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    Shane was the number one draft pick for Boston and his MLH career was about to begin. That was until, the day after the CCM photoshoot, the Hollanders got into a car accident. The only information released was that Shane Hollander sustained life-altering injuries and would not be joining the Bears in the coming season. As far as the hockey world knew, Shane Hollander had completely vanished.

    Ilya is captain of the Metros, struggling with having to hide parts of himself.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    31 Jul 2026

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    When Paramedic Shane Hollander and EMT Hayden Pike start working nights, they expect to spend their shifts getting fucked over by Response Paramedic—and notorious asshole—Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane does end up getting fucked, just not in the way he was expecting.

    (shane just wants to do his job and ride the ambulance. ilya thinks shane should be riding him, instead.)

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    31 Jul 2026

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    Ilya picks up on the third ring, breathing heavily into the phone. Shane hears a door slam shut through the device. “Do not yell at me.” 

    Shane stares at the half-empty bottle of vodka on the coffee table. “You suck.”

    “I suck? I scored hat-trick! In your stupid body! I have not eaten in six hours, Hollander. I have not pissed. I have not laid down. I want to go home.” 

    “Rozanov–” 

    “Your mother has called twenty times. Your manager has called thirty times. Your father text me picture of crossword puzzle and ask for help. Clue is about American President from the 1980s. I cannot help!”

    OR: the hollanov bodyswap fic. 

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    31 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 22

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    A return to Montreal is supposed to be just another away game. Instead, it becomes a broken stick, an attempted theft of an opponent’s hockey stick, one very confused arena, several viral videos, and two little girls who unknowingly settle the argument with a classroom rule about sharing. Through all the chaos, Shane realizes that home was never a locker room it was always the people waiting for him after the final whistle.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    "If this is it," Shane whispered, so quietly only Ilya could hear, "you won't face a single second of it alone."

    Ilya closed his eyes. His fingers tightened around Shane's hand with everything he had left.

    He saw the fear in Ilya’s eyes.

    Then he saw nothing.

    *******

    It was supposed to be an ordinary flight. Instead, it becomes the worst day of their lives.

    They were never meant to be on the same plane. Then the unthinkable happens. It goes down.

    As terrified passengers flee the wreckage, Shane refuses to abandon the man he loves, even as rescuers and survivors alike order him to get out. Trapped beneath twisted metal, Ilya is running out of time. And while they wait for help, the secret they've spent years protecting slips into the hands of strangers with phones.

    In an instant, the whole world is watching. Hockey can burn. The headlines can wait.

    Shane Hollander has exactly one job: keep Ilya alive.

    Because if they survive this, he'll have to protect more than Ilya's life. He'll have to protect everything they've built together against impossible odds.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    What happens when Shane leaves post tuna meltdown? Ilya starts writing letters to “Jane”.

    What happens when Ilya’s cleaner finds a stack of letters and sends them out?

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    31 Jul 2026

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    “Rozanov.”
    “Yes?”
    “What are you doing wearing my jersey?”

    rozanovupdatesdaily@bostonfan
    This has gotta be photoshop, surely, there’s no fucking way

     

    Ilya surprises Shane by wearing his hockey jersey. Shane likes it maybe a little bit too much.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    Shane coming out

  9. Public Bookmark 19

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    Shane Hollander is set to play as first-line centre in the draft finals. Shane Hollander is trying desperately to be normal. Shane Hollander meets Ilya Rozanov, who makes him increasingly angry and also makes him feel very NOT normal.

    Ilya Rozanov is set to play as first-line centre in the draft finals. Ilya Rozanov is desperately trying to get the fuck out of Russia and away from his family. Ilya Rozanov meets Shane Hollander, who has freckles that scrunch up when he's annoyed and has big brown eyes that look at him carefully, but curiously.

    OR

    Ilya ragebaits Shane into being his friend before anything and then they fall in LOVE (yay!)

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Is this a game to you

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    “We, uh, Brian and I, that is. We decided to open up the relationship.”

    “Okay?” Ilya says, voice flat. “What is that?”

    Hollander shrugs. His posture has gone stiff again. “It. It means we’re still together, but we can also like...see other people. Or not see, because we’re not dating anyone else but, uh. Fuck. Fuck other people.”

    Oh.

    “And this is why you texted me?” Ilya asks.

