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Everything was still foggy for Daniel. Things had improved the last few years, brought him moments of clarity between the hours of floaty confusion, a befuddlement that was more numb than distressing lately. But sometimes it felt as though all he had gained was the ability to see his shortcomings with more clarity. At least when all he thought about was his city, there wasn’t time to feel stupid or inferior or childlike. Though he still spent most of his time with his models, they no longer consumed his every waking second, giving him plenty of time to chart all the compulsions and paranoia of his ailed mental state— how his memories cut out after a few blurry seconds, how he wandered aimlessly, how he couldn’t tell he needed to feed until he was weak and delirious, how he saw people that weren’t there out of the corners of his eyes, how every thought slipped by on a stream of hazy confusion too fast for him to latch onto. Just better enough to know he’d never really get better.
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Daniel Molloy has come unstuck in time by jabedalien
Fandoms: Vampire Chronicles Series - Anne Rice
10 Mar 2025
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Armand didn’t know what to do with his hands, so he shoved them into the pockets of his jeans, rounding his shoulders in. “Hello, Daniel.”
“Do you know who this is?” Marius asked.
He glanced up in a flash, just one second of those pale eyes of his, and Armand was struck by how dearly he had missed them. He spoke like a pupil who’d been asked a question of mental arithmetic. “Armand.”
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American Boy by jabedalien for Chelrux_Anavrin
Fandoms: Vampire Chronicles Series - Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
22 Feb 2025
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Daniel was quintessentially American. It was almost charming, really, that unpolished air about him. Paris couldn’t have made his boy like this, just a bit too much, a little too loud, too brash, too rough, too cocky and overconfident. The inherent youthfulness that seemed to come easily to inhabitants of a country just now reaching its bicentennial and far too wrapped up in its own significance. Americanism was gaudy like plastic pearls and fake gold patinaed with wear and processed foods Armand couldn’t recognize as edible.
They were in Las Vegas now, a pinnacle of American excess, neon signs and windowless casinos full of lights and sounds and drinking and cigarette smoke, gamblers and dealers and bouncers all yelling over one another. Pure, unadulterated American desperation. He’d chased Daniel all the way here, and once he caught him he dragged him up to this penthouse suite. It’d been a week and neither of them had bothered running yet. The architecture here intrigued him, the distinctly space- age consumerist tilt of the Googie style a culmination of a hundred different distinct Americanisms that Armand could spend months pulling apart.
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abnormal psychology and tea party etiquette by jabedalien
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
31 Jan 2025
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Daniel knew plenty well that he wasn’t really capable of being a good dad, as that was a title generally reserved for people who experienced the full spectrum of human emotion and didn’t get through the day with a carefully crafted routine of prescription medication abuse. But he wasn’t a mean dad. She was his baby girl and his best friend and the only person in the world who didn’t just see him as a blanket of pathetic, pitiful fuckups covering up a morbid, soulless core. Armand liked him, sure, and so did Alice on a really good day, but there would always be a chasm between them where Daniel’s love was supposed to go. He scared her, and that should’ve bothered him, but instead he just found himself using it more and more to get what he wanted. In the best case scenario, Daniel would never be anything more than a nagging voice in the ear of his wife or an interview subject, or to Armand, an especially fascinating beetle. But no matter how upset he was, how he lost his temper at himself or Alice or the situation they were in, there was always a smile on his face when Kate looked at him. Always.
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advanced hallucinatory studies by jabedalien
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
05 Jan 2025
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Daniel saw Armand even when he wasn’t really there. Armand liked that. It was as though Daniel’s mind was always seeking him out, no matter how far he was. Always looking for him. Even when he was two countries away, Daniel would see him in the corner of his bedroom, real enough to touch.
Currently, Armand was sitting in the hallway of this cheap hotel, the thin carpet grayed out and worn away down the center by thousands of footsteps. He could hear Daniel quite easily, and all it took was a brief glimpse into his mind and he could see through his eyes as well. Daniel was sitting in the center of an uncomfortable and not especially clean bed. He’d scored about an hour ago, and was still enjoying the effects of that, alongside a handle of vodka sitting on the nightstand. Armand could tell from here that he smelled like sweat and alcohol and stale cigarettes. That he hadn’t showered or changed his clothes in a week. That he hadn’t eaten in two days. That he wasn’t sure whether they were in France, Italy, or Germany right now.
