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Dazai, in a moment of curiosity (and perhaps questionable judgment), stumbles upon a website selling sex toys that can be linked to a person in real time. Naturally, he buys one for himself, purely for research purposes, of course.
Unfortunately, he's out of the country when the package arrives. Even more unfortunately, Chuuya is the one who receives it. Hoping for some prime blackmail material, Chuuya tears open the box… only to find the toy inside.
One thing leads to another, and Chuuya - blissfully unaware that the device is synced to Dazai - decides to put it to good use. Meanwhile, miles away, Dazai is abruptly, helplessly, and very publicly experiencing the consequences of his impulse purchase.
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25 Jun 2026
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Dazai looked again at the reflection: hollow cheeks, bruised-looking eyes, collarbones too sharp, limbs too narrow to pass for anything healthy. Not beautiful. Not masculine. Not feminine. Just wrong. A body that refused to disappear but refused to feel alive. A body he maintained like a crime scene, because that’s what it was— taped off, segmented, handled indirectly.
or: Dazai’s body has never felt like his own—too sharp, too empty, too present. He starves it, ignores it, punishes it; it betrays him anyway. Chuuya tries to touch him, Odasaku tries to feed him, Mori tries to control him. None of it helps.
⟢ A mosaic of vignettes about hunger, shame, and the quiet violence of living in a body you don’t want.
BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 - Day 2 - Eating Disorders, “It doesn’t hurt. That’s the strange part.”, Sadism/Masochism, Vomiting (Alt)
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- Part 2 of 🕊️🪦 BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 🪦🕊️
- Part 12 of the dove is on morphine
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14 May 2026
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Chuuya wishes the Flags didn't find out he was sick, but he knows he can never really escape them.
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- Part 7 of bsd sickfic requests!
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14 May 2026
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He still doesn’t understand why people kiss under white berries, or why he’d thought kissing Akutagawa would help him get to the bottom of it.
In which Atsushi learns Christmas traditions, how not to ice skate, and that there are no better people to spend his first holiday with.
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05 May 2026
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“As if,” Atsushi snapped, and Akutagawa began to regret making that no-killing deal. “I bet you don’t even know the first thing about wooing someone.”
“Of course I do,” he retorted, because there was no way he was backing down now. Let alone admitting that the weretiger, of all people, was right about his inexperience.
“Prove it, then.”
Or, five times Akutagawa tries to prove that he’s the better protégé, and the one time he realizes Dazai's acknowledgment might just be an excuse.
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05 May 2026