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Years on from Bandee, part of him was still scared of how Ryan made him feel. The things he made him want. Maybe he'd never be able to let go of that fear entirely, ruined by what they'd been through in more ways than a murderous shadow. But tonight there was an ache inside of him like a bruise and Naim needed desperately for it to be pressed.
Naim and Ryan go to a friend's birthday, and Naim lets himself want without fear.
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- Part 2 of i want it to look like you
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03 Sep 2026
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naim walkin ryan like a dawg 😛
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31 Aug 2026
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Jeremy blinks at him, and then at the road. He stops at the light in front of their apartment, and puts on his blinker. “That’s,” he starts, a little dazedly, “twice my weight.”
It’s not what he means to say. What he means to say is: that’s awesome. That’s great. But the damage is done. There is a blush rising steadily to his face, his ears, and a slow and pleased smile tugging at Jean’s mouth.
“I know,” Jean says.
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29 Aug 2026
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Ryan had only been gone for a week. It should’ve been survivable, but Naim felt sick every time he went to school, sicker every time he texted Ryan but couldn’t see him or touch him. A week felt like a chasm he couldn’t cross, something dark looming over his head.
or: Ryanaim are down bad, and Naim has a breakdown when Ryan goes on holiday for a week.
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- Part 8 of leviticus healings
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26 Aug 2026
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Sex with Jeremy is nice. Which is beyond relief. Honestly, Jean's so intensely focused on the notion that he is succeeding at sex with Jeremy Knox that he doesn't particularly have room for much else in his brain, but nice.
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12 Aug 2026
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He sips his coffee, slowly coming to his senses, and stares at Jeremy’s back. It takes a couple of minutes of thorough inspection when something in Jean’s mind clicks, and he stills completely with the cup brought halfway to his lips.
The shirt Jeremy is wearing seems too loose. It doesn’t hug his back as his shirts usually do, and Jean can’t see the fabric fighting for its life between his shoulder blades. It isn’t snug enough around his sides. The sleeves are too long. Jean’s gaze slips further down, to the hem of the shirt. It hangs too low. It’s plain and white and looks a bit too worn out to be new.
Which can only mean one thing.
Or: Jean Moreau unexpectedly loves to see his closest people wearing his clothes (and has a heart attack when it's Jeremy).
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12 Aug 2026
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if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more by scepterofstardust
Fandoms: Leviticus (Movie 2026)
10 Jul 2026
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Naim goes mute again after they leave Bandee. He tries to make amends with Ryan without his voice.
Alternatively: Ryan represses his feelings and Naim doesn't want to watch him hurt
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- Part 1 of leviticus healings
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10 Aug 2026
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Ryan’s hands began to shake against his skin, and he made a noise at the back of his throat, like a frightened dog. It was then that Naim realized his mistake. He’d assumed Ryan didn’t want to touch him, but that wasn’t it. He was afraid to.
Or: Ryan's OCD flares up and Naim tries to help him through his fear of hurting Naim
title from family tree (intro) by ethel cain
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- Part 7 of leviticus healings
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10 Aug 2026
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Ryan has a theory and he’s eager to test it. Four experiments and one confirmation later, he also finds out something new about himself.
Or: a slightly different(?) kind of 5+1 fic
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09 Aug 2026
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you love it, you hate it (you think about me naked) by theletter__a
Fandoms: Leviticus (Movie 2026)
07 Aug 2026
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On the bus, that day they ran away, they both naively thought their lives would change. That the mere act of moving house would bestow upon the boys a knowledge of adulthood that felt just out of reach.
Unsurprisingly, it didn’t.
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Ryanaim learning how to live with each other alongside the thing that looks like them.
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08 Aug 2026
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With a violent jerk as if he'd been struck, Jean turned to hide his face in Jeremy's right palm, breathing in the lingering smell of the cocoa scented lotion he'd rubbed on before bed.
