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    Ilya never made it to the cottage.

    Ilya Rozanov spent nine years in exile, convincing himself that disappearing was an act of protection. But when he returns to the NHL and signs with the Ottawa Centaurs, the team led by Shane Hollander, his former rival and secret love, he learns that distance has changed nothing. Their bodies still remembers. The air between them still crackles.

    Shane Hollander has built a life of careful normalcy: a captain's role, a dog named Anya, the performance of a man who doesn't need anything from anyone. But Ilya's return unmakes all of it in a single moment of eye contact.

    As proximity forces them closer to the truth they've been avoiding, Ilya and Shane has to finally confront the question that has haunted them both for years: Was the silence ever protection, or only destruction in disguise?

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    09 Aug 2026

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    Ilya has two problems.

    The first is that his best friend is freshly single and needs to get laid. The second is that Ilya is having some...weird feelings about it.

    These are completely platonic and heterosexual concerns for his friend, of course.

    (or a college au featuring shane and ilya as best friends, and shane as ilya's bisexual awakening)

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    03 Aug 2026

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    🌹"No questions. No feelings. Just because we want to."🌹

    Shane Hollander is a PhD student who knows how to stay invisible.
    Ilya Rozanov is Montreal’s most arrogant hockey star—brilliant, reckless, and incapable of following rules he didn't make himself.

    It should be easy to walk away.

    Instead, it becomes something quiet and hidden—late nights, closed doors, and a version of Ilya no one else gets to see. Shane carries his secrets inked beneath the roses winding across his skin, a constant reminder that some things survive only as long as they remain sub rosa.

    Ilya doesn’t do feelings.
    Shane was never meant for something like this.

    But he stays. And he falls anyway, caught between stolen moments and borrowed time.

    And when it finally falls apart, Ilya might realize too late what it means when there’s nothing left to hold onto—and that this time, love might not be enough to bring Shane back.

    (fake dating • secrecy • loving someone who was never going to choose you • happy ending, I promise 💔➡️❤️ • 🔥🔥🔥)

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    30 Jul 2026

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    What was supposed to be a hookup turns into Shane’s worst nightmare when he encounters an insane alpha.

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    28 Jul 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    "You sure about this?” Pike asked as Ilya made it to the door.

    The scent was so strong here it felt like Ilya was walking through a cloud of aerosolized candy. It felt sticky on his skin, in his hair. Ilya could feel the warm flush on the tops of his ears, across his cheeks. He blinked a few times, letting the beta’s words sink in. “Yes, fine,” he growled back.

    Thankfully, it didn’t seem like Pike was affected at all, thanks to his scent-blind beta nose. “So… there’s no easy way to say this,” the man said nervously. “The guys totally fucked up.” He handed over a plain black wallet.

    Ilya opened it, found the Boston College ID card and pulled it out. A handsome Asian boy looked back at him. He had short black hair, warm golden skin, and dark eyes. There was a shadow stretched across his cheeks, something Ilya couldn’t quite make out in the tiny picture. Shane Hollander, the card read. Sophmore. 

    “How the hell do they make this mistake?” Ilya half-shouted. He snarled again, fought against it, got his face under control. “Fuck.” 

    “Yeah,” Pike agreed. “Fuck.”

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    Sometimes the first step in finding true love is to accidentally kidnap the wrong guy.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    Freshly retired, Shane Hollander thinks the hard part is over. No more roaring crowds. No more ice. Just real life, and the one thing he’s wanted for years: a family. He and his husband are past “someday.” It’s supposed to be now. Shane does everything right. Vitamins. Timing. Patience. Hope. And still the tests come back negative, each one taking a little more out of him. So Shane finds the best fertility doctor in Canada, the one who specializes in athletes, and shows up alone anyway.

    Paper gown. Bare knees. A heartbeat he can’t quite steady. He tells himself it’s just an appointment. Then the door opens, and he comes face to face with Doctor Rozanov.

    And Shane’s world tilts off its axis.

