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Only You Have Shown Me How to Love Being Alive by xo_kxt
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
09 Feb 2022
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“Have you been thinking about it a lot today? The war?” Remus questioned.
It was a question Remus had asked him nearly every day since they found him. Sirius never stopped thinking about it, truth be told, and he was sure that Remus knew this as it was a truth he lived as well. Asking was just his way of trying to get Sirius to talk about it. The mind healers said it would help to talk about it. With Remus, or James, or Lily. But Sirius refused. He didn’t want to burden them as they had enough baggage of their own to carry.
And yet, something about the way Remus was looking at him now, in the safety of their home, Sirius felt the words fall out of his mouth, words he had been holding back for so long, selfish words that burned his tongue the moment he spoke them.
“Why didn’t you find me sooner?”
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After the first wizarding war, Sirius is struggling. Remus is there to remind him it's okay to heal.
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Remus was sure that there was nothing better than laying on James’ fluffy charmed carpet with his three best friends, listening to music from the record player—that had also been charmed to work without electricity—and chatting about whatever came to their minds.
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or, Remus thinks about the impeding war, his and his friends' futures, and worries about his boyfriend.
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Sirius and Remus have an important conversation about Sirius' past when they are trying to be intimate together for the first time and Sirius realizes just how much he loves Remus Lupin. There is lots of hurt/comfort, but the boys come out stronger in the end.
I really suck at summaries, but if you want to basically know what this is about just go listen to "The Heart Is a Muscle" by Gang of Youths and you'll get it.
*a second part has been recently added!
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“Sirius—”
“It’s fine, Rem. I know you don’t…that you’re not…I know I don’t have chance with you. I know that you’re straight, so don’t worry about it, okay? It’s just a crush, it’ll pass and we can just go back to the way things were before I even said all this.” Sirius said rapidly, his eyes wide as he spoke. Remus just shook his head and Sirius felt his heart plummet.
“I don’t want to go back to how things were.”
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You're in Control; Rid of the Monsters Inside Your Head by xo_kxt
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
16 Nov 2020
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The house was more ominous at night. Almost as if all the dark magic they worked so hard to get rid of during the day was seeping out of the dusty walls, vibrating in the air and making one’s skin tingle. Ginny lie awake, not because of the house and it’s horrors but because of her own mind and the demons that have remained there since she was eleven. She squeezes her eyes shut, willing herself to go to sleep, but the moment her eyelids close together she sees his face. She hears his synthetically understanding voice as she remembers how she bore her young, naïve heart out to in a cursed journal that she would never truly be rid of. Her eyes snapped back open and she lets out a slow, but shaky breath, afraid she might wake Hermione, who was fast asleep next to her, apparently oblivious to the darkness swimming around them and inside of Ginny’s head.
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basically a headcanon based off that one line in Order of the Phoenix where Ginny says "Excuse me, but I care what happens to Sirius as much as you do!" (chapter 33)
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“Why do we have to watch...what is this again?”
“The Exorcist.”
“Right. Why do we have to watch this?”
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or, Remus and Sirius watch a scary movie. Sirius is scared, Remus is smitten. Let's see what happens
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Marlene was walking around the grounds with her arms looped through Lily’s and Alice’s. The two girls were laughing at something funny that had happened in herbology that day, throwing their heads back as their giggles filled the air. Marlene stood between them, her heart racing just a little bit as she stared at two of her best friends, a secret on the tip of her tongue that she desperately wanted to say out loud.
I’m gay.
She wondered what would happen if she said it. Would they just keep laughing like nothing happened? Would they unhook their arms from hers and leave her behind? Would they accept her?
“What do you think, Marls?” Alice said, bringing her out of her reverie.
“Huh?”
“About the quidditch game coming up. You’re on the team. You think we have a shot against Slytherin?”
Alice and Lily looked at her expectantly. She swallowed, her secret being pushed to the side, and smiled.
“Definitely.” -
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“Peter!” Sirius growled, the wolf-like dog inside of him baring its teeth, “You coward! You fucking traitor! It was James and Lily! They loved you! How could you?”
He was screaming now, drawing even more attention from the muggles lining the streets. There wear tears burning behind his eyelids and he felt as though his skin was on fire. There was nothing but pain, nothing but pain and the need for revenge coursing through his tainted veins. Peter had the right idea to be terrified, his lip quivering and hands shaking as he whipped his wand out in a vain attempt to defend himself from Sirius.
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or, Sirius goes after Peter.
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Remus watched with furrowed brows as Thomas’ fingers danced their way down Sirius arm, coming to rest somewhere beneath the table. Sirius shifted uncomfortably and stared down at the table resolutely. Remus gripped the table tightly, trying to quell the sudden anger inside of him, but to no avail. The unsettled look on Sirius’ face and the clear ignorance of Thomas was making his blood boil.
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or, Remus defends Sirius
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Do you write the “Sirius running away from home” trope to get over your writers block or are you normal?
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Dear Moony,
How have you been, mate? Good, I hope. Pretty sure I have been driving mum and da up the wall with my constant complaints of boredom. Not even Quidditch has been able to occupy my mind.
