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Post-lawsuit, Buck is on the outs with the team when they attempt to start bridging the gap. They learn the hard way that it's too late when he takes their attempts to bridge the gap as them being actively cruel.
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- Part 1 of When To Walk Away
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16 Feb 2026
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"Have you heard of chemo curls?" Buck asks.
Eddie looks up from the collection of half-rotted fruit he's gathered and is trying his best not to gag at.
"How long have you been awake?" he counters.
or, in the wake of his discovery, Eddie takes Buck home with him
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- Part 2 of knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
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16 Feb 2026
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"I had to watch as put yourself in danger when it could have been avoided, again. The team and I have been watching you and lately it seems like you don’t care if you get hurt."
"It’s not like that." Buck protested weakly, rubbing his temple with his hand.
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16 Feb 2026
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Buck returns to work after the lawsuit to find his welcome isn't very warm. Some of the 118 crew are more upset than others and it soon turns violent.
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16 Feb 2026
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does it ever drive you crazy, just how fast the night changes? by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
06 Jun 2021
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By the time he registers that there is now blood rolling down the side of his face, Buck is being pulled up by the gunman, the weapon jammed against the side of his head and an arm wrapping around his neck as they look up to the loft, where the team stands, frozen in shock.
He'd hoped that they would've heard his warning and run, but clearly, they hadn't.
(Or, post-lawsuit, two people decide that today is the day to threaten the 118 at gunpoint.)
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15 Feb 2026
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Buck is finally back at work after the lawsuit but things are frosty between him and the rest of the 118.
What happens when Buck gets hurt protecting Bobby and no one realizes until it's too late?
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14 Feb 2026
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"What? Eddie, where's Buck?" Hen questioned, her brows furrowed in worry.
"He's dead," he said again, louder this time. He knew they heard him. The silence was sickening. "He killed himself. Buck's dead."
(Or, Buck is dead, and Eddie isn't coping.)
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- Part 2 of my bones decide my home
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14 Feb 2026
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they say that it gets better (but i guess that was a lie) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Sep 2021
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It was only when his alarm went off that he finally dragged himself out of bed, running his hand down his face in a poor attempt to hide the fact that he'd spent hours wallowing in self-pity.
He was so fucking tired.
(Or, Buck makes the decision to end his life.)
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- Part 3 of my bones decide my home
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14 Feb 2026
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“I wanna know what is so goddamn special,” Mackey drawled, voice increasing in volume as he continued, “about this fucking firehouse that it made this moron give up millions of dollars for you.”
Mackey punctuated the emphasized word with a harsh yank of Buck’s hair, and a gargled whimper left Buck that was muffled by the gag.
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Or, Buck's lawyer has a few questions for the firefam about why anyone would ever willingly choose to turn down millions of dollars. In the process, Eddie finally lets himself realize that as much as he's been hurt by Buck and the lawsuit, Buck has been hurting, too, for far longer than the lawsuit.
Whumptober Day 24: revenge
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- Part 24 of Whumptober 2021
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14 Feb 2026
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If you're lonely when you're alone, you're in bad company by Cuppa_Char
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
01 Nov 2021
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Buck made a mistake. Only it wasn’t a one time thing. It happened a second, and third time too. It’s not like he’d gone back for it, but it always ends up the same way, with his therapist crawling into his lap.
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“It wasn’t like that,” Buck tries. It sounds weak.
“You went there for sex?” Eddie turns to glance at him, eyes raised questionably.
“No, of course not,” Buck shakes his head.
“Then it was wrong,” Eddie repeats. He dips his head, forces Buck to look at him. “How many times, Evan?”
(Post Lawsuit AU/Missing scene post grocery store)
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14 Feb 2026
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Tightening his grip on Buck's face enough to make him hiss in pain, the man's nails dig crescent moons into his pale skin. "Pretty things are always so much more beautiful when they're broken," he drawls after a moment of just staring into his eyes.
He pulls away, taking a step back so he isn't nearly in his lap anymore. Buck hates how quickly he breathes out in relief at the space between them.
"And you, Evan Buckley," the man says, his grin returning, "I think you're the prettiest one yet."
(Or, post-lawsuit, before the team has the chance to forgive Buck, he goes missing.)