TW: non-con, memory alteration, psychological trauma
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agnes by jabedalien
Fandoms: Vampire Chronicles Series - Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
03 Dec 2024
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Daniel's getting older, but not any better at coping. Armand hasn't gotten any older in centuries. For nearly a decade now, Daniel's been able to exist mostly detached from mortal life. That isn't true anymore.
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when my mind is uncertain, my body decides by jabedalien
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
22 Nov 2024
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It took a minute for her to realize what Armand was doing, putting her arm against her mouth, licking the skin, slow and methodical, up the inside of her forearm and towards her wrist.
Or, Armand drinks her own blood in Daniel’s bed.
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perversion by jabedalien
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022), Vampire Chronicles Series - Anne Rice
22 Nov 2024
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It all started when Daniel made the questionable decision to take an eighth of shrooms from a guy they met at the opening of a Whitney exhibit. It might not be his drug of choice, but he was offering, and Daniel was not one to turn down a free trip. Armand was also quite interested, leaning in with that familiar air about him where he was just so interested in a topic it lit up his whole face. And Daniel liked how Armand looked when he was in that sort of mood, the way his eyes glimmered and his hands moved.
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He wasn’t going to walk away from this alone. No Louis, no Lestat, no coven, nothing, and no one and the loneliness was already crushing in the edges of his vision. He could see the next century laid out in front of him, avoiding other vampires and killing the ones foolish enough to cross his path, alone for every day and night. The years he’d gone not speaking to anyone except to hear the final words of the humans he drained. He knew what that was like, intimately familiar with the misery. Not again. He refused.
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the gremlin or the good nurse by jabedalien
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
29 Oct 2024
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The boy, whose decidedly unfascinating name was apparently Daniel Molloy, had been in the apartment on Divisadero Street for approximately 36 hours. Armand had cleaned most of his blood– which had stained the walls and the floor and ruined the rug in the living room– with rags and jugs of cleaning fluid and rubber gloves. It had taken hours, but he’d sort of welcomed the task, something to push against the prevailing boredom. Louis had stopped screaming, though that was surely only temporary. Armand felt like someone had sucked all the will out of him with a plastic straw. He was angry, and exhausted, too tired to even bother seriously fucking with the pathetic thing sitting in a lump under the dining room table.
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“The way you watch me eat,” He said, taking another bite just to prove the way Armand’s eyes followed him, “like I’m a rabbit and you’re a mountain lion.”
“Well I’m—“ Armand paused, not quite sure what word fit here, fascinated, curious, jealous, endeared or engrossed by the utter humanity of it all, “I haven’t tasted anything in a few hundred years. Observing the experience is the closest I can get.”
“A true voyeur,” Daniel smiled crookedly, “not that I didn’t know that already.”
This was, in many ways, the exact same as watching Daniel fuck someone. He looked undeniably attractive– all-consuming really– biting into a McDonald’s cheeseburger at four in the morning— the sound he made in the back of his throat, the sigh of satisfaction, how his eyes tilted up to the fluorescent lights on the ceiling. He lacked all composure and etiquette, graceless as a newly-born giraffe. But pleased, in that wonderfully human way of his. Another reminder of how forbidden this was, how wrong, how Daniel represented everything Armand shouldn’t want and couldn’t have.
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Abed felt sick. He wanted to go home, despite the fact that these questions were much harder to face there than they were here. He wanted to drive from the lot on the soundstage, straight through Nevada and Utah, and land at the doorstep of the apartment he hasn’t lived in for years, walk back into a time before he’d done what he did. The closest he could get was to sneak out the back door and light a cigarette he sucked down with a marked urgency.
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“When was the last time you ate something?” Abed asks, too direct in his question for Jeff to avoid answering.
He manages to do so anyway by just pretending he couldn’t hear Abed and becoming interested in the fabric of his sweatpants.
“Jeffrey, you know I expect you to make your best effort to answer my questions.” Abed presses, looks at Jeff with those eyes so dark he didn’t know how to hide from them.
And maybe he doesn’t have to pull out the dom voice over Jeff’s kitchen counter, but damn if it doesn’t make him sit up a little straighter.
“Um, probably yesterday. Most likely yesterday afternoon. That’s my best answer.”
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freshman seminar in cheerleading filmography by jabedalien for Ratbitch98
Fandoms: Community (TV)
25 Jul 2024
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“Is anyone sitting here? There aren’t any empty tables left, sorry. I made sure to check everywhere twice before I asked someone.”
