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Episodes 43 - 45
The war is almost over, but Duo Maxwell is still falling apart.
Alone on Peacemillion, he hides his pain behind smiles and scars, pretending he’s fine while quietly bleeding just to feel something real. The silence after battle is louder than any explosion, and the emptiness threatens to swallow him whole. Then all five pilots reunite, ready for the final battle.
Duo had mourned him. Grieved him like a ghost. But now Heero is here, real and close, and Duo doesn’t know how to survive it. He can’t face him—not without everything breaking open again.
There’s no peace inside Duo. Just old wounds, new cuts, and the boy who left him behind.
Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains mature content. Reader discretion is advised.
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- Part 7 of Bound For Hell
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Episodes 19 - 20
Captured, tortured and left for dead by OZ. Duo never expected anyone to come for him, least of all Heero.
Dragged from the jaws of OZ’s prison with more wounds than hope, Duo is left reeling from the pain, the shame, and the weight of being saved. But in the silence between them, Heero offers more than comfort—he offers presence. Reassurance. Love.
In the aftermath of torture and trauma, the hardest part isn’t the healing—it’s believing he’s worth it.
Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains mature content. Reader discretion is advised.
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- Part 4 of Bound For Hell
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Episodes 33 - 39
Duo’s world is unraveling.
This temporary peace is a lie, and Duo knows it. Crashing on Hilde’s couch, going through the motions, and pretending this new world makes sense. But the quiet hurts more than the chaos ever did. When it gets too heavy—too loud inside—he turns to old habits just to feel something, just to escape.He’s not okay. He hasn’t been for a long time.
Heero is gone. Maybe dead. Maybe worse.
And all Duo can do is keep breathing, one sharp, broken inhale at a time.Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains mature content. Reader discretion is advised.
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- Part 6 of Bound For Hell
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Duo Maxwell is haunted by nightmares of the Maxwell Church massacre, reliving the fire, the blood, and the children's lifeless eyes. The war may be over, but the ghosts still whisper—punishment. Sleep offers no escape, only torment that lingers in sweat-soaked sheets and the phantom taste of ash.
Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains mature content. Reader discretion is advised.
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- Part 10 of Bound For Hell
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Set 2.5 years after Bound For Hell, the Gundam pilots face the aftermath of the Mariemaia incident, struggling to rebuild their lives in the shadow of trauma. With Heero missing, Duo fights to pick up the pieces, but the weight of grief and guilt pulls him under. As he navigates a world filled with pain, self-injury, and substance abuse, he must confront his demons and seek hope in a future without Heero.
Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains mature content. Reader discretion is advised. Very slight Relena bashing.
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- Part 9 of Bound For Hell
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Duo survived the war, but the peace that followed feels like a different kind of battlefield. The only things that have ever kept him grounded are a blade in his hand and Heero by his side. But love alone can’t silence the ghosts that haunt him. Heero has always been his anchor, but love alone isn’t enough to silence the demons that haunt them both. As Heero fights to pull Duo from the depths of self-destruction, they are forced to confront the past. Healing isn’t easy, and some wounds refuse to heal.
Trigger Warnings: Explicit themes including self-injury, suicide, PTSD, substance abuse, sexual abuse, and mental health struggles. Contains Lemons. Reader discretion is advised.
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"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned," his began on a shaky breath.
He didn't even really know why he was doing this. It had been years, more than half of his life, since he'd last prayed to this god, but he didn't know what else to do. His mind still reeled with the sight and scent of flesh and blood. His flesh and blood.
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19 Oct 2025
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Written for #wingtober2025 prompt 5: Death
Heero hears students discussing the French phrase La Petite Mort and thinks about the pilot who calls himself the God of Death, and wonders if he also means the little death. He investigates what orgasms feel like for himself, and later, to give to the God of Death himself.
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Quatre wants two guys...at the same time.
Heero's it.
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10 Sep 2025
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Heero was curious of a certain sex toy and tried it without his braided lover's supervision. He got more than he bargained for.
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- Part 1 of Curiosity Killed the Cat
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21 Aug 2025
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After receiving some titillating texts from Duo, Heero is eager to turn the tables on him. When he comes home to find Duo in an apron, it presents the perfect opportunity...
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- Part 2 of Dinner, a Bath, Or...
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