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    When Paramedic Shane Hollander and EMT Hayden Pike start working nights, they expect to spend their shifts getting fucked over by Response Paramedic—and notorious asshole—Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane does end up getting fucked, just not in the way he was expecting.

    (shane just wants to do his job and ride the ambulance. ilya thinks shane should be riding him, instead.)

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    09 May 2026

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    When Paramedic Shane Hollander and EMT Hayden Pike start working nights, they expect to spend their shifts getting fucked over by Response Paramedic—and notorious asshole—Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane does end up getting fucked, just not in the way he was expecting.

    (shane just wants to do his job and ride the ambulance. ilya thinks shane should be riding him, instead.)

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    The one where Shane tries to be perfect, Ilya pushes too hard, and an entire hockey team helps search a mountain when one of their own goes missing.

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    02 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya had mutually agreed to keep their whatever-they’re-doing out of Sochi. It was an easy decision to make: this was bigger than any MLH rivalry and definitely bigger than a few hotel hook-ups. There was no room for distractions, not with Olympic gold on the line.

    So it’d be really fucking great if their daemons could get on the same page and stop trying to cause an international fucking incident.

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    02 May 2026

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    “Hey,” Shane said quickly, breathless. “It’s me.”

    “...Hello, Hollander.” Rozanov’s voice was deep and solemn.

    “Are you okay?”

    A short laugh echoed down the phone. “What do you think?”

    Shane cringed at himself. “Right, sorry. Stupid question.”

    “Is fine.” Rozanov sighed. “I am okay, I suppose… I do not know.”

    “I’m… I’m sorry.”

    “Why? You are not the one who sold story.”

    ~~

    The coach's son from Ilya's youth sells his story, and Ilya is left to pick up the pieces. Hollander helps more than he could have ever expected.

     

    set early 2016, pre-tuna melt

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    25 Apr 2026

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    When Shane starts the document, it makes sense to him.

    Later on, when it’s published onto a hundred different gossip sites with hundreds of comments dissecting every word, it looks insane.

    It starts because Shane has no one to talk to about everything. He’s never even kept a journal. He balks at the thought of getting a therapist. It’s not like he’s going to risk writing it down physically for someone to find. The only logical way that Shane can think of to deal with his feelings is to open up a blank Google Docs page and start writing.

    or Shane decides to write down all his feelings instead of talking to Ilya. After years of writing about their relationship, the entire document gets leaked online.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane watches Ilya shove a hand through his hair, waits for him to meet his eyes. “You pretend to want things, pretend I can have things that we both know you won’t let me have,” he says, his newfound self-esteem carrying him past the point of no return. He wishes he’d never discovered it, because it’s making Ilya’s face do something awful.

    “Oh, you mean I hurt your feelings?”

    Close enough, Shane supposes, his chest aching again. He goes to lift his hand again, sees Ilya zero in on the movement, doesn’t. “I guess so.”

    Ilya scoffs, mean and sharp. “So sorry, Hollander, I didn’t mean to make you get so emotional about a casual fuck.”
    Asshole. So many times he has lobbed the word at Ilya in exasperation, reluctant affection and disbelief, but now he thinks it with vitriolic anger. “I think you should go.”

    Shane finally decides that Ilya's ability to weaponise sex isn't enough for him anymore. Ilya doesn't take it well, but Shane holds firm. Then they start to text about it. Sort of.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane does not know what he is staring at when he reads the name of the chat and the influx of texts.

    This looks like actual hell, and more importantly why on earth would Ilya add him to the Boston WAGS chat?

    TLDR: In an attempt to socialise in this new country Ilya puts 'jane' down as his WAG to connect to the team, this has unforeseen consequences for himself.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane is a new assistant coach and is traveling on his first road trip with his new team, while Ilya stays home with their kids. He has a whole fun itinerary for them while Shane is gone but not everything goes according to plan...

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Fans in uproar after Centaurs Captain Ilya Rozanov tweets “Only steers and queers in Vegas and I’m not a cow.” — is Rozanov gay or a homophobe? Vote in the poll below!

     

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    When beloved hockey player Ilya Rozanov finds himself in trouble after a drunken tweet Shane Hollander steps in and saves the day.