    If Doctor Rozanov can help give Shane the baby he’s been wanting, what happens when Ilya starts offering everything else Shane didn’t know he was starving for?

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    10 Jul 2026

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    mar·ces·cence /mɑːrˈsɛs.əns/ noun
    The phenomenon where a plant retains its dead, withered leaves through the winter instead of dropping them in autumn. The state of un-shed foliage losing its colour, drying out, and breaking apart under harsh elements while remaining rigidly attached to the branch.

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    No one can know Shane's an omega, and no one can know he's slowly falling apart. So Shane puts his gear on, locks his trembling knees, and steps back onto the ice.

    His mate doesn’t want him. His mate doesn’t want him. Ilya doesn’t want him.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    A sequel to A Slow and Certain Charm, with each chapter showing a snapshot from each of the eighteen years between the ending of that story and its epilogue. Mind the tags!!! Please, mind the tags.

    Shane and Ilya are married, and navigating the difficult decisions, compromises and challenges that come with being ex-porn stars who still kinda want to be porn stars. Between Ilya's depression, their children growing up too fast, and unreliable birth control, life has gotten a little more complicated than they anticipated wedded bliss would be.

    Posting will be weekly on a Sunday.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    In Vegas, after the MLH awards, Shane asks to go bare and Ilya goes along with it. Afterwards, Shane, who had realized how he felt about Ilya during those 6 months of radio silence, tries to tell Ilya. Ilya, scared and caught off guard, breaks Shane's heart and tells him to leave.

    A month later, Shane finds out he's pregnant. He decides to keep it. He tells the Voyageurs. It goes how you'd expect. They drop him. But he has his baby. While he focuses on keeping his body healthy for the baby, Yuna focuses on finding a team that will take him and give him what he wants for the end of the pregnancy. Only one team will - The Boston Bears.

    Things are looking up for Shane. Until he loses everything...again. His world falls apart in the span of a few hours. Again. His mind can't take it and he breaks.

    A little over a year after Ilya broke Shane's heart, Shane starts a new season as a newly minted Boston Bear. Will he be able to play with the man that broke his heart and act like nothing happened? Will Ilya?

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander is 28, an omega, and ready to settle down.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov, also 28, an alpha, and seemingly allergic to settling down.

    What could possibly go wrong?

    *Read the tags!*

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the sweet, loyal, quiet househusband omega. His beta husband can't get him pregnant, so he turns to a porn star for help. He discovers he likes a bit of real domination, especially on camera. Over time, their casual arrangement becomes more and more intimate, until they can't deny it any longer ...

    The smut is a vehicle for feels.

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    Fic complete!

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    30 May 2026

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    “Shane.”

    “Don’t. Just don’t, please?” He finally looks up at the mirror to see Ilya standing behind him through the reflection.

    He steps a little closer and he can feel the heat of him on his back. He feels the tension through his body slip away as Ilya’s body heat and smell surround him.

    “Did he do that to you?” He finally asks after a moment of silence.

    -

    Shane loved his simple and domesticated life as an omega, or so he thought. But his husband’s constant work trips had him feeling more lonely than he cared to admit to anyone. What happens when he meets an alpha who makes him feel things his over controlling husband/alpha has never made him feel? Now he has to navigate these confusing feelings for someone who isn't his mate.


    Or: Omega Shane meets Alpha Ilya, except Shane is married. But Ilya is in love and is determined to save him.

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    28 May 2026

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    Shane let out a put-upon sigh and stepped into Dr. Terry's office, closing the door behind him. “So, I was really nauseous this morning. Threw up a little. And Ilya is making me come talk to you about it.”

    Terry quirked an eyebrow at him. “Husband Ilya or Captain Rozanov?”

    “Both.”

    “Oof.” Terry gestured at him to take a seat. “You sure you’re not dying, bud?"

    (formerly titled: at the top of the mohs scale)

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    23 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is bitten by Dallas Kent on the ice.

    He doesn’t quite hit the mating mark. Not entirely. But the action is enough to start a revolution of the hockey league, where outdated laws about alphas and omegas in sports are questioned by the public.

