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  1. Rec *

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    Dean Winchesters attempts suicide on a dirty motel bathtub, ending brain dead on a hospital. A trickster promises John and Sam that he will save him for “free”, as long as they both get through watching a series of Dean´s memories, good and bad. The twist is that they will feel everything Dean did at the time and they can stop it at any time, but then Dean will die. They both accept thinking it cant be that bad. Spoiler: it is worse.

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    01 Dec 2021

  2. Rec *

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    Dean's fine.

    Then he gets a piece of metal stuck through his ribs. But he doesn’t die, even though he’s pretty sure he should’ve.

    He’s still— fine. No matter what Sam thinks.

    (And Cas is still gone.)

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    25 Nov 2021

  3. Rec 4

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    In moments of pain, sometimes all one can do is sing. Maybe Dean Winchester isn't the rocker he imagined himself being, but ...well, nothing. He isn't a rocker but he does, sometimes, sing.

    And sometimes singing helps.

    After it all, Billie, Chuck, the Empty...he deserves that, for something to help, right? Right? Probably not, but

    He could get help from another, better source, if he'd just talk. Or ask. Yeah, right. Since when do either of those actions describe Dean Winchester?

    (Or, Dean opens his heart in a song that Castiel happens to hear)

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    16 Nov 2021

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    It’s been several months since the events of 15x19, and the world is at ease. Dean Winchester isn’t, though.

    It takes a drunken night and a conversation with Sam for the Winchesters and a newly depowered Jack to start working on a way to get to the Empty to bring back Castiel, their angel best friend. After several weeks, the team enlist the assistance of the new Queen of Hell and find a spell. With Rowena’s help, Cas is finally back, alive, and for a moment everything looks brighter. Jack and Sam are ecstatic, and Dean’s had enough time to figure out what he wants to tell Cas. He’s ready to speak his truth.

    Except, Cas doesn’t seem to recognize Jack, and the first thing he does is ask Dean how he’s managed to get rid of the mark. He doesn’t remember that Chuck, the flimsy prophet he met years ago, was God and that they just beat his ass. Actually, there’s a lot he doesn’t remember… Including telling Dean he loved him before getting taken by the Empty.

    Now starts a different quest- figuring out what’s keeping a newly human Cas from remembering the past 5 years by their side, and helping him regain the memories he’s lost.

    Of course, as is custom for Winchesters, nothing goes as planned.

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    16 Nov 2021

  5. Rec *

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    Dean can't sleep. Cas offers to tire him out.

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    05 Nov 2021