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    Shane and Ilya have built a full life together: illustrious careers, a solid marriage, and a carefully guarded hope for what comes next.

    An adoption fair forces them to confront the quiet grief, compromises, and unspoken fears that have shaped their journey so far.

    Their story unfolds in the tender, deeply human in-between moments, where love is steady, hope is complicated, and everything might be about to change.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Scott texts Kip that he’s bringing Shane back to the apartment. “Hey, I kind of have a big favor to ask you and I need you to be supportive about it.”
    Kip replies almost immediately, “That sounds ominous, is everything okay?”
    “I don’t know,” Scott decides to be honest, “You know how I’m shooting that commercial with Shane Hollander today?”
    “Yes…” He can practically feel Kip’s anxiety leaking into that one text.
    “Well, I think something happened to him. Something bad. I’m bringing him back to the apartment.”

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    Shane and Scott are supposed to be doing a commercial together but Scott notices that Shane’s acting… off. He finds out what happened in Vegas and forces Ilya to fix it.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

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    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    19 Feb 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are first-time foster parents to a trans eleven-year-old who just needs a safe place to land for a few days. There are big challenges ahead of them, but Shane and Ilya are naturals at the whole parenting thing. Most of the time.

    This is a story for anyone who wants to see a trans child being loved and celebrated while a particular Russian hockey player heals his inner child along the way.

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    19 Feb 2026