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    When he was 14, Shane was hit in the throat with a puck, giving him a concussion and neurogenic stutter.

    (I'm so bad at summaries, I'll probably add more to this when I figure out where the story is going)

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    13 Oct 2026

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    Shane blinks back, and wonders what his face might be doing. He wonders if somewhere written among his freckles is the number of times that Shane’s intrusive thoughts have imagined the man before him in lewd scenarios. He wonders if his mouth --already disconnected from his conscious mind-- secretly whispers confessions of his fantasies in a devastating betrayal of the self.

    Shane swallows. The two blue eyes are so fucking close that they could each be a mile wide. They could be barrels of a gun or the tips of arrows. They’re trained on Shane and call on his animalistic reactions of fight or flight.

    Or fawn.

    Shane Hollander was diagnosed with autism as a child. With delayed speech, sensory difficulties, and a brain that refused to conform, Shane grew up always finding ways to cope using hockey, systems, and routine. After temporarily losing his speech in a very public meltdown at the world juniors, Shane is forced to carve a path as the first publicly autistic player in the NHL, accommodations and all.

    Chronic surprise Ilya Rozanov is determined to prove to Shane that he isn't a problem to be solved, while both men must learn to accept that they're worthy of love at all.

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    05 Oct 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov goes first overall in the draft to Boston. Shane Hollander goes three rounds later, to the same team, which nobody saw coming, least of all Shane.

    The only person in the building who isn't surprised is the guy who's been thinking about Shane Hollander since January.

    OR: the one where Shane goes to Boston instead of Montreal, he's deaf, there's no rivalry, and Ilya Rozanov falls first and falls hardest.

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    03 Oct 2026

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    After the dust settles a little from winning their second cup in 2 years, Shane gets a diagnosis he never expected. Now he has to consider his career might be over alongside his arrangement with Ilya. But, the funny thing about a health crisis is it forces people to step up when you least expect it.

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    27 Sep 2026

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    “So. The plan,” Ilya says eventually. “What should we do? Should you request a trade to Ottawa?”

    Shane pulls himself back, just enough so he can meet Ilya’s eyes. He had considered that, on the car ride over. Considered waiving his No-Movement Clause for the Centaurs.

    But then, he began to consider waiving it for a different team in a different city. A city that already has a house for them to share.

    Ottawa made sense before, when it seemed like the only option for the two of them to be closer together.

    But now?

    “I could,” Shane says. “Or, I could request a trade to Boston.”

    Or: it’s the Spring of 2018. A locker room incident disguised as a prank outs Shane, and his teammates discover his relationship with a rival NHL player— a player that Shane refuses to disclose the identity of.

    In the following months, it becomes obvious that Montreal can no longer be a home for Shane.

    Boston, however, just might be.

    (Can be read as a standalone)

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    24 Sep 2026