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    Something is weird with Shane’s body this season.
    It's on his list to see the team doctor about. Though on the other hand, maybe it would clear up in the next week and the doctor would tell him that he was overreacting, that he should just drink more water or something.
    So it's fine, really. Shane's not worried.

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    Shane and Ilya fuck up and don't realise until roughly nine months later, when it is far, far too late.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane decided that to get over Rozanov, he needed to get under someone new. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

    After Vegas, Ilya decided that getting over Hollander was a useless task, and saying fuck it and jumping all in was the way to go. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

     

    NOTE: None of the Rape/Non-Con is between Shane & Ilya

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    19 Feb 2026

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    ‘Was he? What you needed?’

    ‘No. I mean, sort of. But…’

    ‘Did he hurt you?’

    Shane didn’t answer. Instead, his gaze dipped to the floor.

    The blood drained from Ilya’s face. ‘Shane?’

    ‘Um.’

    Ilya’s fingers dug into the desk he was leaning on. He watched Shane’s face. That beautiful fucking face. The one he had to force himself not to stare at on the ice in case he got distracted. The face he had known since he was eighteen years old. Whether Shane believed it or not, there were few people who could read his face like Ilya Rozanov could.

    And he was reading the truth on it now.

    ‘Fuck. He hurt you?’

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    In which Ilya finds out that Shane's other sexual experiences have not been as safe or pleasurable as he deserves and decides to make things right.

    (Please check the tags, this might not be for you!)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    they say, "you'll get used to it,"

    but it never goes away

    if I get through this,

    I'll never be the same.

    or, ilya misunderstands the situation when he witnesses shane suffering an atrocious assault. it's the start of their undoing. they don't know how to go back.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    “He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.

    Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.

    He seeks new memories. New… etches.

    So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows it’s risky.

    But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”

    When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.

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    13 Feb 2026