10 Bookmarks by beanzinwild

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    Shane and Ilya have built a full life together: illustrious careers, a solid marriage, and a carefully guarded hope for what comes next.

    An adoption fair forces them to confront the quiet grief, compromises, and unspoken fears that have shaped their journey so far.

    Their story unfolds in the tender, deeply human in-between moments, where love is steady, hope is complicated, and everything might be about to change.

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    Chapters:
    15/?
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    19 Feb 2026

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    Scott texts Kip that he’s bringing Shane back to the apartment. “Hey, I kind of have a big favor to ask you and I need you to be supportive about it.”
    Kip replies almost immediately, “That sounds ominous, is everything okay?”
    “I don’t know,” Scott decides to be honest, “You know how I’m shooting that commercial with Shane Hollander today?”
    “Yes…” He can practically feel Kip’s anxiety leaking into that one text.
    “Well, I think something happened to him. Something bad. I’m bringing him back to the apartment.”

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    Shane and Scott are supposed to be doing a commercial together but Scott notices that Shane’s acting… off. He finds out what happened in Vegas and forces Ilya to fix it.

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    3/3
    Comments:
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    3,709
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    19 Feb 2026

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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

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    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    Chapters:
    14/20
    Comments:
    2,234
    Kudos:
    6,333
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    19 Feb 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    178,255

    19 Feb 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are first-time foster parents to a trans eleven-year-old who just needs a safe place to land for a few days. There are big challenges ahead of them, but Shane and Ilya are naturals at the whole parenting thing. Most of the time.

    This is a story for anyone who wants to see a trans child being loved and celebrated while a particular Russian hockey player heals his inner child along the way.

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    40,327
    Chapters:
    19/19
    Comments:
    355
    Kudos:
    1,435
    Bookmarks:
    340
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    29,923

    19 Feb 2026

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    Male carriers are a rare breed in North America. With only .005% of the male population having the recessive gene. In Canada there are a couple hundred male pregnancies documented each year with only half of them carrying to full term.

    Shane Hollander was one of the .005%. He just didn't know it.

    or;

    the angsty Shane Hollander mpreg fic

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    12/12
    Comments:
    288
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    3,371
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    869
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    116,703

    19 Feb 2026

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    SEQUEL TO 'LITTLE ONE (OUR MALYSHKA)'

    In which Shane and Ilya adjust to having a teenage daughter.

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    English
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    Chapters:
    21/21
    Comments:
    625
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    1,569
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    308
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    51,033

    19 Feb 2026

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    “Y-Yeah, totally,” Shane replied. “D-Do you uh– do you know who that kid with Rozanov is?”

    Scott laughed a little, tilting his head in confusion.

    “Probably Rozanov’s kid,” he informed Shane, causing his brain to stall completely.

    “You didn’t hear?” Scott asked, and Shane blinked, trying to reboot his mind from the crash that Scott had just caused. “It’s why he took time off,” Hunter informed him. “Found out he had a kid, I guess. Or something like that, I didn’t really get the details.”

    Of all the reasons he’d thought of for Ilya disappearing for the past month, this had never crossed his mind. A million different thoughts raced through Shane’s mind. How the hell was Ilya a dad, and why hadn’t he told Shane and how the fuck did Scott Hunter of all people find out before him and—

    And what the fuck was Shane supposed to do now?

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    After the tuna melt situation, Ilya suddenly disappears from hockey for six weeks, claiming some sort of family emergency. Shane showed up to the All-Star game ready to try and fix things, only to be shocked to find a little girl at Ilya's side with remarkably familiar blue eyes.

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    106,205
    Chapters:
    22/?
    Comments:
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    19 Feb 2026

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    This was supposed to be his and Shane’s year. Their first real season as a fully realized duo on the Ottawa Centaurs. The team no one believed in, the one they were determined to bring all the way to a Stanley Cup. But nothing could shake Ilya harder than learning he has a teenage son in Russia—one he never even knew existed. Suddenly their golden season becomes a rescue mission, and he and Shane are forced to face the one thing they thought they had years to prepare for…being parents.

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    A direct sequel to "The Long Game," where Ilya is suddenly the Papa of a thirteen-year-old boy with trust issues and Shane is along for the ride.

    Language:
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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    273
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    969
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    284
    Hits:
    17,612

    19 Feb 2026

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    Ilya thought he could do this alone: defect from Russia, raise his brother's child, play professional hockey, survive the hits that come every game from players paid to destroy his career. He chose the most secure building in the city and tried to be invisible.

    He didn't count on Shane Hollander living next door. Or on his captain figuring out that the brutal checks aren't just hockey—they're targeted. Or on what it would feel like when someone finally insisted on keeping him safe.

    Language:
    English
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    46,611
    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    118
    Kudos:
    1,003
    Bookmarks:
    391
    Hits:
    23,967

    19 Feb 2026

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