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    He watches the tape again over dinner. Listens to Rozanov moan inside a girl's pussy while he eats. By the time he finishes his last bite, Rozanov's inside her, her nails raking down his back, her mouth twisted open in pleasure, and Shane's hard in his pants.

    So, Shane puts his plate in the sink and goes back to his room. Starts the video over.

    ———

    A sex tape of Ilya with a girl leaks. Shane reacts normally.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Shane does not pull away, does not speak, does not kiss him again, just holds him like it is easier than letting him go, rocking them slowly back and forth on the edge of the mattress. There is a damp patch on his very nice new shirt where Ilya has failed to swallow back his tears, but he is cradling Ilya to him, anyway, like it doesn’t matter. Like it costs him nothing to do it.
    Nobody has touched Ilya this way in a very, very long time. He had forgotten that it was possible to be handled with care—to be treated like a breakable object, instead of a broken one.

    OR: What happened in the hotel room after the Tampa Bay All-Stars Game.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Shane is in love with Matt. They're in love and it's fine. It's better than fine really, Shane loves just about everything about Matt and he loves all of Matt's friends. Except for the big tall Russian one that wont stop staring at him like he knows something Shane doesn't. Like he's waiting for Shane to snap. Like he's begging Shane to do something.

    And Shane won’t, obviously. Because Ilya is the type of man to reel you in and the leave you high and dry. Leave you looking for pieces of him in every new person that you meet, leave you looking for signs you didn't just make the whole thing up, like some wild fantasy that was born of monotony.

    Oh, and he fact he has a boyfriend who he loves. A lot. It isn't monotonous. Its love.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    13 Mar 2026

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    One third Russian, Japanese, and English, Shane Hollander arrives at the Imperial Court with one goal: restore his family's fading merchant title. He navigates Winter Palace politics with calculated precision offering counsel to nobles, infiltrating restricted kitchens, becoming indispensable.

    When handmade pryaniki catch Tsar Ilya's attention, Shane expects negotiation. Instead, Ilya sees through every defense he's built, noticing his inexperience with men. Desire crackles between them, raw and consuming. But Shane refuses to surrender, not until his family's name is restored.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    series of fics about ilya & shane discovering & engaging in dom/sub dynamics.
    should be read in chronological order, but can be read as standalones.

    warnings: references to homophobia, physical abuse and suicidal ideation,

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    27 Feb 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    18 Feb 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Yuna has let go of a lot in her life, including her own dream to play professional hockey. But that's alright; she has Shane and David and they have built a storybook legacy together. Then Ilya Rozanov gets hurt and suddenly Shane's calling her asking if they'll go pick up his archrival from the hospital.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander has a plan: 11 games left, then seventy-three days alone at the cottage to reset. No people, no stress, no suppressants. His body will fix itself.

    Except his suppressants are failing faster than he realizes. His new linemate Ilya keeps showing up—in hotel rooms, on his line, in the spaces Shane usually keeps empty. And Ilya notices things. The way Shane's scent is changing. The way he's slowing down.

    Shane counts down to the cottage like it's salvation.

    But Rozanov doesn't keep his distance. And Shane's control is slipping.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is the thorn in Shane's side. He's rude, cocky, stressfully perceptive, and his stats are the only ones better than Shane's in the whole OUA. Even worse, they play on the same team, and the only person who might beat Shane out for the C next year is Rozanov.

    Ilya and Shane are so at odds they can't even manage to complete a stupid challenge at Playoff Camp without making fools of themselves and, according to Hazy, getting cursed.

    It's frustrating and embarrassing, until it becomes clear that the curse is very very real and it becomes horrifying instead. For the next six weeks (at least) Shane is stuck by Ilya's side, unable to go more than a few feet away without unbearable pain. 

    Now, they somehow have to pull off going to class, winning the playoffs, and not killing each other, not to mention keeping their secret from their friends and teammates.

    Shane is so fucked.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a beta. And he couldn’t be more happy with his designation. It keeps things simple. No stupid alpha territorial bullshit or omega pheromones to disrupt his routine. He has more room to focus on hockey, rather than worry about silly inconvenient things like ruts or heat cycles. While his teammates have to take medical leave a few times a season and wear things like scent blockers or take suppressants, he just gets to play the sport he loves and call it a day.

    Yes, being a beta kept life simple. And he spent 24 years of his life as a simple, hockey loving beta. Until he suddenly wasn’t. And of course, because fate loved to fuck with him, he finds out in the middle of a game against fucking Boston.

    Or, a beta Shane Hollander accidentally presents as an Omega and goes into heat during a game, sending everyone in a frenzy. Thankfully, Ilya is right there with him.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Omega Shane is accidentally bitten and mated by Alpha Ilya in the showers after the CCM commercial, resulting in the end of Shane’s hockey career before it even starts. They get married because there’s no other choice, really.

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    19 Jan 2026

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    The knock at his door comes about five minutes after Shane gets home, three minutes after Shane pees on the stupid sticks, one minute after Shane looks at the fucking pink plus signs, and about thirty seconds after tears spring to his eyes.

    Shane Hollander, professional hockey player and captain of the Montreal Metros, has a bun in the fucking oven.

    Or Shane and Ilya's enemies-with-benefits arrangement has some unintended consequences.

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    05 Jan 2026

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