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    This is the real, honest truth of it: Shane has spent years navigating his own personal rules about touch, putting up barriers out of necessity, only for Ilya Rozanov to knock them down with ease. No one has ever touched Shane like he has. Shane has never wanted anyone to. But Ilya Rozanov—Shane wants him, in a way that’s new and terrifying. They’ve been as close as two people can possibly be, and still Shane wants more.

     
    or, Shane Hollander has a carefully controlled relationship with touch. Ilya Rozanov changes that.

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    Ilya is an asshole to Shane in Sochi. He's an asshole again in Vegas.

    Shane decides he doesn't hate himself enough to put up with this shit.

    It takes everything he has, but he ends it with Ilya.

    Ilya isn't having it.

    OR: What does Ilya Rozanov look like on his (figurative) knees?

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    “Please,” he says finally, voice breaking as he gives in. “Fuck, please, Rozanov, I’m gonna—”

    Rozanov pulls all the way back, mouth releasing his cock with a noise that makes Shane’s hips rock up into nothing.

    “Rozanov,” he begs again.

    “Hmm?” Rozanov asks, kissing Shane’s shaking thigh gently. “You need something?”

    “You— fuck— you said I could come,” Shane says, trying and failing to keep the accusatory note out of his voice.

    “Mhm. When you say my name, yes?”

    “I did!” Shane insists, just a hint of a whine in his tone now. Rozanov smirks at him.

    “Oh, sweetheart,” he says. “My first name.”

    OR:

    Ilya does something a little different on tuna melt day.

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    29 Sep 2026

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    Shane's accident was career ending. Instead of asking Ilya to the cottage he broke up with him in a displaced fit of rage. Ilya has not heard from him since.

    Until he does.

    Tues, Aug 29 at 4:46 AM

    Jane: Heey
    Jane: Long timr no dspeak
    Jane: I mean yeah I guess thats my fault
    Jane: How you been?
    Jane: Ive been great
    Jane: Shit
    Jane: Ive been shit actually

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    13 Sep 2026

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    No crying but Shane being SEEN and diagnosed, too

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    Shane and Ilya find a twitter account they were never supposed to find.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    I cannot be casual about this.

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

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    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

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    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    06 Aug 2026

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    The one where Ilya assumes Shane will sit politely in the audience, and Shane turns an NHL television special into a high-stakes, highly strategic ambush.

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    03 Aug 2026

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    best of the best

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    Shane was feeling weird about wanting the men he hooked up with to hold and kiss him afterward. It felt like a lot to ask of someone he'd probably never see again. His hookups were most often one-offs; Ethan, the guy from this afternoon, was a rare exception. He wondered if it meant he was abnormal, but Rose reassured him that when he was that naturally submissive to his partners, it was very common to want some aftercare. Physical touch was just his preferred way of getting that.

    or: Shane loves giving up control during sex, but can't get anyone to give him the amount of aftercare he needs. Hot, sexy drummer Ilya to the rescue.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    Lacking community, Shane Hollander wants "it"--the place he can be himself, the people he can be free around.

    The answer lies in a leather bar. Shane realizes that perhaps, being a hopeless romantic is a curse.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    05 Jul 2026

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