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  1. Public Bookmark 19

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    “James Fitzjames,” he says, thrusting his hand between them, securing the introduction before the man can wander out of his sight just as soon as he’s appeared.
    “Francis Crozier.” The man shakes his hand with a firm grip. Crozier? It sounds familiar, but James cannot place it.
    “What brings you to Greenhithe?” James asks. Crozier merely shakes his head.
     
    Except its 1851, and James and Francis both feel a strange, strong sense of deja vu

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    17 Sep 2022

  2. Public Bookmark 29

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    It doesn't mean anything.

    And they don't fit into each other's lives.

    And it definitely won't happen again.

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    09 Jul 2022

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    Aziraphale is not built for administration.

    He is informed of this in clever language in the letter he received this morning, although he has known it for years. He is only surprised the bureaucracy of the city has taken so long to catch up to him.

    Somewhere in Nevaeh, there is a room. It is mostly dark, and damp, and dreary, and were it not for the row of plants on the windowsill, it would be quite intolerable indeed.
    There is a person inside this room, who is meant to be deprived of all earthly comforts, who is meant to take on all the suffering of the city, and without him, the great white towers of the city would surely topple into the sea.

    That's what everyone outside the room believes, anyway.

    Although the new guard, Aziraphale, has his doubts.

    They begin the moment the man behind the door begins to tell him a story.

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    30 Jun 2022

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    There were all these little hopes and musings Crowley buried so deep in his heart it ached to bring them out into the light to catalogue their faults and flaws, and each time Aziraphale sought him out, or asked his opinion on some weighty manner that was hanging on him, or even just smiled, those little wishings grew bigger and bigger, pressing in on him until he felt as if he was being crushed.

     

    “Princes do not fall in love with gardener boys,” he told himself one night, staring into the shard of looking glass he kept on a shelf, hoping it would help, hoping that hearing it out loud would make him believe it, would help him put all these ridiculous notions behind him.

     

    It didn't work.

     

    Crowley and Aziraphale, the gardener's boy and the prince, meet as children and develop an unlikely friendship.

    By the time they're twenty, everything has changed.

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    27 Jun 2022

  5. Public Bookmark 56

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    Ed likes the idea of being first to show him this.
    Really likes.
    Wants to watch Stede’s face as he discovers something new.
    Because the thing is, Stede doesn’t hide anything, ever. Man’s so guileless he’d tell anyone anything, nothing to keep to himself, no reason to. Stede doesn’t have need to lie. When Stede likes something, his whole damn face lights up.
    He’s gonna like this.

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    20 Apr 2022

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    Stede comes back.

    Ed does too. It just takes a little longer.

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    11 Apr 2022

  7. Public Bookmark 8

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    He loads all his stuff into his rickety dream-orange Fiat from the 1970’s. It grieves loudly about the load with which it is burdened. Doe understands the sound, somehow. 

    He drives. He already tastes his mistakes, metallic on the back of his tongue like blood. He feels the distinct absence of hands upon his flesh, of a mouth on his, of fingers intertwined with his own. He’s barely able to sustain himself beneath the roiling of regret behind his lips, in his throat, congealed in his stomach. 

    In a year-- five, ten-- will it still taste as strongly as it does now?

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    In 2010, Jonathan Doe (or just Doe, he prefers Doe)-- a disgraced pianist turned botanist-- breaks up with his longtime boyfriend, painter Tony Danton, in order to pursue his next degrees abroad. It breaks them both more than he could've ever thought. This fic follows Doe through the next 10 years, from initial heartbreak to their eventual reunion.

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    15 May 2021

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    “You did so very well for me, Crowley,” Aziraphale says, kissing the top of his head. “I’m endlessly proud of you.”

    He squirms, burying his face in Aziraphale’s chest as his cheeks flush with warmth. He brings his whole body closer to Aziraphale’s softness, wrapping limbs around him like vines seeking sunlight.

    “Anything for you,” he says as if it explains everything he is willing to do, willing to be for Aziraphale. “You know that.”

    “I do know,” Aziraphale says simply before dropping another kiss into Crowley’s hair. “We belong to each other.”

    Crowley snorts a half-hearted laugh, his mind already planning eight different sarcastic quips to make at their expense. He waits, knowing that whatever thought has struck Aziraphale will be revealed soon enough. His patience is rewarded less than two minutes later.

    “Love, would you let me see your halo?”

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    09 Jun 2020

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    Lur wrote me very sexy and loving birthday porn!!!

  9. Public Bookmark 18

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    Over the course of the years, my adventures with Basil would take me to some very strange places. But none quite stay in my mind like the bookseller. What we saw in that shop that day would continue to defy explanation...

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    08 Jun 2020

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    birthday fic from Bucky!!!

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    "I thought about what you said the other night," Sherlock says. "I want you to know what it's like. I want you to feel me tremble and come around you the way I feel you."

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    26 May 2020

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    Sherlock crosses boundaries, as usual.

     

    He’s so defenceless like this, so pliant, soft and warm. Sherlock strokes a trembling hand over John’s stomach, eyes fluttering at the feel of sleep-warm skin still beneath his fingertips. He scratches through the soft trail of hair on his belly, feeling a thrill at the lack of response.

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    19 May 2020

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    13 Mar 2020

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    Conrad really, really just wants to get away from people for a few hours and watch some dumb movies.

    The weird couple arguing a few rows ahead have other ideas.

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    05 Mar 2020

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    CONRAD

  14. Public Bookmark 88

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    John doesn't move back into 221B again directly after it's repaired from Eurus blowing it up. One night, he finds himself missing his best friend and his old life; he invites Sherlock over for a drink and one thing leads to another and they're kissing. There's a smidge of angst and misunderstanding in the middle, but love confessions ensue the following morning and their lives turn out the way they've always been meant to be. Just some lovely fluff.

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    28 Feb 2020

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    12 Feb 2020

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    John Watson is what happens when a man can no longer see a reason to go on.

    John Watson is what happens when a man starts to let go.

    "It is what it is."

    John Watson is what happens when what "it is" becomes too much to bear.

    This is a story of the life, death, and resurrection of John Hamish Watson.

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    31 Jan 2020

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    In which Crowley discovers that Aziraphale is more accepting of his nature than he'd expected.

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    20 Jan 2020

  18. Public Bookmark 47

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    08 Jan 2020

  19. Public Bookmark 44

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    If demons can experience dysphoria, Crowley might. Don’t ask him to explain, but the overall feeling that first came up when he thought about bottoming was discomfort and something else nausea-adjacent. He was quick to ask Aziraphale, when they first got to that point in their relationship, if he could be the one on top.

    It’s been years now since they first moved their relationship beyond we’re-in-love-with-each-other-but-refuse-to-say-it-even-though-it’s-been-six-thousand-years and solidly into we’re-annoyingly-in-love territory, and Crowley is finally thinking, maybe, that he would be okay with that.

    Because lately, the idea of being the one underneath isn’t nausea-inducing—the opposite, in fact.

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    05 Jan 2020

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    03 Jan 2020

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