens, keeping their relationship a secret becomes impossible.

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    11 Jul 2026

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