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    Please don’t tell me the first person who ever touched your dick was Dr. Robby.”

    “Um.” He coughs.

    “Oh my god I’m gonna fucking die.

    Santos tries to solve Whitaker’s sexual hangups. Whitaker tries to save Robby’s soul. Neither initiative goes exactly to plan.

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    05 Oct 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 80

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    Dean wakes up on the side of the road. He’d been in New Orleans last, on what he thought was a voodoo thing. There’s blood on his hands and wrists, dirt and pebbles collected over the tacky-dry fluid, jeans torn at the knee. His mouth tastes like a dirty cast iron skillet, old red meat and metal. He doesn’t know where the Impala is.

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    07 Aug 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 53

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    It has been four years. Four years since Sam left. Since Sam had been able to see his brother in person. Since he had seen his father. Since he had first taken a breath of freedom, feeling safe for the first time ever.

    Sam never thought he would see his father again. And he sure as hell never thought there would be any reason to give him the time of day if he did. But well, life loves to bite him in the ass when it comes to expectations.

    John sighed, “Dean is on a hunting trip.” He sat down at the counter, hunching over himself in exhaustion.

    “Dean is always on a hunting trip.” Sam reminded him.

    John glared Sam down. “Dean is on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a while.”

    An alternate universe where the Men of Letters was never killed.

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    30 Jun 2025

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    Henry never disappeared, John and then Sam and Dean are raised to be Men of Letters. Dean hates every single second of it - all he wants is to be a hunter. Men of Letters though look down on Hunters, and so Dean basically runs away from home to join an official Hunter office run by Bobby (basically he is Sam off to Stanford).
    Years later Sam is sent to co-ordinate between the rising strength of the Hunters and the slowly fossilizing Men of Letters. It is not the easy job he thought it would be.
    Dean is a whole new man. Will the family Winchester repair itself? Will Dean prove his worth? Will the hunters finally win the annual paint ball match against the cops? Wackiness and feelings will ensue.

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    17 Jun 2025

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    “Don’t spend it on anything stupid, Dean. This is for you two to eat,” Dad says. He doesn’t have to say that there isn’t any more money, that he’d better figure out how to stretch it if he needs to—Dean already knows that better than he knows anything.

    Or, Dean and sex work.

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    11 Jun 2025

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    “I can’t look at him – I can’t look at Jack because when I do, I don’t just see Cas. I see her.”

    Sam looks a couple inches closer to walking out. Like a fog has cleared and the weight of expectation has been lifted off his shoulders. Like he’s given up.

    His voice is as light as it is sharp, “A girl, Dean? You’re actually going to try and make this about a girl?”

    Shame fills Dean’s lungs until his ears ring and he chokes on the weight of the words clawing their way up his throat. He’s going under, attempting to hold back a tsunami with a bucket while his little brother watches with an indifference more painful than his derision.

    When he speaks, Dean pitches his voice low in an attempt to disguise the raw edge it has taken on, as if the name had been physically torn from him, entirely unbidden.

    “Emma.”

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    Between 13.04 The Big Empty and 13.05 Advanced Thanatology. Four thousand canon compliant words of Dean Winchester having a breakdown over his total inability to reconcile the fact that the half-human son of Satan himself is just a little boy who needs saving, with the fact that Dean couldn’t save, wasn’t enough to save, his own half-human daughter.

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    10 Jun 2025

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    Cas is holding him in their bed in the Bunker, stroking gentle fingers through his hair in the early morning hours, when the five least invited words in the world tumble out of Dean’s mouth.

    “We should raise a kid.”

    And then, of course, Dean jerks awake and freaks the hell out.

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    10 Jun 2025

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    “Dean,” Sam says softly, "I think that you have to heal your old wounds with dad to break the curse.”

    “I can’t.” The words are out of his mouth before he thinks them.

    “You can, Dean. It’s- this is- I don’t know everything that happened with you and Dad, okay? I’m not gonna pretend to know. But you gotta work through this, man, curse or not. I wish you- I wish I would’ve known. I could’ve helped.”

    Dean shoots him a glare out of principle. “I don’t need help, I need the fucker to stay dead.”

    or the one where dean finally gets the closure he deserves

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    04 Jun 2025

  9. Public Bookmark 47

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    Dean Winchester would never admit when he needs help. He is the one to make the sacrifice so his family has a better life, but when his cancer comes back worse than ever will he allow his family into his personal battle. Sam has it all at Stanford, everything but his brother, when he runs into Dean after 2 years apart its not at all how he pictured.

