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“You don’t get to say I stood there and smiled,” Eddie growls into his mouth. “You don’t get to pretend I’m not fucking gutted.”
“You’re leaving me!” Buck gasps against his lips. “You’re leaving and you didn’t—”
He steps forward again and Buck leans back, head knocking against the wall, his entire frame vibrating. He tries to find his words—some mix of I’m sorry and you didn’t give me a chance but none of it makes it past his lips before Eddie shoves him again, hard enough to rattle the wall behind him, an effort to keep him quiet.
“Don’t,” Eddie snaps. “Don’t you dare make this about you.”
Buck’s eyes go wide, mouth parting on instinct, throat aching from everything he’s choking back. He’s so close to saying it anyway, whatever it is, whatever would push this over the edge, but he doesn’t get the chance.
Eddie’s fingers skim Buck’s lower lip, pausing there. “Open your mouth,” he rasps, cutting through the last of Buck’s defenses, “and shut the fuck up.”
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Eddie's moving to El Paso, and Buck goes through the five stages of grief while sucking his dick.
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16 Jan 2026
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Buck confesses
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- Part 2 of Zinny's Unaffiliated Snippets
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16 Jan 2026
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It’s almost funny how easy it is to slip. You don’t even notice it at first; you’re too busy with other things, too busy with work and your son and your best friend to realize your mind has gotten significantly louder. It’s easy not to notice the warning signs, and it’s even easier to ignore them.
Eddie slips. Buck is there to catch him.
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19 Nov 2025
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(it was not convenient) should've kissed you anyway by instantcaramel
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
24 Oct 2025
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Eddie puts his bottle down and leans back in his chair. It’s not that he doesn’t want to hear what Buck and Tommy are doing for their second anniversary. It’s just, well, he doesn’t really want to hear what Buck and Tommy are doing for their second anniversary.
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Eddie has been in love with Buck for years. Unfortunately, in 2024, instead of breaking up with Buck, Tommy agreed to move in with him. By the time they got married in the summer of 2026, Eddie was fully aware of the way he felt about Buck. The thing is, he thought Buck was happy with Tommy, so he didn't say anything. It's been 2 years since Buck and Tommy got married, and Eddie is still hopelessly in love and resigned to spending the rest of his life alone. It's fine. Buck is still his best friend. He doesn't need more than that. Really.
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08 Nov 2025
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“You were drunk. I know it didn’t mean anything. Everything’s alright.”
Buck visibly winces. “That’s not — Eddie.”
There’s a suspended moment where Buck looks torn, standing on the edge of something, eyes fixed on the horizon to avoid looking at the drop, the precipitous canyon below. But then Buck, who can’t lie, who would tear his own chest open to a complete stranger on the street because the truth of him spills so loudly out of every jagged edge, sighs out:
“It meant something.”
There’s a ringing sound somewhere in the distance, getting closer. “What are you…” Eddie trails off.
“I wasn’t — well, I was drunk. But that wasn’t what. Wasn’t why. Not entirely, or — god.” Buck shudders in a breath, steeling himself. “I have feelings for you.” He closes his eyes. “I’m so sorry.”
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Buck confesses his feelings. Eddie’s straight. If he spends all his time thinking about Buck and looking at Buck and wanting to be around Buck, well, that’s just being a good friend, isn’t it? He’s being so normal about this, actually.
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31 Oct 2025
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Eddie is getting ready to bed when a sharp ache strikes him in the rib cage.
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Bobby doesn't die in the lab. Buck does.
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- Part 1 of buck mortem
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15 Sep 2025
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Buck has never looked at him like this, never noticed how alive he is. Eddie swallows, throat bobbing with the motion, and suddenly Buck understands that beneath all of Eddie’s miles and miles of smooth skin, there are muscles and arteries. There’s blood. He’s a diagram laid out, organs tucked under bones.
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or what it means to trust someone to hurt you, and what it means to live with it.
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10 Aug 2025
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He plops down on the couch again, sets his elbows on his knees, and looks Eddie in the eye. “Okay. Soooo,” he says. “You’re asking me to marry you.”
“Yes,” Eddie says.
“On a Wednesday,” Buck says.
“Yep.”
“As a friend.”
Eddie’s nose scrunches. “Ye-ep. Just about covers it.”
“Why?”
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or: eddie and buck embark on the most platonic journey of all: marriage!
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25 Jul 2025
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Buck can feel the sob Eddie tries to hold back - can hear the whimper that manages to slip past his lips. It tears something open inside of Buck, and it feels like whatever is left of his heart starts leaking into the space between their bodies and staining their chests crimson.
“Tell me you love me,” Eddie begs.
“I love you,” Buck promises.
And he just wishes that it could be enough.
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14 Jun 2025
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8x08 coda, buck flips the tablet to find out Eddie's leaving for El Paso. He rightfully is pissed off about it and they argue. Said argument gets a little heated, and they fuck nasty about it.
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28 Apr 2025
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Five years into his job as a phone sex operator, Buck receives an unexpected call from a very confused man. He does everything in his power to help him through his crisis, but ends up creating a crisis of his own.
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What if it was 1998?
What if Buck 1.0 was the best phone sex operator in the country?
What if S8 Eddie had a sexuality crisis and decided to call a gay phone sex line to try to figure it out?
