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Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.
But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”
—you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—
So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.
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I deserve the dream (but I don't deserve the hurting) by not1_2write, orphan_account
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
15 Oct 2021
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When Buck jumps off a bridge to save a little girl during a call he winds up with a month off work and a slew of people coming to the Diaz house to take care of him and force him to rest. He's not going to admit how nice it is.
He would also like to point out- for the record- that he technically jumped out of a bus. It just so happened to be hanging halfway off a bridge at the time.
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when you're lost in the universe, don't lose hope by kaleidoscopeskies (desert_moonchild)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
23 Oct 2023
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As tired as he looked, Eddie had never seen Buck look so soft or in love before. The only other person Buck had ever even remotely looked at like that was Christopher. And that’s when it hit him.
This was Buck’s baby.
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Buck had never felt so alone in his life, in the weeks after he dropped the lawsuit, when he gets a call letting him know he was never going to be alone again.
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About 30 in the street, at least 10 more in the building. One woman with a single GSW to the leg, none other critically injured. Four police chargers and six officers, all armed, more inbound.
One suspect. Male. Small caliber handgun and a hostage.
There was no time for Buck to think when his reactions needed to be faster than his brain. His body knew what to do, how to take a man down efficiently.
In which Buck joined the 118 after transferring to the Navy Reserves and struggled with becoming a civilian. Eddie showed him how to feel worthy again.
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- Part 1 of Sigma Six
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Evan “Buck” Buckley was not an honest person as much as he would like to be or even was trying to be in his own way. His dishonesty wasn’t malicious in the slightest though. He had his reasons, of course, but his entire identity was built on a shaky Jenga tower of lies. As much as he built it up, one by one the blocks were still removed over the years making the tower less and less stable.
Buck joined the 118 fresh out of the Navy and braced himself for all the questions that were about to come his way which he did not want to answer. Then, like a gift from above, somehow and shockingly, no one had read his resume, and he found he could start all over again, be a new person, someone completely different or maybe who he was supposed to be all along.
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I'll Feel You Forget Me Like I Used to Feel You Breathe by turningthepages
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
22 Mar 2023
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A car accident leaves Eddie without ten years of memories. He forgets meeting Buck, falling in love, getting married, and bringing two more kids into their life. As Eddie struggles to adjust to this new life, Buck struggles with being in love with someone who doesn't want to remember him.
Oh, and they have really cute kids.
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Just another Hollywood Amnesia story the fandom probably didn't need but lived in my head rent free for too long.
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- Part 1 of I'll Feel You Forget Me
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A series of unconnected one shots about the best firefam around <3
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The thing was, the 118 was full of gossips.
Eddie had been at the station less than a week before Hen and Chim wrangled details about his “hot young thing” from him (“Buck is only 4 years younger than me, he is not a ‘hot young thing’!” Eddie complained.)
And Bobby was open about his worries for his son’s lack of direction and the secrets he appears to be keeping (“I just wish I could help Evan find the thing that gives him purpose,” Bobby lamented.)
It just made it all the more ridiculous (and horrifying) when Eddie realizes he’s been dating his Captain’s son this whole time (“Defiling his baby,” Chimney cackled, because he clearly wanted Eddie murdered.)
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Or, the AU where miscommunication abounds as Eddie seeks advice about his new relationship, Bobby despairs over his adopted son's career prospects and his refusal to talk about it, and Evan Buckley-Nash juggles training at the fire academy, building a family with his new boyfriend, and trying to work out how to tell his overprotective dad that he's already chosen the life he wants, actually.
It takes a goddamn tsunami, of all things, to get the story straight.Series
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Irritated, Eddie clenched his fists, starting to turn around. "Why would Buck be eating with us - "
The words died in his throat along with the shatter of the mug against the floor. But Eddie barely noticed he dropped it, his mouth slightly agape as he stared at Buck, took in the bruises, and the blood, and general brokenness of the man before him.
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Or: After the Lawsuit, Buck is starting to think his team will never forgive him and is feeling lonelier than ever, when his dad shows up, looking for money that Buck doesn't have. Now, his ribs are broken and his face has been pummelled into one big bruise. All he wants to do is retreat to his empty apartment and wallow in his own self-pity, but before that he needs to get his keys, which he'd left at the station the previous night.
Everyone else is on shift, so he's hoping he can sneak into the locker room and be gone before anyone notices he was there, but this is Buck, so of course, nothing goes to plan.
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It was an accident. He slipped. That doesn't mean he isn't going to take advantage of the opportunity that presents itself.
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Post Lawsuit, Buck accidentally cuts his arm. He decides that maybe not getting help is best for everyone.---
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Evan Buckley had lived a lie for sixteen years and it was going just fine. Until the truth started spilling through his fingers.
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Omega!Buck has been pretending to be an alpha for more than half his life and everything changes when Eddie finds out. -
Broken Thoughts (I Remember Everything) by blackwatchandromeda (avenris)
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Spider-Man - All Media Types, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies)
04 Feb 2019
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"Peter, who am I?"
He hesitates. "I'm sorry. I... I don't know."
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Peter Parker has been missing for thirty-six days. When Tony Stark finally finds him, he's wandering around New York with no memories, unaware of where and who he is. The missing month is a mystery, and nobody knows what happened to him - least of all the kid himself.
Peter, meanwhile, is trying to piece together who he was. What doesn't help is the big secret he's sure Tony is keeping from him, or the way the man is avoiding him.
Nobody notices how the missing month is catching up to them until everything goes wrong.
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(Not Infinity War compliant, but takes place after Civil War.)
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It's Always the Little Things by orphan_account
Fandoms: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
29 Jul 2019
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Previously posted under username signofthree. This post-IW fic was written pre-IW, so it is pure speculation based on the trailers. And now, I suppose, a slight AU.
It’s been months since the Avengers defeated Thanos, and Peter’s doing fine. Really. Okay, so he has like, ten times as many villains to fight lately (and what is up with their costumes?). And sure, Tony has barely spoken to him since they got back. And, yeah, the whole coming back from the dead thing is a mind trip. But he’s dealing with it. All things considered, he’s doing a pretty good job of it too.
With everything else that’s going on, a bruise seems like such a little thing that Peter doesn’t pay it any attention, even when it doesn’t fade nearly as fast as it should. It’s just a bruise. It’s no big deal.
Enter an alien virus, throw in some Dr. Strange, inter-dimensional note passing, and a very, very angry Tony Stark, and suddenly it’s not such a little deal anymore.
It’s always the little things, isn’t it?
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A collection of moments from Neil's second winter with the foxes, and his attempts to process his trauma.
Or five times the foxes showed Neil genuine affection, and the one time it finally broke him.“You’re not staying over break are you Neil?” Dan asked, as if he had anywhere else to go. There was nowhere left for him outside of Palmetto.
Neil fiddled with the zipper of his jacket, sliding the tab up and down the chain, “I’ll go wherever Andrew’s going.” He hadn’t meant for it to sound so sentimental but Dan’s soft awe caught him off guard. He looked over at Allison who was rolling her eyes, now reclined on the other side of the bed. His fingers tripped over the zipper and he realized with a start that his face had begun to flush.
“I won't tell Nicky you said that if you let me paint your nails.” Allison offered snarkily, smirking at him again.
Dan scoffed and started out of the room, “I’m gonna heat up dinner, are you staying Neil?” She looked back briefly for his response. He nodded before turning back to Allison, “I don’t care what you tell Nicky.” He told her, and it was only half a lie.