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    03 Jun 2025

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    Sam was pretty sure he could read every single gay friendly guide to coming out or supporting queer family members ever written and literally none of them would even imply that arguing with gay people that they were actually just homophobic constituted as "ally behavior". However, Sam was equally sure that none of those book authors had found themselves accidentally watching their brother get pounded by an Angel of the Lord at 9 am on Tuesday, so Sam was pretty sure he might actually still have the higher ground. Now, if only Jack would stop trying to bond with Dean using gay slurs long enough for Sam to convince everyone of that, he might just be able to cobble together some remnant of sanity or, failing that, dignity.

    Or, the one where Sam desperately wants to invent PFLAG but Dean won't stop teaching Jack gay slurs

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    03 Jun 2025

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    Dean Winchester is a body, and his body has been saved. Or: 5 times a stranger saw Dean Winchester after Hell, and 1 time someone else did.

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    29 May 2025

  12. Public Bookmark 46

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    “You shouldn’t be walking on that.” Sam’s eyebrows pinch together in worry as he looks over Dean’s lower left leg, over the gaping tear in his calf muscle that’s deep enough to show bone where it’s not oozing with black rot. The bandages that had been taped over it a few moments before rest on the floor, saturated with the same darkness that has infected Dean’s wound.

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    Or: Dean rescues Cas from the Empty, but not without consequence.

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    28 May 2025

  13. Public Bookmark 21

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    Coming back from the wendigo hunt in Season 1, Sam starts to notice new scars on his brother and realizes that Dean had been hunting alone for a while before he showed up to take Sam away from Stanford.

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    22 Sep 2024

  14. Public Bookmark 17

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    There's a reason Dean doesn't do shorts. And it's not what people think.

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    16 Sep 2024

  15. Public Bookmark 46

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    Set during 2x20 WIAWSNB but after an unspecified point mid s9 (will make sense when reading!). Dean didn't wake up when he thought he did. Now Sam is left to help put the pieces together as Dean grapples with the fact that the last several years (plus many more down below), were a lie that spanned a mere three days. Sam is left to wonder what really happened as Dean struggles to remember what's real and what's not. Plus Bobby.

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    28 Jul 2024

  16. Public Bookmark 52

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    “Hello?”

    “Sammy?”

     

    He knows that voice. So well. Too well, even after all this time, after three years- three whole years, Dean, dammit, would it kill you to get in touch?- of radio silence, even after trying so desperately hard to forget it, to leave that life behind, that no, that isn’t the Impala in the parking lot, can’t be, they don’t care about me anymore and then it drives off before he can really confirm that his brother isn’t there. 

     

    He still knows that voice.

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    28 Jun 2024

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    Canon Divergent after 10x03: Soul Survivor. After being cured, Dean struggles with the emotional pain and the guilt he hadn't been able to feel while he was a demon. He's scared the Mark will take control of him again and deliberately lets himself get injured during cases because he feels like the pain helps him fight the Mark's influence. That doesn't work out indefinitely though, and it's only when Dean finally breaks down under the weight of it all that Sam and Cas notice something is seriously wrong.

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    02 Jun 2024

  18. Public Bookmark 43

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    Searing white hot anger pulsated through his entire body. Dean wanted nothing more than to sink his own teeth into the monster’s arm in revenge and finally taste something. After all, it was an eye for an eye. Or in this case- an arm for an arm.

    The only food source in Purgatory is Dean, but what if he developed his own taste for the creatures who hunted him?

    Set post-season seven and during season eight- AU canon divergence

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    24 May 2024

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    Dean got hit by a wave of magical gas while protecting Sam, and now he's curled up in a motel bed, watching comfort TV on his laptop and hallucinating. Cas hangs around to look after him. But Dean thinks the friendly angel at his bedside is actually his favourite fictional beefcake, Dr. Sexy, M.D.. With all inhibitions on standby, Dean might admit a few things about himself he never dared to tell anyone before.

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    06 Apr 2024

  20. Public Bookmark 48

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    Dean returns from Hell to find his relationship with food drastically changed.

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    06 Apr 2024

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