What if they both ended up getting more than they bargained for?
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20 Apr 2025
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“Eddie, you’re scaring me,” Buck says in the quiet of the room. “Do you-- do you know what day it is?”
“Friday,” Eddie answers, tongue thick like his throat is stuffed with cotton.
“Yeah,” Buck confirms. “And-- do you know my full name?”
Eddie swallows. “Evan Buckley,” he says definitively, but--
He finally turns to look at Buck’s face, and it’s like he’s waiting for Eddie to keep going. Like Eddie had gotten it wrong. Buck’s face melts, his brows pinched together, and Eddie--
He doesn’t know what the hell is going on.
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Eddie loves every version of Buck. And Buck? Well, he’s starting to realize every version of Buck loves him right back. If only Eddie could get back home to tell him that.
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17 Apr 2025
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It goes like this:
1. Buck and Taylor break up over him kissing Lucy.
2. Eddie and Buck sleep together.
3. Buck and Taylor get back together.(4. Eddie deals. Poorly. He should be used to the whole unrequited thing by now. Was easier when he didn’t know what Buck sounds like when he comes though.)
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08 Apr 2025
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Pain's like cold water (your brain just gets used to it) by steph_fangirl
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
09 Mar 2025
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Look, it’s just- of course, rationally he knew, right? He knew that his grandparents were his dad’s parents, that’s literally how it works.
He just never really- realized what that meant.
But there are tears in his father’s eyes. And Chris remembers something he saw on TikTok a while ago: It’s his dad’s first time living too.
And maybe…maybe he really has been a little hard on him. Shutting him out like that.
“What, Eddie, of course we want you to be hap-” Abuela tries, but Chris’s dad doesn’t let her.
“No,” he interrupts. “No, that’s not true. If you wanted me to be happy, you would’ve helped me. You would’ve let Christopher stay with you for…a month, maybe, to cool down, to get some distance, to get the space he needs. But then you…you would’ve tried, at least. To get us talking. To fix this. To mend what I broke.”
He sounds devastated. So incredibly devastated. And Chris can’t help but think that…his dad kinda has a point there.
Or: Eddie goes to Texas, Chris overhears something he shouldn’t have, Helena Diaz starts feeling as guilty as she fucking should, and somehow, somewhere in between it all turns out okay.
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30 Mar 2025
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23 Mar 2025
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Eddie is secretly ashamed of most things.
Like dancing alone in the warm sunlit kitchen and the kid-safe makeup Sophia once messily spread on his face. Like knowing there's something he's missing but never truly had in the first place. Like how he walks and talks and always lets his parents down and isn't the best in school but just alright. Like how he doesn't believe in God but thinks he probably should since that's what everyone else does.
Eddie is so ashamed of himself.
Or, Eddie learns how to not be.
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- Part 1 of transfem eddie
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23 Feb 2025
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TRANSFEM EDDIEEEEEE 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ One of my favs ever.
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He broke Buck’s heart.
He knows it. Knows it like he knows the weight of his own turnout gear, like he knows the precise way to steady himself when the ground gives way beneath him. It’s a fact, a simple and devastating truth that follows him everywhere, no matter how much distance he puts between them.
What happened in that bathroom, Buck pushing him against the door, kissing him like it was the only way to make sure it had been real, that wasn’t some desperate attempt to get Eddie to come back. It wasn’t even about convincing Eddie to be with him, not really. It was Buck needing to know, to feel it, to confirm that Eddie had been there, that Eddie had wanted it, that it hadn’t all been some fever dream conjured up by his hopelessly romantic, self destructive heart.
And, maybe, just a little, it was about hurting Eddie because Eddie hurt him first. Which, God, isn’t that just heartbreaking?
Or; Eddie and Buck have sex the night before he moves back to El Paso for good.
Each chapter follows a year in Eddie’s life as he makes his way back to Buck.
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- Part 1 of Always, Eventually.
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09 Feb 2025
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“Diaz?”
The man — and it is Eddie Diaz, Buck can’t not see it now — blinks, and in a split second his expression shutters closed. “Buckley.”
Buck wonders if he looks different without Diaz’s blood on his face.
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or, eddie and buck meet each other at rock bottom
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06 Feb 2025
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And he was happy. They were happy. Finally together after way too much time skirting around each other.
The date was going so well. They finally got it. And then they fell.
And Eddie hates it. He hates that it feels like they’ve been doomed from the start. That no matter how much Eddie tries– and he does– he feels like something is out to get him. And Eddie might start believing in the Universe– right here in the middle of a pile of debris with his leg pinned and slowly dying. Because there has to be some force at play here– some entity that keeps dooming Eddie and Buck over and over and over again.
(or, buck and eddie go on their first date, and the ground falls out from underneath their feet)
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10 Dec 2024
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It takes days for Buck to decide what he’s going to say.
You didn’t even let me say goodbye.
It takes two months for him to get a reply.
I’m sorry.
I hope you can still forgive me.
Buck knows he can; it’s as simple as breathing, as inevitable as the beating of his heart. His body would lead him to it even without his permission. It’ll go on forever until it doesn’t and by then it won’t matter to him, because he’ll be dead.
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Eddie leaves. Buck visits him in El Paso.
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09 Dec 2024