Jeremy pet at his hair with his free hand. "Baby, baby, baby," he chimed, his voice so sweet and soothing that Jean's heart clenched longingly in his chest. "It's okay, just breathe. Just breathe."
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jean wakes after a nightmare
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06 Aug 2026
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“It scares me, a little,” Naim said suddenly, soft as a confession.
Ryan frowned. Cigarettes forgotten, he shifted onto his side so he could look at Naim properly, but he didn’t speak. Not yet—he knew from the way Naim was frowning that he was trying to untangle the chaos in his brain.
“Now that we’ve gotten this far, it makes me… Hope.”
“... For more?”
Naim couldn’t meet his eyes, but Ryan didn’t push it.
“... Yeah.”
He didn’t think he could handle it if he met Naim’s eyes right now, either.
(A long conversation after sex, four years after the boys left that shithole of a town behind.)
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- Part 2 of gardenias on the tile
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05 Aug 2026
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Ruffled, Naim stands taller. "What'd you mean 'a guy like me'?"
Those ice blue irises dip, lazily dragging down to the front of his converse before taking the same path back up again. When they meet Naim's eyes again, there is a glint in them that makes his stomach flip.
A smirk overtakes the blond's expression. "Dunno. That's what I'm curious about."
The night begins as just another party that Naim is being dragged along to. However, that changes the moment that Ryan Whelan notices him through the crowd.
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30 Jul 2026
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ryanaim post canon typa fic but its kinda just one shots Hi
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29 Jul 2026
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29 Jul 2026
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Naim huffed a little on the other side. “Just come around to my room when you get here. And drop your bike in the bush. My mum will fucking kill you if she sees it.”
Ryan let out a dry little laugh into his phone. “Think she’d kill me in general.”
“When the hell are you gonna leave?”
He paused for a moment. There was a rush in his chest, almost like the moment before you got too high and all you could feel was bliss. Naim missed him. No matter what his sharp little tongue said, he could hear it in his voice.
“Do you really need me that bad?”
“I’m hanging up.”or, Ryan and Naim before everything falls apart.
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- Part 2 of mary's leviticus fics
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27 Jul 2026
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“It’s okay,” Naim said. There was still blood seeping from his mouth.
“No.” Ryan shook his head. He didn’t know where to touch Naim, didn’t know if he trusted himself to. Carefully he reached for his wrist, the closest thing, and pulled his hand from where it clenched white around the railing. “No, fuck. Come here—”
Ryan could see the ragged skin of the gash beneath Naim’s chin, the blood still dripping freely onto his collarbones. A deep wine-purple was blooming at his brow. And Ryan had done this, the real Ryan.
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In a moment of panic, Ryan mistakes Naim for the Entity.
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23 Jul 2026
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Ryan sighed - there was the naim-stop-smoking sigh that he remembered before - and brought the washcloth up to tenderly dab at the already crusted blood on his cheekbone. “And lost your pretty privilege- maybe the few brain cells left in there too. Entertain me. Who’s the president?”
Naim scoffed against the washcloth. “Prime minister, dickhead. You watch too much American shit.”
Ryan pressed firmer into his cheek, sending fresh waves of pain through Naim’s aching head. He groaned, attempting weakly to push Ryan’s unrelenting hand off. “What’s his fucking name- Guy who shit himself in the Maccas.”
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or the coffee shop au
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23 Jul 2026
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The first time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Ryan was bleeding. The second time Naim told Ryan that he loved him, it was because Naim couldn’t keep it in.
or: Neither of them can sleep after they leave Bandee, and Ryan tries to stop the guilt from eating them both alive.
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- Part 2 of leviticus healings
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23 Jul 2026
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For a good tree bringeth not forth corrupt fruit; neither doth a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
For every tree is known by his own fruit. For of thorns men do not gather figs, nor of a bramble bush gather they grapes.
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.***
this guy in youth group won’t stop staring at him
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22 Jul 2026