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Buck has gotten pretty good at pretending his parents don't still get to him.
So when they call to remind him, once again, that he's a disappointment, that he'll never measure up to Daniel, and that he can never seem to do anything right, Buck does what he always does, he hides it.
Eddie knows something is wrong, but Buck refuses to talk about it.
That works fine until a nightmare drags everything Buck has been trying to bury back to the surface, leaving him waking up in the middle of the night in the worst panic attack of his life.
And this time, Eddie is there to see just how much Buck has been carrying all by himself.
Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
02 Oct 2026
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It wasn’t the first time he felt unwanted. In fact, it was an all too familiar feeling. But the last time he felt this way, he had left. Run off to South America and wherever else he could find himself. But the one thing that had helped him stop feeling lost, the place where he had found himself, had been ripped away from him.
So, why was he still there? What was the point in sticking around?
---After the lawsuit, Buck is struggling when he realizes how unwanted he is at work. When he makes the decision to leave, how will everyone react? And to what lengths will they go to get Buck back?
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
30 Sep 2026
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“Did you know if you put a frog in water and slowly bring it to boiling, it won’t hop out?” Chris is chattering as Buck makes a quick dinner while Eddie argues with his gas company on the phone. He can hear the occasional swear word in Spanish as his voice raises. Eddie doesn’t like to raise his voice around Christopher – the very thought makes Buck want to kiss him full on the mouth – so he decided to take it to the living room while Chris sits with his homework in the kitchen and Buck cooks.
“Hmm?” Buck asks, unable to fully pull himself out of Bobby’s baked mac and cheese recipe. It took him years, but he finally convinced the man to write it down. Bobby’s handwriting was juvenile at best on a good day, but this was nearly unreadable. Buck wonders if he did that on purpose. “Frogs?”
“Yeah!” Chris states. “My teacher said that if you put a frog in a pot, you have to make sure it’s not immediately boiling. You put them in water and then slowly raise the temperature and they won’t realize what’s happening. Then once they realize, they have no place to go. They can’t jump out.”
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S6 Spec: Buck decides he doesn’t need therapy, reverts to some bad habits, and explodes. Or, the Breakdown Fic.
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
30 Sep 2026
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The Buckley parents come to town, turning Buck's already shaky mental status from precarious to worse. Despite avoiding a dreaded dinner at all costs, Buck consents to join Maddie, Chimney, and his parents for dinner. Buck is super fine thanks for asking, he'll just bake about it. And think about kissing Eddie, obviously. Secrets are revealed, leaving the 118 reeling.
// Although its only referenced in passing just mentioning there's no lawsuit in this AU. //
**This fic deals with Margaret Buckley as a emotionally and physically abusive parent.
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
29 Sep 2026
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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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- Part 1 of Lighthouse Universe
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
28 Sep 2026
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“Bucky?”
“Chris, buddy, is everything okay?” He’s already putting on his jacket, his phone nudged between his ear and shoulder.
“No,” Chris sniffles on the other side of the line. “Can you come, please?”
“Christopher, open this door.” He hears Ana say harshly but the sound is muffled.
“No! You’re mean and I don’t like you!” Chris yells at her. “Bucky, please come. I don’t want to stay with her.”--
When Christopher asks Buck for help when he's supposed to stay with Ana for the night, Eddie has to think about what he really wants to do with his romantic life.
Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
28 Sep 2026
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Suddenly there are arms wrapping around him, pinning his own to his sides so he can’t do any more damage. And it’s Eddie’s voice whispering in his ear, and Buck just - breaks.
His legs give way and he falls to the floor but Eddie doesn’t let go, he just falls right along with him.
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
28 Sep 2026
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Buck hated hospitals. It made him think of his first date with Abby, of the truck bombing, of the embolism, of the tsunami. Just, a lot of bad memories, is all.
Which is why he had wanted to tell everyone so quickly. Just so he didn’t have to go to this appointment on his own. Last week he had gone alone, thinking it would be just another check up and then his doctor had looked at him with pity in his eyes and told him they’d found abnormalities in his blood work and they needed him to stop taking his blood thinners and come back in a week.
His doctor had been simultaneously vague and clear when he told him what they would be looking for. Listing all the possible reasons that his blood cell counts were off. But on that list was cancer and Buck knew that with his fucking luck, it would be that. The look on his doctor’s face made him think that he thought so too.
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Buck had meant to tell everyone, he had, really. But they were angry with him and he didn't want them to forgive him just because he might be dying. He needed to fix things first.
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
27 Sep 2026
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Prompt: after the drama with the lawsuit Buck is back but the team are cold and distant or even hostile. Buck tries not to let it get to him but he misses them, especially Eddie who just glares at him. This treatment slowly starts to ware down Buck’s hope that they would all reconcile eventually. It leads to Buck either asking for a transfer or doing something worse. Either way the team, especially Bobby and Eddie realize they let things fester to long. Put as much angst into this as you can!
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
27 Sep 2026
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While on the outs with the team after the lawsuit, Buck faces a decline in his quality of life as he runs out of funds and willpower. It's time he stopped asking everyone for so much. He can handle this on his own.
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- 10/10
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
27 Sep 2026
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Buck hits a breaking point. Bobby barely lets him on calls. Eddie got a girlfriend Anna while the law suite was happening. The others are barely talking to him. Eddie completely froze him out during and after everything. Eddie barely started talking to him again before Ana and him tell him they don’t want him around Christopher anymore. And on top of all of that, Buck finds out he’s a failed Savior Baby. Yeah, Buck hits a breaking point. Who wouldn’t? Maybe some Jack and a sunset will help?
