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    Cliff slowly eases the phone out of Ilya's sleeping hand. He answers, putting the call on loudspeaker.
    'Rozanov. Thank fuck. I know you probably don't want to hear from me. But I was just fucking mugged. I don't know where the fuck I am. And my phone is going to die. Can you-'
    'Is that Shane fucking Hollander?!' Brad yells.
    There's a long pause before Shane speaks again. 'I'm in fucking hell.'

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    With Ilya indisposed, the Raiders rescue Shane from a terrible night in Boston.

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    23 Aug 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 50

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    21 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 65

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    Hi, is this Cliff Marleau ?
    It's Luca Haas, Roz gave me his old phone
    Sorry I thought he told you 😅

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    Texting fic where Cliff start texting Luca on accident thinking it's Ilya

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    20 Aug 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 62

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    Luca Haas is barely holding it together.
    His ex won’t stop circling. The press is sniffing around his private life. And one wrong move could cost him everything he’s worked for.
    As if that isn’t enough, the anonymous man he’s been texting; flirting with, confessing to and craving turns out to be someone he sees almost every day.
    Someone far too close. Someone far too dangerous.
    Now Luca has to decide what he’s willing to lose: his reputation, his career, or the only person who’s ever made him feel understood.

    -Or, the unofficial Luca Haas book because I love that man so much.

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    20 Aug 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 84

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    After Shane Hollander is signed to the Ottawa Centaurs, the team learns that part of the deal involved trading Luca Haas to Boston.
    Luca is distraught having to uproot his life and move to another country. To ease the transition, Ilya arranges for Luca to stay with Cliff Marleau while he gets settled.

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    20 Aug 2026

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    For the first time, in a long time, the Ottawa Centaurs are playing well. Luca Haas knows he has eyes on him, every article he reads, every podcast he listens to, he's mentioned when they talk about rookies to keep an eye on. When he doesn't have cameras shoved in his face, he has twenty missed texts from his sister, five unlistened voicemails from his father, and hospital bills from his mother's private care piling up in his inbox.

    Enter "hockeyfan7" a stranger who's supposed to be a one-off sexting session over Grindr. Only he doesn't leave and he might be less of a stranger than Luca wants to admit.

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    20 Aug 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 25

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    For as long as he could remember, Cliff Marlow's life had been about provision. Taking care of his sisters, his mom, his girlfriends, his teammates. And there was no one to blame for it but himself. It felt good to take care of people, but he'd done so at the expense of himself for so long. "Yes" was probably the most abused word in his vocabulary. He longed to seize control, to do something selfish for once in his life. And fucking Luca Haas? That was about as selfish as he could get.

    Luca Haas' life was defined by the idea of being "almost, but not quite". Almost gay, but not quite. Almost a man, but not quite. Almost in love, but never quite brave enough to succumb. He didn't trust anyone in his life, least of all himself. How could he when he was so capricious? He longed to let someone else take the reins. To let him be quiet. To let him become just a body instead of any of his "almosts". And Cliff Marlow... Somehow he knew how to make him feel like just a body.

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    20 Aug 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 18

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    20 Aug 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 94

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    Cliff Marleau travels to Ottawa to support his best friend when the FanMail video outs them to the world. He is not expecting meeting Ottawa's Rookie, Luca Haas. He is not expecting finding Luca attractive. He is definitely not expecting falling for him.

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    20 Aug 2026

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    “Why the fuck are you in my cell?” he asked with a deep accented voice that hit Shane right in his groin.

    “Uh I just got here. This is my cell too.” Shane said, trying not to be too intimidated.

    The man raised himself up to his full height and looked down at Shane, “Well I do not share.” he said, his voice rough in a way that made Shane shiver. Suddenly the man burst out laughing and Shane just felt confused.

    “I am fucking with you. I knew you were coming today and wanted to be first to see you. I am Ilya Rozanov.” the man, Ilya Rozanov apparently, said. Shane laughed awkwardly before saying,

    “I’m Shane. Hollander. Your cellmate I guess.”

