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    Shane was still trying to settle Max, cupping the back of his head, pressing him back against his chest. Body warmth, familiar scent—that was supposed to be enough. That was supposed to be some innate thing, some animalistic pull newborns had toward their parents, hardwired in them from the beginning. Shane had read that. He was pretty sure he had read that.

    It was probably really bad that his baby didn't have it toward him.

    Or,

    Shane is not bonding with his new baby.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    “Haas,” Ilya says. His tone light, conversational. “He had a good game.”

    “Are you seriously talking about Haas right now?”

    The sting is taken out of Shane’s words by how breathlessly he says them, but he still has that cute scrunched-up frown that Ilya loves so much.

    “He’s a good kid,” Ilya says. “Very pretty.”

    “Fuck off,” Shane snaps. But Ilya just presses deeper into him, the answering gasp as familiar as if it came from his own lungs.

    “You don’t think so? I saw you doing yoga together. Seemed like you were...” Ilya searches for the words. When he finds them, grins. “Admiring his form.”

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    Breaking my silence to say that I think Hollanov would have a threesome and they'd have it with Luca Haas. But don't worry, they're obviously jealous and possessive and insane about it the whole time.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    The trade deadline is here and there's a shocking new development: Shane Hollander has been traded.

    To One Direction.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Shane was there when Ilya got the call, his arm heavy across Ilya's stomach, like even in sleep he could tell something was trying to take Ilya away from him.

    When Boston realize Ilya wants out, they send him to the highest bidder. The highest bidder is LA.

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    23 May 2026

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    Two months after Jackie lets the backyard fire pit fall over and just stands there letting it burn, Hayden has a boys trip. Arrangements are made. Enter: Svetlana Vetrova, daughter of the famous Soviet goaltender, and Ilya Rosanov’s best friend.

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    23 May 2026

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    Ilya tests the limits of domestic bliss.

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    20 May 2026

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    They have to get out of this fucking bed.

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    20 May 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov moved to Ottawa to be closer to Shane, he thought he'd made the right decision. Instead, he finds himself in a prison of his own making, desperate to make his cage feel like a home, and convinced that he can solve every issue in his life with a new coat of paint.

    Unfortunately, nobody around him seems to agree.

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    17 May 2026

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    06 May 2026

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    Irina is a fascinating, tragic figure. She occupies more space than she should in Yuna’s mind, but she occupies more space than she should in all of their lives: the giant black hole at the center of their family.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Both of them are there the next time Shane wakes up about an hour later, and this time he opens his eyes, rasps Mom?

    The room fills quickly, a flurry of nurses coming to check vitals and adjust his IV, the doctor stepping in to conduct all of the mandatory concussion protocol. Shane grunts and groans every time he has to move his sore body but otherwise complies as he always does, sitting through the basic questions and the light shining in his eyes. He’s up just long enough to finish those and to get something in him to eat, and just after Yuna and David both manage to sneak in tearful, relieved hugs, he’s slipping back into sleep once again. 

    Normal, they keep saying. This is all perfectly normal.

    But there’s something, Yuna thinks—something here that she’s missing. 

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Ilya looked at the text thread with Jane. Nearly a week ago, from him: a room number, and then a screenshot of the Metros lineup with a question mark. He could have said something else then. He could have said, Sorry for your loss, or Are you okay, or anything else people said when your mother abruptly died in a car accident.

    But Ilya hadn't found any of those things particularly helpful, and didn't.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Luca hadn’t been sure he would go through with the plan. He’d talked himself into it and out of it about fifty times.

    But he's made it this far. He's sitting with Shane Hollander, just the two of them. Now all he needs to do it open his mouth and—

    “Look,” Shane is saying, “if you wanted to talk through coming out, I th—”

    “I can’t figure out anal sex,” Luca blurts.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Shane liked The Centaurs. He really did.

    The Centaurs lose in the finals. Shane and Ilya host a dinner party.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    There is a thing Shane wants. Forgiveness, absolution, a way out of his imagined sin. But at the same time, he cannot accept the desire, can’t look at it head on. Will stall forever in the hair-shirt stage, causing himself pain, because he stubbornly refuses to create for himself any path towards atonement.

    This is fine. Repressed desire, unconscious craving for release. Ilya can work with this. Might even call it his area of expertise.

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    After the Centaurs lose in the playoff semi-finals for the second year in a row, Ilya has to save Shane from himself.

    Written for Mean Dom Ilya Week, for the prompt orgasm control/denial.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Shane gets permission to do whatever he wants to Ilya while Ilya sleeps off pain meds.

    Ilya isn't expecting Shane to use that as an excuse to finally be tender with him.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Shane doesn't love making decisions. Ilya does. Isn't that convenient?

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Sometimes the enormity of it all scares Ilya. Everything Shane is willing to give him. He offers himself up on a silver plate, lets Ilya cut him open and make a mess of his insides, dig his greedy fingers into the muscle of his heart. It's terrifying and new, exhilarating and awful.

    It doesn't scare him now. Now he will do what he wants, because ultimately it's what Shane wants, too. Their desires are so tightly aligned and entwined he couldn't separate them from each other even if he wanted to.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    30 Mar 2026

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