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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    29 May 2026

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    So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?

    “Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.

    You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.

    After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.

    (They definitely still try, though.)

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    29 May 2026

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    In January of 2017, Ilya finds a seven-year old Shane Hollander on his doorstep.

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    29 May 2026

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    Shane decides he should let everyone believe he has a hook-up in every city, so it will no longer seem suspicious that he always disappears in Boston. While Shane is proud of himself for the ruse and for the ability to explore new places after away games, Ilya handles the new rumor with grace and dignity. Which is to say he suddenly feels the need to text and maybe even call Shane on his roadies to see if he can keep him occupied.

    Based on a Tumblr post listed below.

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    29 May 2026

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    In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.

    Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.

    Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.

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    29 May 2026

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    Shane was hurt and Ilya couldn’t be there with him. No one knew that he cared, that his boyfriend was in the hospital, not even Shane’s parents.

    OR: Yuna Hollander just wanted to grab some of Shane’s things from his apartment during his hospital stay. She didn't suspect she'd stumble across a home invasion, and that the perpetrator would be Ilya Rozanov.

    (Shane’s okay!)

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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya grins, a slow, filthy unraveling of lust spilling across his face. “Moya shlyukha, I would not be able to keep my hands off of you,” he rasps, palming his dick, grinning at the faint squelch, the wet drag of his fingers. Shane bucks into his hand, his jaw dropping open, slack with need. Ilya's whole heart aches as he watches his husband sink into pleasure, hitching whimpers escaping from his throat. “You would be the star of the room, no? Every eye would be on you, thorns in their heart for all they cannot have.”

    “You do,” Shane reminds him, as if it's needed, as if Ilya cannot feel it in each clench of his thighs, each wandering drag of his fingers, in the way his hips roll across Ilya's, involuntary, strangled whines rising from his mouth. “You always have.”

    OR: Sometimes, simply being married to Shane isn't enough. Sometimes, Ilya wants him in ways he can't explain; caught and collared and safe beneath his hand.

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    24 May 2026

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane knows it’s not a good time to have this conversation. He should wait until they’re not both tired from a stretch of tough games, until he’s not exhausted from having all the Centaurs over for the day. He should wait until he can’t feel anger simmering inside him and his shoulders aren’t tense. That’s probably why he doesn’t wait.

    “Stop trying to make me be friends with Troy Barrett.”

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    22 May 2026

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    “Ilya… What’s wrong? You can talk to me.”

    Ilya shakes his head, mouth trembling. “I— I don’t—”

    He does not know why he is feeling sad again. It should be so easy. This life is everything Ilya has ever wanted, that he honestly doubted he would ever get to experience. Yes, he knew it would not be perfect, living with Shane, that he might get sad sometimes like his mother, but he did not expect to feel hurt like this.

    And how can he explain that it hurts, let alone why? That would be so painful for Shane to hear. He might feel like he is being a bad husband if he can’t fix it, like he is failing Ilya. That would be horrible because Shane is a wonderful husband and Ilya is the failure. Shane is trying to understand him, to help, and Ilya can’t give him that because it’s not something Shane can fix.

    Ilya and Shane are married, the team is great, the sex is awesome. There are no problems. Okay, some problems.


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    21 May 2026

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    In late October, Ilya picks up some kind of freakish Canadian flu that dogs him into November.

    It is the weirdest shit. He has to duck out of practice because his nose starts bleeding twice in one week and he wakes up in a hotel in Columbus with another one that leaves stains on the pillow. On the flight back to Ottawa, Hazy drops into the seat next to Ilya midflight and asks, "This isn't, like, a cocaine thing, right?"

    Ilya laughs so hard it's probably a little rude.

    They have a plan. Ilya's body has a different plan.

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    21 May 2026

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    20 May 2026

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    Marlow: …wait, you all know??

    Carmichael: That our boy is mad in love with Hollander? Yeah we do.

    Marlow: WHAT! HOW?? I thought I was the only one who knew!!

    Connors: I was grabbing ice in a hotel hallway a couple years ago and literally watched Roz tip toe from the elevator straight into Hollander’s room…like they weren’t slick at all

    Marlow: …

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    January 2017. The Boston Raiders and the Montreal Metros are sick of their captains moping around about each other (yes, they know, they’re not stupid and their captains aren’t as subtle as they think). Fueled by a desire to fix whatever went wrong between the two, Cliff Marlow reaches out to Hayden Pike, and a plan is formed…

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    In which the Boston team ft. Hayden Pike join forces to get their captains back together, are inspired by that one webcam confession scene in High School Musical, and luckily Ilya Rozanov doesn’t fumble the opportunity the way Troy Bolton did.

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    20 May 2026

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    Bood: And what would this person need to get Roz to settle down?
    Roz: must be most beautiful person you have ever seen
    Roz: very funny but does not know they are funny
    Roz: and suck dick like their life depends on it

    Or: The Centaurs know that Roz is sad, and probably a little lonely. So they do their best to set him up with someone who matches his specific list of requirements. What they don't know is that their captain has already found that person.

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    19 May 2026

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    19 May 2026

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    Ilya sits down carefully and takes Shane’s hand. “I am going to ask you something, and I want you to try not to freak out, okay? Take a breath, think about it.”
    That sounds… serious.
    “The Centaurs are having a barbeque,” Ilya says. “I would like to go, and I would like you to come with me.”

    Shane meets the Centaurs. As Ilya's close personal friend slash charity partner from Canada.

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    18 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    15 May 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    11 May 2026

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    Ever since Shane Hollander joined the Centaurs, the team has noticed a difference in their captain.

    Rozy has always been an affectionate, hands-on guy who loves to rile people up. But with Hollander, he’s the worst they’ve ever seen. Always touching him, making suggestive comments.

    Pointy’s mom works in Human Resources, and he’s pretty sure this is a case of workplace bullying. Hazy thinks Ilya has a crush and can’t take a hint. Bood just wants his team to get back to normal.

    Or, in an AU where Hollanov never gets outed, 5 times a Centaur tries to shut down Ilya’s flirting and 1 time a Centaur lets it happen.

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    10 May 2026

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    Immediately following the events of Episode 6, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov return to the cottage and spend the next number of days talking, fucking, and sharing secrets about their relationship the other person doesn't know.

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    110,900

    06 May 2026

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