    Shane’s just trying to recover, having never wanted to be the centre of attention in a situation like this.

    And Ilya, in between supporting his partner and captaining the ship of the proposed “Equitable Treatment Act” to protect omegas in sports, is out for Dallas’ blood.

    Fic is exclusive AO3 but also shared on my Tumblr, both under the same name! Title is from the Halestorm song of the same name. Additional tags and trigger warnings to be included at the beginning of each chapter, when needed 🖤

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    17 May 2026

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    It was one time.

    Statistically, condoms had a 98% success rate when used properly. That meant that the condom packet had to have been perfectly sealed, the latex itself had to have no tears or degradation in the material, and it had to be worn as directed.

    So why?

    Why did it feel like the universe was saying fuck you in big bold letters and giving him double birds at the same time?

    So why did the blue lines and the pregnant on the two tests sound so fucking fake?

    Or: Where Shane finds out he's pregnant after their first time together in 2013 despite wearing protection, because the universe loves to fuck with him.

    Set in Omegaverse. Tags will be updated as story progresses.

    (Last Updated: July 21st)

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    27 Apr 2026

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    There’s what feels like a million alpha scents oozing out from the cracks of the ornate double doors he’s paused in front of. Logically he knows it’s just a hundred. A hundred alphas and their beta chaperones. A hundred alphas carefully vetted by his mom even though omega matching balls are sixty years out of date. They’d whipped this one up special, just for him.

    Because he’s Shane Hollander.

    He’s got two Stanley Cups and he’s the face of so many different brands that had wanted to show they were all about the ‘modern omega’. Shane sure as fucking hell hadn’t felt like a modern omega when Crowell had unearthed an archaic rule from the depths of the league handbooks.

    Omegas must be mated by the age of 25 to be eligible to continue to play.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent years building a quiet, careful life for himself and his daughter. He just focuses on work, parenting, and keeping Yuki safe in a world that has not always been kind to omegas like himself. Everything changes the moment Yuki slips away from him at a crowded public event and is found in the arms of star hockey player Ilya Rozanov, who handles her with a gentleness that leaves Shane unexpectedly unsteady.

    What should have been a brief, awkward encounter becomes something far more complicated. Yuki adores Ilya on sight, and Ilya keeps showing up, offering small kindnesses, sending messages that turn into late-night conversations, and slipping into Shane's life with a warmth that feels dangerously easy.

    Shane, who promised himself he would never rely on a stranger, let alone an alpha, finds himself drawn to the one man he should not want.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    “Did I do something wrong?”

    “No. No, Hollander,” Ilya coughed, eyes flitting around the room. “Is just– Is too much.”

    “This is… too much?” Shane repeated slowly, incredulously. “We see each other maybe once a month. Less, even.”

    “No. Is not that– You are just,” Ilya swore under his breath in Russian. His accent was getting thicker, the words clunkier, in the way it always got stronger when he was frustrated or tired. Shane hated himself for recognizing it. “...too much.”

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    In the Heated Rivalry book, Ilya intends to break things off with Shane the night of the All-Star Game, but then Shane gets hurt. What if Shane never gets injured by Marlow, and Ilya really does break things off?

    (Basically, a shit ton of angst and Shane Hollander learning to love himself. There will be a happy ending!)

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    31 Mar 2026

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    “No, you’re trying to push me away, like Sochi and Vegas but this time I’m not going to let you. I know I’m not just a quick fuck and I know you feel this too.”

    “I always knew you’d be the type to get attached. But this arrangement isn’t worth it, not when I can find a girl that’s just as easy as you, and will not bore me to death, Hollander.”

    Or: Cliff doesn't injure Shane, and Ilya breaks up with him (and breaks his heart) only to realize that he can't not love Shane. But this time, when he tries to get Shane back, Shane won't make it easy. And neither will the handsome defenseman on Shane's new team, who is tasked with protecting their star center (and his heart). Oh, and did I mention he's also gay...and Canadian... and very much in love with Shane Hollander.

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    29 Mar 2026

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