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  1. Rec 2

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    Five months after the accident that ended his season and made him unable to keep playing, Ilya Rozanov is surprised by the wedding invitation of Shane Hollander and Rose Landry.

    Golden letters on elegant paper. He cried when he read the scribbled note hidden on the back.

    “My love, I confess. I’m getting married, but the greatest love of my life is you.”

    or

    When Ilya finds himself alone. Without an authoritarian father to control him, without hockey to give meaning to his life, and without the love of his life. In the middle of his crisis, Rozanov begins to wonder if he made the right choice by choosing everyone else’s happiness over his own.

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    11 May 2026

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    “Okay, Roz, the challenge is simple,” Davey says, slightly hurried like he knows he’s losing their focus. “Three questions. First, think of the best sex of your life.”

    “Yes.”

    Rozanov looks very relaxed, surrounded by his team, casually indulging rookies like he has all the time in the world.

    “Now, uh, you grade it out of ten. Not the person, like—not how hot the person was, but how good the sex was, yeah?”

    “Would be same answer anyway,” Rozanov says easily. “Twelve.”

     

    Or, a video of Ilya doing the “fuckboy challenge” is posted. The internet reacts.

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    11 May 2026

  3. Rec 27

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    What if Ilya avoided Shane for months after they first fucked?
    What if Shane finally persuaded Ilya to meet and talk?
    What if Shane tried to move on and date other men?

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    10 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, star center of the UMass Minutemen, is a legend on campus, known for his skills on and off the ice. He’s never had a hard time getting what he wants—until Shane Hollander.

    OR: the one where Shane Hollander walks Ilya Rozanov like a dog.

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    09 May 2026

  5. Rec 33

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    "Well how do we switch back?" Hayden breaks the silence.

    "How should I know. This is real life, not fabulous Lindsay Lohan film."

    Hayden rubs at his temple, only Rozanov would be cracking jokes at a time like this. He would much rather be in Jamie Lee Curtis's body right now.

    "Okay then, like, we should set up some ground rules right? And teach each other things so we can trade places without people catching onto something."

    "Pike, as soon as you play hockey people will know something is wrong with me."

    "Yeah and as soon as I walk around acting like an insufferable jackass people will know something is wrong with me."

    "Insufferable jackass who grew talent overnight."

    Hayden wishes he took Shane up on his offer to start meditating with him.

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander wants to date Rose. But he is 18 and has never even kissed a girl.
    Rose thinks he should practice first. She practices with her best friend, Daisy.

    Shane wants to be a good boyfriend.
    Which means learning to kiss.
    Which means practice.
    Which means asking the person he trusts most.
    Ilya Rozanov has never said no to him before. He doesn’t start now.

    It’s practical.
    It’s actually smart.

    They already spend all their time together.
    They already share a bed.
    It’s just practice.
    Even if it happens every night.
    Even if it keeps.. escalating.

    As Shane and Rose continue their relationship, it makes sense to practice each step.
    With people they trust.
    (Even if those people don’t have the correct body parts for it to make sense.)

    This is normal.
    They are absolutely not gay.
    This is just practice.
    Ilya is exactly where he wants to be.

    Or:

    Shane Hollander practices kissing with his childhood best friend to be a better boyfriend.
    It works so well that they keep practicing.
    Every new step.
    Every base.
    Shane and Rose think this is a normal system.
    Ilya and Daisy do not correct them.

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    06 May 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    04 May 2026

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    A companion to Shane Hollander is a Slut.
    The messages Shane sends, the ones he doesn’t, and the ones he almost does.

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    04 May 2026

  9. Rec 29

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    Ilya promises himself that he will forget all about Shane Hollander, his childhood friend whom he had a crush on. After being rejected, he decides that his feelings aren't worth ruining their relationship. But years later Shane comes out, causing Ilya to wonder if his friend could have ever liked him back, and if not...could he like him now?

    But emotions are hard to navigate when both of them can’t communicate clearly, and the fear of rejection and losing each other takes a toll on them. Especially now that Shane is trying to discover himself again, and Ilya is stubborn enough to pretend he got over him.

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    04 May 2026

  10. Rec 17

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov met in Saskatchewan in 2008. The hockey world was relentlessly escalating their rivalry before either player had even been drafted into the MHL. Shane was eager to meet Ilya, and took the first chance to introduce himself in the parking lot of the small ice rink. Shane agreed to a drink with Ilya after the 2008 World Juniors Championship game, but he didn't know why, since Ilya had left the worst first impression on him outside of the Saskatchewan rink. He chipped away at Ilya's walls as their night continued, and a new, unlikely friendship slowly started to form. Over the years, everything changed: their rivalry, their careers, and their personal lives all shifted in different, unexpected ways. But their friendship, through occasional painful twists, grew into something beyond what either man ever expected.