    Or Shane Hollander goes to prison and his cellmate Ilya Rozanov, son to a Russian crime boss in prison for murder, claims him within his first hour there

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    19 Aug 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 28

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    Cliff had done some stupid things in his life. There was the time when he thought trying to ride a unicycle while drunk was an excellent idea, or when he tried to lure in a stray cat that turned out to be a bobcat. But following Ilya to Ottawa might be the stupidest thing he’s ever done.

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    Cliff Marlow follows Ilya to Ottawa, and things develop in ways no one, least of all Cliff, could have expected. Especially concerning one Luca Haas.

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    19 Aug 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 6

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    Every year, with every new set of Rookies that came up, there was a rivalry. Rozanov and Hollander were set to be no different.
    But hockey wasn't the game it used to be. Since Scott Hunter had come out, a whole new world of opportunities lay at the Leagues' disposal.
    People love hockey. People love the rivalry. But what if they could make it seem like there was something else? Like, two of the Rookies were falling for each other? Sex does sell, after all.

    **
    “Spotlight is on you.” Rozanov shrugged. “Is on me. Might as well use it.”

    “To get ourselves even more fame and money?” Shane wrinkled his nose. He already had more than he needed.

    “Yes. And also, to be good. I think of young boys in countries like mine, what it means if they see me- us- this story.”

    “But it’s not real.” Shane frowned.

    “It could be.” Rozanov said simply. Shane wasn’t sure if he meant that there could be two hockey players in love, or that it could be them someday. He desperately wanted to know. He didn’t ask.

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    19 Aug 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 11

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    "What's your name?" a stranger asked Ilya Rozanov as he found himself hiding away at the opening gala of the World Juniors.

    Ilya Grigoryevich Rozanov, he could see it written. Son of Irina and Grigori Rozanov, brother of Andrei, Captain of Team Russia. God he was tired of his own name. How many times had he said it tonight? How many people had said it for him? Maybe for once, he didn't have to be.

    "Lily," he declared into the night with a smirk.

    The man's forehead crinkled with annoyance, it was…something. He only waved a hand towards him to ask the same question. Ilya watched as his face bled into thought, asking the ground a question.

    "Jane," he answered, and Ilya suddenly found out he was very pretty when he smiled.

    // Ilya and Shane spend a night together without knowing who each other are, a year before they become Hollander and Rozanov.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Shortly before the playoffs start in what will be Ilya's last season in Boston, he makes a drunk confession to Cliff that he's in love with Jane...who is a man. Unbeknownst to him, it was captured in the background of a video his teammate posted to social media. Chaos ensues.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander was drafted eighth to the Ottawa Centaurs, joining Ilya Rozanov, the first overall pick from the year previous.

    As teammates, they become close friends as they try to rebuild the failing team.

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    AU where Shane comes out before starting in the NHL and Ilya never has his awakening with Sasha. Ilya is also a year older than Shane, just so the plot makes sense.

    This is based on this fic by byleringidiot! I really liked the premise so I wanted to have my own go at it!

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane, who he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    18 Aug 2026

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    15 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander arrives in Vegas with a question he hasn’t spoken out loud.

    It isn’t complicated, exactly. It’s just the kind of question that requires honesty he isn’t sure he’s ready for - about what he and Ilya Rozanov have been doing for the past few years, about what six months of silence after Sochi actually meant, and about whether any of it is worth staying close to or whether he finally needs to go.

    He gets his answer in a locked bathroom at the NHL Awards.

    Ilya spends the summer convinced that Shane is fine. Upset? Yes. Angry? Definitely. But Shane always felt things fiercely despite what everyone said about him when he had his back turned. He’d calm down over the summer and then he’d be there like he always had been. He fills the silence with discipline and routine and the comfortable certainty that later is still available to him.

    He’s wrong.

    By the time Ilya understands what he actually lost, Shane is already gone; and Ilya is left trying to find a way back to someone who closed the door long before Ilya had ever thought to just walk through it.

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    14 Aug 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 29

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    Ilya is an NHL scout, moved from Russia to Canada two years ago.

    Shane Hollander is McGill's hockey team's poster boy.

    Hotel rooms get boring.

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    14 Aug 2026

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    “Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-

    He needs to go.

    “I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.

    It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.

    “No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.

    It wheezes.

    (how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)

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    13 Aug 2026

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