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“You are not well,” Salvador returns. “You are overflowing with…” he pauses to search for the word and he finds it, “grief. You’re grieving. It has hollowed you out.”
“I have nothing to grieve for.”
“You’re lying, Thomas.”
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Vincent Benítez becomes Pope Innocent XIV. Thomas Lawrence stays behind.
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- Part 2 of Volo ut sis
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Benítez tilts his head a fraction closer, conspiratorial. “It’s a pity our devices have been confiscated for the time that we’re sequestered here. I would’ve suggested sneaking off to exchange more music recommendations since you’ve demonstrated taste.”
“Dally any longer, and I fear that neither of us will be in anyone’s good graces,” Thomas replies as Ray sweeps past them. “But I would’ve…” He glances furtively at Benítez; for an instant, it’s the thrill of misbehaving at seminary again. “I would’ve liked that.”
“There’s a computer in the office.”
“We’d have to cross Sister Agnes.”
“Ah. Never mind that idea, then.”
Oh, the things I would’ve liked had we been young men together, Thomas thinks wistfully as they approach the dining room. I would’ve liked you.
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07 Nov 2025
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Lawrence is considering the benefits of leaving the room to go throw up somewhere when Vincent finally speaks.
“I wouldn’t call it a crush,” he says, his voice even and calm, brown eyes sparkling.
Lawrence nods, slightly hysterical. “You wouldn’t?” He asks hopefully. Good, okay. Vincent agrees. All that’s here is friendship. Simple, easy, proper. Appropriate. Friendship.
“No.” Vincent shakes his head and sets his teacup down. “I would say that I am in love with you.”
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- Part 1 of the only way to heal now
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07 Nov 2025
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The pontiff looked at the cardinal beside him. His gaze held all the solemnity of a man turned infallible vessel and all the wistfulness of a lonely child. “You are my closest friend, Thomas. Would you please take my confession?”
“Of course, should you have sin to confess.”
In the first year of Pope Innocent XIV's papacy, Thomas Lawrence and Vincent Benitez struggle to negotiate duty and desire.
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07 Nov 2025
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Vincent is there beside him. The sun catches in his hair, briefly turning jet black into a golden halo. Lawrence has seen this before. It takes him way too long to realize, and when he finally does, it’s already too late.
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It's been two months since Vincent Benítez became Pope Innocent XIV and finally, Thomas Lawrence feels like he can catch a breath. That is, until he starts getting the same nightmare over and over again.
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07 Nov 2025