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    When Ilya Rozanov is admitted to the psych ward after a suicide attempt, psychiatric nurse Shane Hollander expects a difficult shift. He doesn't expect to be asked to wear the Orthodox cross around Ilya's neck, to hold the last piece of a man falling apart. He certainly doesn't expect to say yes.

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    You will never look at Ilya's necklace the same way again.

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    24 Aug 2026

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    November, 2016: Shane goes back to the hotel after the tuna melt disaster and dreams about Ilya.
    Shane goes home after a date with Rose and dreams about Ilya.
    Shane learns the Russian word for love and dreams about Ilya.

    November, 1996: Ilya meets his imaginary friend for the first time, but maybe not the last.

    The longest two weeks in Ilya's life are the shortest twenty years in Shane's.

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    24 Aug 2026

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    Ilya's life changes majorly when he unexpectedly presents as omega during a game. The non-con is minimally described, I just wanted to be safe.

    Edited to add that there will be some past non-con that is described, but it will be notated so that it can be skipped.

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    22 Aug 2026

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    This is a repost.
    Shane Hollander is an extremely wealthy Alpha who's trying to find an Omega and settle down.

    Ilya Rozanov is an Omega just trying to survive.

    When the two are matched, Shane is excited to finally have a family to care for.

    Ilya just hopes he can be good enough to keep him and Luca safe.

    Featuring:
    Alpha!Shane
    Omega!Ilya
    Omega!Luca Haas (Ilya's biological son in this)
    So much angst guys

    All the bad tags (abuse, rape, etc) are from Ilya's life before Canada and before Shane

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    22 Aug 2026

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    Presumed beta Ilya Rozanov unexpectedly goes into his first heat at age seventeen, forcing him into a life of hiding in order to be able to play the sport he’d built his life around; the sport that could be his ticket out of Russia and away from his family that hates him. When he meets the Canadian draft favorite, beta Shane Hollander, Ilya assumes that the only obstacles this Hollander guy will be able to throw at him will be dealt with on the ice. But the two rivals find themselves inexplicably drawn to one another, both on and off the ice, entering into a dangerous game of attraction and secrets that neither of them ever expected to play, and one that neither will ever be able to forfeit.

    TW: suicidal thoughts/ideation

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    22 Aug 2026

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    Both of Anya’s humans were looking down at her now, with something warm and fond in their faces. It made her wiggle in Papa’s lap.

    “Our little protector,” Papa cooed, scratching her face with his hands in the way that made her melt. “What would we do without you?”

    Anya let her tail thump against the seat, leaning further into Papa’s scratches.

    Or,
    Five times Anya worked to keep her pack safe, and one time they did it in return.

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    20 Aug 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 75

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    Ilya Rozanov is a wonder, and the scoreboard reflects it. Poor Joe doesn’t even make it to the podium, but Ilya does. Shane watches him beaming, he relishes in the music and the applause, carefree and open and young.

    There’s the rub. The kid is barely twenty-four, an infant compared to Shane’s thirty-two. Even if Shane might not look it, he feels it— shame, like he should be averting his gaze, like the heat in his belly when their eyes connect is entirely inappropriate and needs to stop.

    Shane sticks around at the rink after the program finishes.

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    It's the 2026 Milan-Cortina Winter Olympics. Shane Hollander is the closeted golden boy captain of the Canadian National Men's Hockey team and Ilya Rozanov is a boisterous figure skating phenom. When their paths unexpectedly cross, sparks fly, and they're quickly carried away into a whirlwind romance with an expiration date. It also doesn't help that Ilya is eight years his junior.

    Love comes at inopportune moments, and maybe only once every four years, unless you're brave enough to play for keeps.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

    Or,
    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was starting over. His mother was long dead, his father had finally passed, and his brother didn’t want him around anymore. Moscow was nothing but dead bodies and fading memories and scars that just wouldn’t heal.
    Enter Shane Hollander.
    *Laceration, from Ilya’s POV

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    13 Aug 2026

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    He was playing the game of trying to imagine what the headlines would say.

    Shane Hollander V. Tyler Bratchen In Shocking Fist Fight!

    Has Hollander finally lost his cool? Read more.

    Tempers fly in downtown Montreal between these two NHL players 👀

    He’d managed to dodge scandals for years because he just…didn’t do anything scandalous. Aside from being in love with Ilya Rozanov, which he supposed was ironic. His first negative public debacle, all because one idiot couldn’t keep Ilya’s name out of his mouth. Funny how things worked now.

    Or: a measure of Shane’s devotion, seen through a very public, very messy bar brawl.

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    10 Aug 2026

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    So, I'm trying something a little different with this new installment in the series, and I know it won't be everyone's cup of tea.

    As much as I adore M/M, I've always wanted to throw my hat into the very small pool of Female!Shane/Male!Ilya stories. I've also been itching to write the actor!Shane trope for quite some time, so I finally decided to combine the two.

    Another reason I wanted to write this fic is that, while I absolutely love exploring Shane's Japanese heritage, I realized I've been neglecting Ilya's Russian heritage throughout this series. I wanted to give that side of him more attention here and explore it in a way I haven't before.

