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  1. Public Bookmark 12

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    "It should be easy to just stop.
    It's not enjoyable, he always feels worse afterward, the cleanup is stressful, and it's excruciating.
    And yet, he finds himself craving it, unable to go more than a day or two without procuring a blade and cutting into his own flesh.
    He's practically addicted to the guilt, the pain, the sight of his own blood beading up and dripping down his arm."

    Or: Ambrosius reaches a breaking point

     

    Sequel to An Eye For An Eye, but can be read as a standalone

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    06 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    1000/10 excellent use of minimal words to say so much.

  2. Public Bookmark 48

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    Ever since Ambrosius was young, he's had expectations and responsibilities stacked upon him, being a direct descendant of Gloreth and all.
    He was taught that love is conditional, a privilege given to him when he proved he was worthy of it, even when proving his worth meant wearing himself to the bone.

    Ballister's love isn't like that. It's infinite, unconditional.
    A little too unconditional, in his opinion. He's so quick to forgive Ambrosius for things he hasn't earned forgiveness for, ways he's hurt Bal both physically and otherwise that should not be brushed aside so easily.
    So he's started taking matters into his own hands.

     

    Or: Ambrosius feels guilty and deals with it in an unhealthy and potentially life-threatening way. Ballister finds him doing this.

    Edit: Now has a (less well written) sequel Blinded by Guilt

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    06 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    WTF! It is so sad, absolutely love this fic:3

  3. Public Bookmark 30

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    Luz makes Raine and Eda watch Nimona, and they react to *that* line.

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    06 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Is this excessive mention of arm chopping? I think it needs to be mentioned even more!

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    Ballister has a nightmare. Ambrosius is there to offer comfort - which is a little difficult, given that he was what Ballister had been dreaming about.

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    06 Sep 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I gotta agree with the other person, pump this fic into my bloodstream if I need a blood transfusion.

  5. Public Bookmark 17

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    They really could have picked a better time to reveal themselves.

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    16 Jul 2025

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