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13 Feb 2026
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i'm running low on serotonin (chemical imbalance got me twisting things) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 Jan 2022
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When he didn't have Eddie, Buck felt like he was crawling out of his skin.
The thing is, he sort of expected it to just go away after he made up with him.
(Or, after the lawsuit, Buck is touch starved.)
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13 Feb 2026
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12 Feb 2026
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God, he hurts. Not a physical kind of hurt. A deep, soul crushing kind of hurt. He covers it up well. But that doesn't mean it's not there. It's always there. The thoughts are always there, creeping through his mind and clawing at his heart.
Usually he can push the thoughts away. Shove them down, paste on a smile and ignore it all. But today, they're too much. He's so tired. Not the kind of tired that sleep can fix. He's so broken. He's a fucked up mess. He wants it all to stop, the pain, the hate.
He wants to die.
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11 Feb 2026
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Bobby was louder than Buck was used to and he knew this wasn’t going to end with him being big. "What I want to know is why this place is so filthy. Everywhere I look there’s evidence of you slacking off and being sloppy. What were you doing all day, huh?” With each insult Buck felt himself getting younger and younger. He knew somewhere in his adult mind that he needed to get a grip immediately and grow the fuck up, but he was already too far gone. “I bet you were sitting around texting your girl of the night, not even waiting to get off shift just like you did when you first got here. I can’t believe I went to bat for you after you slept around on the job, went to the department mandated therapist, and decided to sleep with her too during a session.”
“I’m disappointed. I expected better from you, Firefighter Buckley. I should have known I can’t trust you to do anything right after you filed that stupid goddamned lawsuit.” He spat Buck’s last name out like it was poison, too bitter to address even slightly casually. “You could’ve ruined all of our lives! You’re just a selfish! Fucking! Brat!” Bobby enunciated the last three words and out of sheer rage and hatred, punched a hole in the wall next to him. Buck broke.
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10 Feb 2026
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And now you're my whole life (Now you're my whole world) by couch_theory_clown
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
30 Apr 2023
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Buck deals with migraines sometimes, and sometimes are worse than others. Today was one of those worse days. He goes into work, thinking that he can get through the day with no problem. There were problems...
"All things considered, he should call out of work and he knew the team would understand, but he felt like he would be letting them down if he did. Of course, he wouldn’t be and anything that happened on call wouldn’t be his fault, but that didn’t stop the thoughts that plagued his mind. Key phrases, both from his childhood and his adulthood, always found their way to the forefront and forced him to push through pain. He didn’t want to be exhausting."
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10 Feb 2026
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not undefeated (but undaunted) by YourLifeFrustratesMe (2pretty_2die)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Jul 2023
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he·ro
noun1. a person who is admired or idealized for courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities.
"a war hero"Or; Buck has an unexpected run in with someone from his past and everyone else learns a few things about Buck they never knew.
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10 Feb 2026
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"Buck, you saved two lives without the uniform. It's not a costume, it's who you are."
The Moment those words left Bobby's mouth, Buck felt the bitter taste of bile in his throat and literally wanted to strangle the man.
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- Part 49 of Fire Family Conflagration
- Part 1 of What the Hell, Bobby?
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09 Feb 2026
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Buck is finally back to work after the lawsuit and trouble follows him being man behind. Then the team comes back and find Buck beaten and bloody will the truths be exposed.
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- Part 1 of Forgive me, Let's move forward
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09 Feb 2026
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“What happened? Is he – was it a blood clot?”
Bobby was parsing through every moment he had seen Buck during their shift – had he missed Buck favouring his leg in some way? Or rubbing his chest? Coughing?
Damn it, he’d known the risk was too high, why was Buck always so stubborn?
His entire body was pulsing with fear-fuelled adrenaline as he considered all of the worst case scenarios. He was so focused on his own imaginings that he almost missed the nurse’s hurried reassurance.
“No, no, not a blood clot. Mr Buckley was brought in by paramedics after cutting himself.”
Bobby froze.
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Or, the episode tag to 3x06 Monsters, wherein Bobby makes an entirely incorrect assumption about what Buck ‘cutting himself’ means but at least it actually forces them to have a conversation and resolve some things.
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08 Feb 2026