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- Part 1 of I Need Somebody
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- 3,681
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
26 Sep 2026
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Prompt: The lawsuit is all a front to protect the team but they don’t know so they treat Buck harshly. Buck bares all of it until Eddie or Bobby just breaks whatever hope he has left. By the time the truth comes out Buck is gone. Fast forward to a year or more later Eddie and Christopher are out with the team when Chris sees Buck. He’s got longer hair and cold eyes but most importantly he’s pushing a baby carriage with twin babies. He’s loving to Chris but frosty towards the team. What happened
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
26 Sep 2026
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“I’m not leaving you, Buck.” Eddie says with a tired sigh, like he’s struggling with the weight of the world and Buck’s the one who put it there. “Just switching jobs, that’s all.”
That’s all?, Buck wants to scream, because every relationship he has is tied to the job in some way, and first Maddie left, and then it was Chimney, and now it’s Eddie. But he doesn’t scream, because that would be a little bit too tragic, even for him, and nods instead. Bites his tongue. Pretends that he isn't falling apart where he's stood.
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Or, set post season 5A, where Buck is alone, and angry, and exhausted, but mostly terrified that everyone he loves is slowly slipping away from him.
**rated mature for heavy themes**
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Bookmarked by buck2_0 (Addie_MB)
26 Sep 2026
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"Hm. I noticed you here the other day. Bad week?" The man questioned, leaning against the bar. He didn't seem to know how to take a hint, but Buck didn't care all too much, so he sighed and met the stranger's eyes again.
"You could say that. If the week included the past—almost three months." Buck picked his drink up off the counter, taking a long swig in an attempt to stave off the awkwardness. His face scrunched in disgust at the taste, and he blinked rapidly in shock as he pulled it away from his mouth. Salt?
(Or, post-lawsuit, Buck gets roofied and it solves all his problems.)
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
25 Sep 2026
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“Are you doing alright?” Eddie asks him with a slight frown and Buck swallows, going back to tying his shoes so he doesn’t have to look at Eddie.
“Of course,” he says simply. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
“I don’t know,” Eddie replies and Buck can feel his eyes on him. “You’ve been quiet lately.”
Buck freezes in his movements for a fraction of a second. He thought that apart from the whole dinner at Bobby’s fiasco he’s been doing a pretty good job at acting like his normal self in front of everyone.
And how has Eddie of all people noticed that something is up with him? It’s not like he pays him any attention anymore.
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Trigger Warning! Please make sure to read the tags.
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
25 Sep 2026
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Bit by bit, Buck stopped.
It began with the little things. First, he stopped checking his phone when he woke up. He used to do it everyday. He’d check for notifications on Chimney’s instagram, or maybe a new message from the 118 group chat. It wasn’t that anyone other than him texted at one in the morning, but sometimes he’d sleep past one of Cap’s old-timey GIFs or whatever.
Sometimes, Athena would text and greet him good morning. And a few weeks into knowing him, Chris would send a morning message begging for help, normally because Eddie was trying to make pancakes again.
So, with everything going on, Buck always made it a point that the moment his eyes opened, he would check his phone.
Until the first week after the lawsuit, and for the seventh day in a row, there wasn’t anything there except a pitfall in Buck’s stomach.
Nothing.
Never.
Not even a quick ‘hello’.
So, Buck ceased checking his phone. After all, why did he even need to?
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
25 Sep 2026
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"Eddie?" The blond mumbles, staring at the ground. Beside him, his best friend makes a questioning hum. Buck doesn't meet his eyes, feeling his heart begin to pound again.
When he doesn't say anything else, Eddie knocks his shoulder against Buck's. "What's up?" He prompts, unaware.
Buck swallows, and then finally says, "I tried to kill myself last night."
(Or, Buck's been struggling for a long time, and he finally breaks.)
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- Part 1 of my atlantis, we fall
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
25 Sep 2026
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Buck was a very emotional and physically clingy person, he knew this, once he had someone, he held on tight, scared they'd one day leave them.
A drunk Ana points out that maybe everyone is tired of it, and Buck realises: Maybe they are.
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
24 Sep 2026
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"'I just need you to take a step back, just for a little bit. It’s not permanent; it’s just until Ana and I can get our feet under us, you know?” Eddie’s eyes were worried but his smile was hopeful. Buck felt sick.
Eddie wanted him to step back, to leave. He was around too much; in their space too much; in their lives too much; always too much. God, Buck really must have exhausted them until Eddie had had enough; he couldn’t tolerate Buck anymore. Buck had to hand it to him; he’d lasted longer than anyone, besides Maddie. Maybe he should tell him that. The last man standing, finally bowing in defeat."
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Bookmarked by Addie_MB
24 Sep 2026
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It's the smoke that wakes him, seeping into his apartment not ten minutes after he finally knocks off.
He's off the couch in half a second, heart pounding with adrenaline, at the kitchen counter before he even realizes that the familiar smell in his nose is burning insulation.
There isn't any alarm going, no sprinklers on, no neighbors screaming or doors banging open, but Buck knows.
"9-1-1," says a vaguely familiar voice on the other end of the phone once he punches in the numbers. "What's your emergency?"
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24 Sep 2026