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    They call it a Lucid Interval. A brief moment of clarity after a traumatic brain injury where the patient appears fine. Awake. Alert. Happy.

    ​After the hit, Shane Hollander wakes up. He jokes with the nurses. He smiles at Ilya. He makes plans for the summer.

    ​Ilya Rozanov just outed himself to the entire world on live television to save him, but he can't save him from this. Shane isn't getting better. He is dying. And these are the last conversations they will ever have.

    ​A story about the hit, the confession, and the long, slow silence that followed.

    They weren't saying goodbye to each other; Ilya was too confident that Shane would win.

    Shane loved winning.

    He lost, the first lost that Ilya didn't enjoy.

    Because he only left Ilya to suffer more.

    (finished, all done)

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    11 Feb 2026

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    All the fics I (Mars) have written for Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, most are unconnected unless they're listed in separate series!

    Yes most of them have the tag "no beta we die like Irina Rozanova" bc my friend thought it was funny :)

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    11 Feb 2026

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    After their fight on Boxing Day, Ilya was too hurt to call Shane. Too tired to text. Shane was too anxious and scared to do it first. Both of them will be haunted by their choice when Ilya's plane crashes on his flight to Tampa Bay. After having never come out to the world that they were together, Ilya in his last moments, hurtling towards his certain death at 29, finds himself unable to stop thinking about two people and his future wedding with Shane. A story that will never come to life. Shane finds out during his own game that the love of his life is now gone, gone where he can't follow him.
    A story of death, grief and mourning. Shane losing everything even though his best friends and parents surround him with their love. A few last words from the last person he thought he would ever see change his life.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Spoilers for The Long Game. Post-Canon.

    The start of Ottawa's season feels like a promise. Ilya finally has all the people he loves in one place, a team that can keep up with him, the whole world knows he and Shane love each other, and they have the sweetest, most perfect dog. So why is he so nervous about their first game against Montreal?

    AKA Protective Ilya Rozanov momentarily forgets his husband is still the hockey prodigy he fell in love with at first freckle in Saskatchewan.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    10 Feb 2026