I know that the moon was last week, but I still wanted to check in and see how you’re holding up. Do you need me to send anything? Mum has some excellent soothing salves if you want some and I can always send more Honeydukes! Call me a mother hen all you want, I don’t care. I want to make sure you’re alright.
Speaking of maternal instincts, have you happened to hear from Sirius? I haven’t gotten one letter from him this summer which wouldn’t be so worrying since we have the mirrors except he won’t answer my calls on those either. Please let me know as soon as possible if you’ve heard from him. I’m writing to Pete about it as well. And send letters to Sirius if you could. Hopefully he’ll answer at least one of us.
Tell your folks I said hi,
Prongs
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Request: May I please have Remus getting a bad scar and looking at himself in the mirror hating himself and Sirius walks in and comforts him and they get together? Thank you!
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His reflection in the mirror had become blurry as tears filled Remus’ eyes from both pain and horror. Right there, stretching across his nose and cheeks, was the most jagged and ugly scar. His hands shook as he stared at his reflection, the knowledge of how unavoidably noticeable it was scaring him to death. What would people say? What would people think? They would surely realize he was a monster now. He surely looked like one.
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Sirius had the distinct feeling that the only reason all his friends were sitting in a circle in the middle of the Gryffindor common room at one in the morning playing silly muggle party games was for his sake. Some plan James had come up with in a desperate attempt to cheer him up. It wasn’t working. The only reason Sirius himself was even still sitting there rather than going off to sulk in the dorm was because he did not want to have to explain himself or his depressive mood to the whole group. James, Peter and Remus of course knew the reason behind Sirius’ glum mood, but they had kept it properly under wraps at his request. Sirius definitely didn’t want everyone to know what had happened this summer, how his parents had thrown him out onto the streets, barely breathing. He didn’t want to see the pity in their eyes or for them to look at him as weak or pathetic or anything of the sort. He didn’t want them to know how torn up he really was about it.
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or, Sirius gets roped into a game of truth or dare that he is rather hesitant to play
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Sirius had been asked out on a date by some guy from Ravenclaw, Michael, or Matthew or whatever his name was. Remus really couldn’t care less. It really wouldn’t have bothered Remus so much if he hadn’t been pining for the dark haired boy since third year. His little crush only increased after Sirius had come out to him and their other friends back in fourth year, and he had been trying to work up the courage to ask Sirius out himself ever since. He was stupid to think he had plenty of time to do so.
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or, a fun request I got on tumblr where Remus is lowkey jealous that Sirius is out on a date with someone who's not him, unaware that Sirius' date is not going as planned.
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The funeral was small. Close friends and family only. With the war going on, it was dangerous to have too many people attend in such a small setting— “an easy target” as Moody reminded everyone diligently. Remus sat with his hands folded in his lap next to Sirius, who was sitting very still and staring at the floor with a numb expression on his face. He had already broken down earlier that morning in their flat as the two of them were getting ready, and Remus had held him for several long moments trying to keep him together. Now, Sirius seemed determined not to show any emotion. It was for James’ sake, Remus was sure. Sirius wanted to be strong for his brother as they buried Euphemia and Fleamont. As they buried their parents.
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or, the aftermath of losing Euphemia and Fleamont Potter proves to be unbearable
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Marlene could watch her for days on end and never get tired of the view. She wanted to drop to her knees and confess her love over and over again to Dorcas until the end of time, if she could. Adore her, like it was all she was meant to do.
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third installment to my Fine Line series
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- Part 3 of Fine Line
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Sirius had fallen in love with Remus without realizing and now, he had gotten a permanent marking on his arm to remind him of it. If that wasn’t obvious, then what was? Which was why Sirius had been waiting to actually show Remus his tattoo, afraid of the reaction the werewolf might give him once he sees what it represents. It felt more...intimate than showing it to Peter or James.
Or, Sirius gets a new tattoo and Remus' reaction is unexpected.
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The taste of cherry wine tasted far too sweet on his tongue for how bitter he felt, and he cringed as it went down his throat. Remus loved the wine, though, and Sirius wondered if he would get thirsty enough to come taste it on his lips.
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second installment to my Fine Line series
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- Part 2 of Fine Line
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He was young when the feeling first bloomed into his chest, wrapping around his heart and filling a warmth into his veins. Love was a foreign thing to Sirius, never having had a good example of it growing up, but it was the only word that could possibly describe how he felt toward Remus.
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the beginning of a series I'm doing where I write fics based off of songs from Harry Styles' album Fine Line. hope you all enjoy!!
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- Part 1 of Fine Line
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She always wanted children. Always imagined having a family, even when she was a little girl. And after falling in love with James, she had wanted it even more. He would be a brilliant father. She knew he would after watching the way he took care of his friends and always made sure they felt loved and protected. The same way he always made her feel loved and protected.
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“Hello?”
It was two o’clock in the morning when James’ phone began to ring at an obnoxiously loud volume. He picked it up hastily, not wanting to risk waking his parents at such an hour and answered it in a groggy voice.
“…James?”
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or James receives a disturbing call early in the morning from Sirius and rushes to his best friends aid (I am bad at summaries but it's pretty angsty)