    In a way, it’s almost better. Hollander and his boyfriend breaking up and Ilya reaping the rewards would be enjoyable. Ilya having to work for that reward himself, getting the chance to fuck Hollander so good he forgets all about that loser who attached himself to him like a parasite before he was old enough to know better?

    Well. Ilya loves a challenge.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Are you taking me home?

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    When you become friends with benefits at 18, it’s easy to quickly become codependent on each other – especially when the only one who understands your issues is your arch rival. Because who else would you talk to? And how will it change when the rivalry isn’t as prominent as it used to be? When their recurring game of Fuck-Marry-Kill for shits n’ giggles is carried over to real life, Shane and Ilya are forced to face the many mysteries of love.

    Or: What if tuna melt never happened? What if there's no jealousy? What if Shane and Ilya’s relationship was based on communication? What if Troy Barrett got traded to Boston and had to deal with the mortifying ordeal of being known?

    A story about contradictions and the duality of man, about learning to love yourself and all your flaws. It is also a story about friendship, deep care and trust, and all the small things that make us human. And books.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    The non existent boom club

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    And oh, Ilya was a weak, weak man.

    Because Shane had clearly gotten the wrong advice from someone along the line.

    And as his RA, his mentor and guide in the first year of Shane's college career, he was meant to correct that. Steer his charge clear of such horrible, terrible ideas as asking their “straight” RA to teach them how to kiss behind their boyfriend's back. Say no, malysh, you really don't need to worry about this, your first kiss should be with someone you love and trust and really want to kiss.

    “Okay,” he said, instead, and thought that at least he wasn't going to be sent back to Russia.

    He was going to be sent straight to hell.

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    30 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I’ll let you set the pace since I’m not thinking straight

  13. Public Bookmark 55

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    If Shane Hollander and Ilya Rosanov worked in the OR…as told from Shane’s POV,

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    A story of love across the drapes.

     
    Dr. Shane Hollander is a quiet, if not slightly serious anesthesiologist with an orderly life...until a certain Russian surgeon starts working at his hospital.

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    30 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I love you asshole

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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Doesn’t mean that I was never afraid

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    After Russia’s quarterfinal loss in Sochi, Shane Hollander sends Ilya Rozanov as innocent of a text message as he can while still hinting at the worry beneath. Rather than ignoring him like he probably should have, Ilya gives Shane one honest answer...

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    30 Jul 2026

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    The answer was no - after Sochi Shane sends an email

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been best friends since they were twelve. They were attached at the hip, as much as two straight guys could be.
    Everyone accepted that Shane and Ilya were just being Shane and Ilya.

    Or: Shane and Ilya think they know where to draw the line between straight best friends and whatever the hell they keep doing.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Drawing a line - friends to lovers

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    “They are so pretty. Pretty freckles on pretty boy and I want….”

    Shane can’t breathe. Holy fuck he can’t breathe, every fucking fantasy he’s had since he was seventeen is right in front of him and he doesn’t know what to do.

    “What…” licks his lips and watches as Rozanov leans forward, like he can’t help but try to be closer, “What do you want?”

    A smile, slow and wicked, sharp canines that Shane wants at his throat.

    “I told you, to be boyfriend.”

    Or: In a world where there was no CCM hookup and they're just rivals, Shane has come out as gay, and Ilya isn't going to let that opportunity pass him by.

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    30 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Boyfriend auditions

  18. Public Bookmark 99

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    On a late night in 2005, two bored and lonely strangers stumble upon each other within the virtual world of Club Penguin. Their names are Metr0sKid24 and 81ilyA, and this is their story.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Love in the time of Puffles - club penguin

  19. Public Bookmark 32

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    Shane and Ilya broke up after their argument because Shane still isn't ready to go public with their relationship. At first, Ilya tries to fight for Shane, but then he realizes that this is a battle Shane has to fight on his own.

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    This is a story about what it's like when love has to live in the darkness, and how they find their way back into the light and back to each other.
    (happy ending)

    The whole story takes place after the plane incident. This story differs from the book in many ways.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    What the darkness can’t take from us

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    Shane was eleven years old when the Rozanovs moved to Ottawa as their next door neighbor. They become the best of friends.
    They were 17 when they made a pact to leave Ottawa and pursue their university in Montreal.
    But life had other plans for Shane & Ilya, testing their friendship and their love.
    Will they find each other in the end?
    A loose re-telling of the movie Love, Rosie, told through Shane’s POV.
    Get ready to fall in love with Shane and llya all over again.

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    30 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Love, Shane

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