    I really hope you'll give it a chance, and if you do, I'd love to hear what you think. I hope you enjoy it! ❤️

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    09 Aug 2026

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    “So what’s the plan?” Yuna asked as the four of them set up the air mattresses, putting fresh sheets on all of them and a whole horde of pillows. Old Scooby-Doo episodes were playing on the tv. “How are you going to get Roza— Ilya back?”
    “He’s gonna show up to All-Stars looking like a motherfuckin’ snack,” Rose said with a grin as she flopped next to Shane, wearing a pair of his flannel pajama pants and a t-shirt from Juniors.
    David snorted a little, shaking his head in amusement. “I think maybe… maybe the real question we should be asking, Shane… is are you willing to leave the Metros for him?”
    Shane didn’t even have to think. “Yes.”

    Shane Hollander decides to stop being afraid with the help of his new best friend, Rose Landry. He also decides if he's going to ask Ilya to be with him, to give up Russia, then he can't also ask him to give up his team. He decides to reconnect with Ilya at All-Stars, not knowing that Ilya won't be there because his father, brother, and sister-in-law have died, leaving him as guardian of his niece. Oh, well. He'll just say hi to him when he gets to his first Boston Raiders practice.

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    06 Aug 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 70

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    Years later, Shane Hollander will remember everything.

    The stars reflected on black water.

    The sound of waves against the rocks.

    The boy standing alone at the end of the pier.

    And the first thing he ever said to him:

    You know, I thought you were going to jump.

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    Shane meets Ilya at an abandoned lighthouse during freshman year, and nothing will ever be the same again.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    The Centaurs’ plane crashes and Ilya is left with serious injuries. As his medical proxy, Shane has to make a life-altering decision for Ilya while he’s in surgery. Their relationship might not survive it.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander has made all the right decisions. Putting hockey above everything, abstaining from cake and lemonade, and never kissing boys, especially Russian boys with crooked grins who always saw right through him. This restraint has secured Shane a legacy as one of the greatest players of all time. Everything he ever wanted, and somehow never enough.

    Ilya Rozanov is long dead, lost to fire and water in a plane crash half a century ago. But at the end of his carefully controlled life, Shane can’t stop dreaming about him, haunted by echoes of what might have been.

    Given a chance to change the past, Shane has to decide what really matters: hockey, or the only bad decision he was ever tempted to make.

    or: fate and Irina Rozanov have unexpectedly romantic sensibilities, and some lovers (no, Ilya that’s gross) are meant to find each other in every universe.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane decided that to get over Rozanov, he needed to get under someone new. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

    After Vegas, Ilya decided that getting over Hollander was a useless task, and saying fuck it and jumping all in was the way to go. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

     

    NOTE: None of the Rape/Non-Con is between Shane & Ilya

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    27 Jul 2026

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    Shane pulls open a drawer where he keeps a pen and a note pad, and quickly pulls it out to start writing. Ilya won’t tell him what is wrong, but he at least has a few ideas.

    1. Ilya misses Boston. He lived there for years, had established a life there with friends. More of a clubbing and party scene than Ottawa. He misses Svetlana.
    2. Ilya misses the Raiders. He moved to a bottom of the barrel team, before Ilya came along they lost more games than they won and it’s only recently that they’ve been winning anything, and even then the losses are still frequent.
    3.

    Shane stops writing. His heart hammers in his ears as he stares down at the notepad, the sad little list looking back at him.

    3. Ilya is lonely. He misses sex. He misses women.

    ________
     
    Shane notices that something is bothering Ilya. He seems miserable, and the less he talks to Shane about it, the more Shane begins to spiral, searching for a reason and ways to make it better. Turns out, he could not have been more wrong.

    Based on chapter 21 of The Long Game, instead of Ilya suggesting that Shane should sleep with other men, Shane suggests Ilya should sleep with women.

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    26 Jul 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 32

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    ​"I still can't believe you're actually my husband. Sometimes I get so scared, Ilya. I worry the man who waited for me to become brave all those years is just gone forever."

    ​Ilya Rozanov is the anchor, the wall, and the one who always leads. But after a brutal game and a barrage of trash talk, his mental walls have crumbled. Shane is tired of watching his husband disappear into a dark, self-destructive place. He’s taking control, literally and figuratively, to remind Ilya exactly who he is, what he’s earned, and how desperately he’s loved.

    It’s an intense night of surrender, designed to fuck the doubt right out of his husband’s head.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    Two years of playing together, and it still hit him every time. The casualness of it. My husband. Said out loud, in public. After years of hiding—stolen moments in hotel rooms, careful distance in public, the constant exhausting performance of just teammates, just rivals, nothing to see here—now Ilya could say it like it was nothing. Like it was easy, like it was the most natural thing in the world.

    Because it was. Finally.

    In which Ilya Hollander-Rozanov cannot shut up about his husband. (Subtitled: No one asked, Ilya. Ilya. No one asked.)

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    167,413

    26 Jul 2026

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