    How, you may ask?

    Well. Fake dating, of course.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    After getting fired from his job, Shane makes his night worse by kicking a rock straight into Ilya’s ridiculously expensive car. Broke and out of options, he’s forced into a month long deal with a cold man who loves being in control and the dented car quickly becomes the least complicated part of their arrangement.

    Or: Shane gets fired, commits property damage, and ends up contractually stuck with the worst (and unfortunately hottest) man possible.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    Shane wished that he and Ilya had woken up that morning in Saskatchewan in 2008. Before anyone knew who they were. Before they became numbers instead of men. Shane would have kissed him against the rusted sheet metal and the No Smoking sign. He wouldn't have wasted any moment in any timeline. He'd go back again and again, kiss him and beg for forgiveness. And when he had been through every possible iteration, he would find a way to go back, fall to Ilya's feet and beg for forgiveness one more time. Then he would look into a mirror and try to ask for his own. But he hadn’t. And they couldn’t. This was the hand they had been dealt.

    Or: It's January, 2019 and Shane Hollander can see that the world's view of Rozanov is slowly killing the real Ilya. Roger Crowell orders them to be quiet and capitalise off the attention using Shane's golden image, which fans think is being ruined by association. Shane decides there is no better way to free Ilya now than to simply become the biggest PR nightmare the MLH has ever faced. Shane thinks it might even be fun.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Shane’s hearing is muffled, sound bubbling in and out like he’s swimming through the lake, dipping under the surface and back into the air. He can make out a word here and there, enough to know that Rozanov is trying to get him to breathe with him. He can feel the expansion of Rozanov’s lungs against his hands as he takes deep breaths in and lets them out. Shane tries to copy him, he does, but every inhale carries the scent of him, his cologne, his skin, his hair products. The scents are so familiar to him, and he wants more than anything for them to calm him, make him feel safe, but they are doing the opposite. Why are they still so familiar to him after not being anywhere near Rozanov for half a year? Why does he still want to shove his face against Rozanov’s throat and suck in every last last hint he can get?

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    Ilya takes longer to arrive in the bathroom after they present the award together, leaving Shane time to sink into a full-blown panic attack. This leads to a very different night in Vegas and an earlier beginning to Shane and Ilya’s relationship.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    “No,” he says, smiling gently, like he doesn't know how irritating he's being. “Is my room first, da? You should speak with front desk.”

    Hollander stares at him.

    And then he starts to laugh.

    You ask the front desk,” he shoots back, in between his odd wheezes. Ilya's heart starts to pound in double time, because this is not—this cannot be Shane Hollander playing bed chicken with him. Their competitiveness is fierce, to be certain, but surely, Hollander would be the bigger person, no? “This is my fucking room, Rozanov. Wild horses couldn't drag me away.”

    OR: Ilya's apartment is under construction. Shane's in town for a game. It'd be a shame if they somehow had the same hotel room.

    [or, or: we need some more goddamn 'there was only one bed' out here.]

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    10 Apr 2026

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    “Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?”

    Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused.

    “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.”

    Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?”

     

    -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Tweet by @OttawaCentaursOfficial
    March 1, 2022

    You asked, we…did something slightly different. Tune into our Instagram starting next week for Centaurs on Centaurs, a brand new series of short episodes where you’ll get to see your favorite hockey players interview each other!

    Or, the Ottawa Centaurs' version of Actors on Actors.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    For Shane and Ilya, the summer off-season is supposed to be about healing from a brutal playoff run. But between a double proposal and a wedding alliance (and maybe something more) forming between Svetlana Vetrova and Rose Landry, quiet is definitely off the table.

    While Shane and Ilya navigate the friction of planning a life together, Luca is fighting his own battle. Feeling the pressure of a championship legacy and a lingering knee injury, a reckless accident lands him in the ER, where an incredibly put-upon nursing student makes him feel the same sparks he sees flickering between his dad and his captain. Too bad she's utterly unimpressed by his stats, his name, or his trophies.

    The Hollander-Rozanov family is finding out that winning the Cup was the easy part. Building a home is where the real work begins.

    (Second in my Hollanov are actually Luca's parents AU. Read don't know what to do whenever you are near first.)

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    08 Apr 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    31 Mar 2026

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