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    04 May 2026

  11. Rec 12

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    It wasn't supposed to happen like this...

    Over time, a slight change in angle can massively alter the trajectory of history. So what happens when Shane and Ilya never hooked up that day after shooting the commercial?

    Ilya still seeks out trouble, that's what. And without Shane's measured caution, he gets caught.

    Just when Ilya thinks his life is over, Shane seems drawn to him like a center to an open net. But can Ilya handle watching Shane live the life he lost? Ilya thought he would be the one winning championships and making his country proud. Instead, he must learn to navigate his new life as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    03 May 2026

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    Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.

    April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.

    Ilya goes through with ending it.

    Shane lets him.

    What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.

    They learn how to live without each other.

    (Or at least, how to pretend.)

    And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.

    And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.

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    02 May 2026

  13. Rec 80

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    _____
    _____

     

    What if Troy Barrett met Shane Hollander first?

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    _____

     

    By the second period, it was clear even to fans in the farthest, cheapest seats that something unusual was taking place on the ice.

    “The Centaurs haven’t looked especially in sync all season, but this is something else,” one commentator said. “Rozanov and Barrett do not look like line-mates tonight,” the other commentator agreed, disbelief in his voice.

    “Seems like Rozanov’s forgotten which team he’s playing for.”

    [...]

    It went on like that well into the final period, until Barrett finally had enough. One more snub, one more chirp, one more empty lane Rozanov should have covered, and Troy was on him. Gloves hit the ice.

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    02 May 2026

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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

    Or

    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    02 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov’s college life was going smoothly until he received those handwritten letters. Letters that were oddly similar to his own handwritings. Letters claiming to be from his future self.

    Ilya could’ve sworn this was some prank that his roommate was playing on him but things got a bit too real when those letters could actually predict what would happen next in his life.

    What’s worse was that this "future Ilya" kept telling the current Ilya to save his husband from a big tragedy. Of course, the husband turned out to be the campus’ heartthrob band member, Shane Hollander, whom Ilya has never interacted with at all.

    Ilya sighed in frustration, “Hollander, listen to me. I know this is hard to believe but trust me, please. These letters from my future self keeps telling me to save you and-”

    “Okay,” Shane nodded.

    Ilya blinked, “What?”

    “I said okay. Whatever it is, I'll trust you.”

    Or Ilya got these sudden letters appearing on his desk every night, claiming to be from his future self and telling him to save a certain person called “Shane Hollander”, who turned out to be Ilya’s future husband.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

    ------------------------------------------

    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Ilya had ended their relationship, or whatever it had technically been, only weeks after Shane was seriously injured on the ice. He’d visited him in hospital, said he would maybe, maybe, come to his cottage that summer, and then never did.

    They don’t speak again. Not properly... at least not in any way that counts. Time passes anyway. Seasons move on.

    Now it’s August 2018, and suddenly they’re back in the same space again.

    So what happens now? What's Ilya supposed to do with something that doesn’t feel finished?

    Especially when Shane has… moved on.

    Because, boo! There’s Casper.

    CHAPTER 10 - SHANE'S POV - PART I

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Ilya is thrown off balance when someone suddenly joins his team under mysterious circumstances.
    As their intense chemistry resurfaces, it collides with growing tension in the locker room and unspoken questions about Shane and the metros.

    While Ilya pushes closer, Shane keeps something buried, knowing the truth could change everything.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Jane: I have other plans.

    Lily: WE had plans together.
    we were supposed to go scuba diving and have lunch together

     

    Jane: we had plans last night too.. but you wanted me to get fucked by the hot movie star and gain experience. 

     

    Ilya wants to jump off a cliff.. he can feel the bile in his stomach rise.. he wants to die so that it hurts less.

     

    Lily: please
    just let me explain
    you misunderstood
    not what i meant at all

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    21 Apr 2026

  20. Rec *

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    “So it’s true?” Ilya asked, trying to control the emotion in his voice.

    “Yeah.” There was silence for a long moment. “I can’t… do this anymore. I’m sorry, Ilya.”

    “No.”

    “No? What do you mean?”

    Ilya shook his head. “I mean what I said, Hollander. I don’t accept resignation. End of discussion.”

    Shane Hollander has been Ilya Rozanov’s manager for nearly a decade.

    When Shane suddenly announces his resignation, Ilya is forced to confront some truths about their relationship.

    Like the fact that he may have been secretly in love with Shane the entire time they’ve worked together.

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    20 Apr 2026

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