There was one girl at the end of the table, wearing a baby blue juicy tracksuit, her blonde hair pulled back into a ponytail. She was sending rapid-fire texts with one hand and eating grilled chicken and rice with the other. She was a little more stereotypically All-American than Abed would usually feel comfortable approaching, but most of the tables up here were occupied by guys or people who clearly weren’t freshmen, both of which were scarier in their own way.
“You’re good. I gotta leave soon anyway.” She answered without looking up from the text she was sending.
Abed saw the Greendale University Cheerleading logo embroidered on the backpack that’s taking up the seat next to her. “You’re on the cheer team? That’s cool, I’m not exactly an extracurricular type person but my dad said I really should be if I’m going to make friends or whatever.”
That actually made her look up from her phone, which is how Abed knows they’ve definitely said too much.
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thirty going on thirty by jabedalien for bone_saw, jabedtisms, imagined_melody
Fandoms: Community (TV)
24 Mar 2024
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Things were weird. Weirder than usual, or else he probably wouldn’t be here, in the same place he was on this day exactly a year ago now, an overpriced restaurant that smelled like pasta and expensive perfume.
Abed looked pretty much normal, which was a reassuring sight. The shirt he had on under his cardigan was a solid navy blue instead of being decorated with some brightly colored graphic, but he was still clearly Abed, the same soft footfalls and tight-lipped smile as always.
“Thanks for doing this,” Abed said, looking down at the place setting like he was trying to remember how all the forks worked again, “Again.”
“Not sure it’s a night I’d want to repeat, but—“
Jeff almost said anything for you, which would be the truth.
“—it’s your birthday, and I sorta fucked the last one.”
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He decided to try again when he started taking film classes, a character that called for it and the understanding that a cigarette was meant to be savored and not sucked down. So he sat on a bench out in the courtyard and lit a cigarette, held it in his hand while he wrote and took careful pulls as to not repeat earlier mistakes. His head felt too light and floaty and he wasn’t quite sure he’d enjoy standing up but it wasn’t a bad experience overall.
It never really stops then, the pack of cigarettes sits at the bottom of his bag. There are occasions he decides to take them out, with Jeff when they’re drinking, at a party in the dorms, out in the parking lot while he’s shooting documentaries. They conveniently help him meet people and dispel awkward moments, passing them to strangers and acquaintances as a way to socially win them over.
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Abed holstered his gun, filled his pockets with spare ammo, and headed for the door. “I have one last idea.”
“Abed, what are you—“ Shirley tried to ask, but Abed was determined to make his exit appropriately mysterious as all paintball homages required.
“Three beeps on the walkie means the coast is clear. If I’m not back by nightfall, assume I’m dead.”
or: strategic homoerotic cowboy paintball seduction that we definitely don’t need to think too deeply about
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follow the erosion to the place we like to be by jabedalien
Fandoms: 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Anime), 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Manga)
28 Jan 2024
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He knew it was probably odd to reject all religion and still believe in hell, but he couldn’t help knowing. There was a hell, and they, whoever they were, Tengen didn’t really care, they’d made it just for him. There had to be a place where he would face divine justice for what he’d done. He knew he deserved it and almost wanted it, if only for an opportunity to pay for who he was. An eternity of suffering was a comfort, a chance to hurt as much as he’d hurt other people.
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lessons in nativity tradition by jabedalien for LartN
Fandoms: 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Anime), 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Manga)
14 Jan 2024
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Inosuke woke up with the sun on Christmas morning, same as most days, but instead of laying in his futon and listening to the world outside, he was up and on his feet instantly. He didn’t know what he was supposed to be doing, but it felt like there had to be something Christmas-related happening already.
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PJ pointed up at Hazel’s cat ear headphones. “Those are the fucking cringiest thing I have seen since the clown at the school’s anti-drug parade.”
Hazel didn’t say anything in response, just pressed the ears forward with her fingers to indicate her dissatisfaction with PJ’s comment. When she got into the car, she pulled them down and left them around her neck, no plans to take them off just because PJ thought they’re dorky. She isn’t surprised, but if you suggested she was endeared she’d have to put her fist through your solar plexus. That was just her and Hazel, she made stupid, snide comments and Hazel let them roll right off her back like a duck.
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- Part 1 of Gummy Worm Universe