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    The shattering sound of plates erupted in the air like a crack of thunder and Eddie’s gaze shot up from his phone. Something was wrong. It was a hair thin trigger that had been switched the moment he caught sight of his boyfriend and the whole world could’ve stopped for all Eddie knew. Buck was staring down at his hands, breathing way too fast, and drowning in some kind of panic that only he could see.

    “Eddie?” Carla called. “Is everything all right?”

    Something must have shown on his face if she took the phone away from Christopher.

    “My hands won’t work,” Buck said so quietly.

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    Buck and Tommy haven’t even been together for two months when Buck starts thinking about ending things. He hates himself for it, a little. He can’t put his finger on why the thought crosses his mind as he lays with his head on Tommy’s lap while they watch a documentary about a Napali mountaineer’s quest to summit the 14 peaks. It might have something to do with the put upon sigh Tommy had let out before agreeing to watch it with him. Or perhaps it was the fact that his fingers didn’t end up carding through Buck’s hair until he asked him to do it.

     

    Buck knows that he could talk to someone about it. He has plenty of people who would be willing to listen but each time he goes to say something he remembers how proud they were of him when they found out about Tommy. They’re happy for him and already have so many other things to be upset about. He’s made them worry about him too many times already; it’s better if they think he’s finally okay.

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    Buck hated the unpredictability of it all—the way his brain could speed up until it felt like he was running a marathon on a treadmill no one else could see. There were days his own thoughts scared him, spiraling out of control with no brakes in sight. And then there were the tic attacks—those overwhelming episodes that left him exhausted, nauseous, and often physically ill.

    He hated it.

    Hated having ADHD. Hated having Tourette’s.

    There was no quirky upside. No magical, misunderstood genius buried under the chaos. Just exhaustion. Shame. A desperate need to feel normal for once.

    It wasn’t fun.

    It wasn’t interesting.

    It was fucking hell.
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    Evan Buckley has spent years hiding his Tourette’s from his team, from his friends, and especially from Eddie. Bobby’s the only one who knows, and Buck intends to keep it that way. He can’t risk losing what he’s finally found—family, belonging… and maybe something more with the man who’s become the center of it all. But when a severe tic attack hits the station, Buck’s secret unravels.


    Written by a girl with Tourette’s who knows what it’s like to live in fear of being too much! For Tourette's awareness month!

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    After a rough day at the station post-lawsuit, Buck decides to fall back into his 1.0 habits. Lost in his thoughts Buck doesn't notice things taking a dangerous turn until it's too late. When the 118 arrive on scene to discover Buck holding on by a thread. will they be able to save him in time? Or will they lose him forever?

    *Contains use of Roofies and implied SA. NO REAL SA scenes but just be warned.*

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    Eddie stopped dead. His hand came up instinctively, the way he used to move in combat.

    And then-

    A sound behind them.

    The door slammed shut with a bang.

    Buck spun toward the door, but Eddie was already moving—gun instinct, no weapon. He yanked at the handle. Locked. Solid. No give.

    “Shit,” Buck breathed, backing up toward the middle of the room. “This is..." he looked around once more, "this is a setup.”

    From above, there was a hiss. A faint metallic clink.

    Then came the gas.

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