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“Your freak,” Luka begins, as Till’s face reddens at the realisation of his slip-up, “Is right there, in the sink you keep glaring daggers into,”
“Hah,” Till deadpans, “That’s funny. So funny. Wow, Ivan, you got me. You’re so funny. Quit modelling, pursue a stand-up career,” He fake laughs extra hard for emphasis.
The room stays silent. The child sneezes. It’s fucking adorable.
Ivan inexplicably turns into a five-year-old. Till deals with this better than he deals with his feelings for the child's fully grown counterpart.
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During the rebel raid on ANAKT Garden, a journal is recovered, and given to the one person who wants to read its contents the least.
Till finds Ivan's childhood journal after his death.
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- Part 1 of letters
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Love is a universal feeling that humans have experienced for millions of years, a feeling which had been described as the best feeling in the world through countless stories, songs, movies, shows, and every other media known to man. Even though humans have agreed that love is this euphoric feeling, why did it make Ivan feel as if he was drowning deeper and deeper every day? Out of all the emotions in the world, if there was one feeling Ivan should feel like other kids, it should be love. So why did it feel like a wound replaced his heart that bled out more every day?
Why did this always happen to Ivan?
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Ivan breathes a humorless laugh. "I don't know what it is you want from me."
Till furiously snaps back, "I want you to—" before cutting himself off. He takes a deep breath and relaxes his scrunched-up facial features before continuing, quieter. "I'm your best friend. I find you half passed out in some—fucked up garden that you've been coughing up for a year, and I'm freaking out because I don't know what's going on or—or if you'll be okay, and now that I know you're okay, the doctors are saying they can't let you go because you're too damn sick to be left alone!"
His lower lip quivers ever so slightly. Ivan, for his own sake, unfocuses his eyes until Till is only a shapeless blur of colors in the middle of a sea of hospital white.
"I'm your best friend," the blur repeats, breathlessly. "I want you to fucking say something to me."
Hanahaki disease is, quite famously, a condition born from love. Ivan is convinced that his case is the exception to this rule. And when each of his friends inevitably starts catching on to his quickly deteriorating health, everything goes spinning out of control.
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When Till notices Ivan coming to school later and later, he decides to investigate the matter.
What he soon discovers changes his life for the worse.
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"The stars were so beautiful in his memories. Seeing them always meant a moment of freedom, a second of happiness. As Ivan dangled over the roof’s edge, he did not feel as afraid as he should have. How could he? The stars were so beautiful.
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Ivan never thought of himself as kind. But in that moment, he felt what Till did. A strained smile spread across his face as he realized what he would do. Because when faced with being free and alone, or trapped and with Till, he’d choose the latter every time."
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- Part 6 of 365 days of writing
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Ivan had loved Till for awhile. Ever since they trained together to be idols alongside the rest of Alien Stage.
He loved Till despite the fact that Till wouldn't ever love him back.
... So tell him why this connects with him throwing up flowers right after a performance?
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Harana
/haˈɾana/
noun1. to serenade
2. refers to a courtship tradition where a man sings to someone he is interested in, often accompanied by a group of friendssee also: the solution to pathetically yearning best friends
Till courts Ivan the old-fashioned way – with his voice, a guitar, and two (questionably willing) friends for moral support.
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Nine-year-old Till saves six-year-old Ivan from bullies and a household that doesn't care for him. The next year is the happiest of their lives.
Twenty years after being violently ripped apart, Ivan strolls into Till's flower shop, ready to reconnect with him. But what exactly happened to him during those last twenty years?
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Ivan, a former idol who left the spotlight, not just to pursue acting, but to finally get close to Till, a senior he’s admired from afar for a long time. They end up being paired up together in a class and Ivan invites him over to practice. The practice ends up being something much more intense than Till could ever dream of...
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You Are Different... And That's Okay. by ShallowEmotionsGiver
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
28 Dec 2025
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A book series Ivan's been reading was slowly giving him the courage to confess his feelings to his childhood best friend, Till. That was until he started reading the final volume of the series.
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if you love me right, then who knows;) by sleepingfairy
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
21 Dec 2025
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Ivan was being weird today. Not that he wasn’t weird normally but he’s been…off.
Ivan is the clingiest man Till knows but he’s not, for some reason.
He’s not touch deprived, he’s just Ivan deprived but for some reason, his boyfriend is being so distant!
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Ivan’s complaints of his sore body turned into a month long edging session.
And they both enjoyed it;)
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Ivan had a long, annoying day at work, and when he finally gets home and is immediately greeted by his gorgoues beautiful sexy hot sexy malewife Till, he decides that the only way to make himself feel better is to take his frustration out on till
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Nearly two years after being saved from the fire, Till runs into someone on a rebel mission with the same face of the person who has done nothing but haunt him.
For the life of him, he can't let himself believe that Ivan is alive. Not while he's still hallucinating a version of him that keeps him from being able to speak.
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Was he really ok with this? Ivan was a catch. Disciplined, smart, charming, and so annoyingly attractive. Fake dating for an undetermined period of time seemed…
“Are you sure about this?" Till asks, his eyebrow twitching, “This just doesn’t— I dunno, feel like you,”
“And what would you know about me?” Ivan counters, crimson pupils appearing to glow under the sun’s splintered rays.
Till impulsively claims to be dating his roommate. Ivan is okay with this, for whatever reason.
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Till is forced to go to a Halloween party. We all know where this goes.
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“for your model. i could do it.”
there’s a moment of silence as till registers the words spoken. “you’d actually do that for me?” he asks, stunned.
“why not?” ivan grins at till before turning onto the street where till’s house resided, “this is something you’re passionate about, right? and i could help. i want to help.”
till gives him a dubious look. “this... it’s not so easy to say you’ll do it, you know. there’s an element of vulnerability to shibari. if you get freaked out—”
“i trust you.”
(._.)
(till tries out shibari on ivan. they both thoroughly enjoy it.)
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after an unexpected confession, ivan dies and till is sent back in time to save his friend.
The confession wasn’t in words. For better or for worse, it came in the form of a chaste kiss on the lips. Ivan’s lips barely touching Till’s, making his stomach flip.
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I’m dreaming, Till thought to himself. That had to be it, there was simply no other explanation for what he was seeing.
Ivan was there, dressed in his red varsity jacket and blue jeans just as he was when Till saw him earlier in the day, but there were other people there too. More specifically, there was another version of them there as well.
It made no sense, this was the strangest dream Till had ever had in his entire life, but he had to admit the alternative versions of themselves were extremely cool. The dream Ivan was dressed head to toe in black leather with a chunky chain necklace around his neck, honestly, he was Till’s walking wet dream.
Then there was the other version of himself. He was dressed more punk than Till normally dressed. A beanie with safety pins on his head, black tank top, red tie, and ripped jeans. He also had more piercings than Till had, he looked like a rock star, he was everything Till aspired to be.
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“Unfortunately,” He says through baring teeth, before chuckling afterwards. “Can I take you out on a date?”
“To practice?” Ivan asks.
Till punches his leg, out of Ivan’s sight. “Yeah. As practice.” He hurriedly adds, brows furrowing in annoyance, but he decided to keep it cool. Ivan is just stupidly oblivious.
OR: jockemo ivti but they're stupidly in love, yet ivan refuses to believe its mutual