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When Shannon died, Eddie learned the hard way that the moment someone died all your chances to make it up to them died with them, all the things you never said and the things you wish you hadn’t. It’s a bit ironic, and certainly unfair, that the missed opportunities only ever manifest in hindsight. And perhaps it’s Eddie’s fatal flaw, that he only ever sees things in retrospect.
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Eddie is a man with many regrets. He prays that this won't be one of them.
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02 May 2025
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“Look, you’re my family, a-and I want you guys to be on board with this.” Buck is tense, anxious. Eddie should really say something. Be supportive. “But it’s happening either way. So.”
Bobby leans over to clap Buck on the shoulder, staring him straight in the eye as he does. “I am happy for you, Buck. As long as you’re sure.”
Some of the tension falls away from Buck’s posture. He smiles. “I am. Sure. I’m super sure.”
“Alright then.” Bobby pats Buck’s shoulder once more before he pulls away. “Congratulations, kid.” Buck visibly exhales in relief, which Eddie finds solace in despite the fact that he’s currently being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives.
Or: Buck is getting married. He is.
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28 Apr 2025
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“What’s the saying again? Save a horse…hm, y’know, I don't quite remember the rest of it.” Eddie can’t help the smile curving up the corner of his mouth.
“You’re an asshole,” Buck says, scowling. The tips of his ears are pink.
“Come on, Buck,” Eddie murmurs, something white-hot and hungry snaking through him at Buck’s faltering gaze, at the way Buck reaches up to tug at his suit collar. “Save a horse…I know you can do it.”
“Ride a cowboy,” Buck says finally, his voice husky like Eddie’s never heard it before.Or: The Cowboy Hat Fic.
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28 Apr 2025
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“Chimney says that Eddie’s been moping,” Maddie said airly as she fixed herself some breakfast.
He vaguely remembered a Chimney on the roster when Buck had maybe googled Eddie’s name after he couldn’t sleep. If it was because he couldn’t stop thinking about the way Eddie’s hands curved over the slope of his waist, then that was between him and his search engine.
“Since when have you been talking to a hockey goalie?”
“Since you and the hockey power forward went and drunkenly made out on the dance floor,” Maddie said as she settled a plate of breakfast in front of him. “Eat.”
Hockey/Ballet AU
Hockey Player!Eddie Diaz and Ballet Dancer!Evan "Buck" Buckley
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28 Apr 2025
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“Eddie,” Buck breathes, laughing humorlessly, his voice wet and thick. “If we sat here and-- and went through the list of things I want…” his hands gesture aimlessly. “We’d-- be here all night.”
Eddie nods, catching Buck’s eyes again. “Maybe-- we start with mine, then.”
The space between them feels charged with static, like the second before the thunder finally rumbles.
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Eddie’s finally choosing to be better-- finally choosing joy. He just needs a push or two in the right direction, first.
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- Part 1 of seabird 'verse
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20 Apr 2025
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“Eddie, you’re scaring me,” Buck says in the quiet of the room. “Do you-- do you know what day it is?”
“Friday,” Eddie answers, tongue thick like his throat is stuffed with cotton.
“Yeah,” Buck confirms. “And-- do you know my full name?”
Eddie swallows. “Evan Buckley,” he says definitively, but--
He finally turns to look at Buck’s face, and it’s like he’s waiting for Eddie to keep going. Like Eddie had gotten it wrong. Buck’s face melts, his brows pinched together, and Eddie--
He doesn’t know what the hell is going on.
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Eddie loves every version of Buck. And Buck? Well, he’s starting to realize every version of Buck loves him right back. If only Eddie could get back home to tell him that.
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20 Apr 2025
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“Buck,” Eddie says, a small smile curving at the edge of his mouth, “wanna get married? For our honeymoon, we’ll scam your parents out of some money and make Ravi’s accountant do our taxes.”
“Well,” Buck says drily, “that sounds like an offer I can’t refuse.”
“I’m sorry,” Eddie says, in his very best – meaning very bad – impression of Buck when he gets his hands on a clipboard. “What was that?”
“Yes, Eddie,” Buck says, putting on an air of suffering despite the butterflies making themselves at home in his stomach. Man, whoever Eddie ends up proposing to for realsies is gonna be so lucky. “I’ll marry you.”
or: buck is invited to a family reunion and realises that there's a good chunk of money waiting for him. there’s one issue, though: he has to be married to claim it, and right now, he’s painfully single. it’s a good thing he has such a great best friend in eddie, right?
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19 Apr 2025
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He’s big, is the first thing Eddie notices about him. Not just his body - though his shoulders are broad and his biceps are thick - but his presence, too. He’s so commanding that he’s impossible to miss; he draws all of Eddie’s attention even as he sits silent and motionless, like he’s trying to disappear. He has a halo of curls on his head and a shock of pink above his left eye.
Angel, Eddie thinks, and something twists uncomfortably inside his chest.
Or: Eddie is a priest, and Buck is a firefighter, and once their worlds collide nothing will ever be the same again.
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14 Apr 2025
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“Victim is Charles Dumont. Three gunshot wounds to the chest. Looks like an attempted robbery. There was a case of bourbon with a bottle missing and we found Charlie’s wallet tossed a few blocks from here. And Eddie?” Athena stopped just as she got to the door and turned him with a serious expression on her face. “There’s a witness.”
Her frown dipped under the professional mask she was known for and Eddie caught the flicker of concern pulling at her composure.
“You know him?”
Athena pressed her lips into a tight line and nodded.
“Evan Buckley. He’s the bartender here. He was helping Charlie restock tonight when he heard a noise and saw it happen.”
Homicide Detective, Eddie Diaz, is called in to investigate the murder of a local shield and ladder bar owner. There he meets his only witness, Evan "Buck" Buckley.
AKA The Trashy Romance Novel Murder Mystery Buddie AUAKA Detective!Eddie Diaz and Bartender!Evan "Buck" Buckley
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13 Apr 2025
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About 30 in the street, at least 10 more in the building. One woman with a single GSW to the leg, none other critically injured. Four police chargers and six officers, all armed, more inbound.
One suspect. Male. Small caliber handgun and a hostage.
There was no time for Buck to think when his reactions needed to be faster than his brain. His body knew what to do, how to take a man down efficiently.
In which Buck joined the 118 after transferring to the Navy Reserves and struggled with becoming a civilian. Eddie showed him how to feel worthy again.
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- Part 1 of Sigma Six
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13 Apr 2025
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you're the reason i came (you're the reason i stayed) by literalmetaphor
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17 Feb 2025
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Eddie shifts his weight a few times. “What does that mean?”
This could go a lot of ways. If this is Buckley, and Eddie’s pretty sure it is, it could lead to him hanging this over his head, trying to get sex out of it, and honestly – Eddie’s slept with people for less. And Eddie could do, has done, a lot worse.
He would hate being strong-armed into sex, but he’s been strong-armed into it before, and this guy, well, it’s not like he hasn’t thought about it.
“Um,” is all the answer Eddie gets.
And then there’s this meandering, endless pause, where the guy stands there and just… stares at him. Eddie can’t decide if it’s awkward or if they are slipping back into creepy. “What’s with the staring?”
“Sorry!” Sleeves immediately jerks his eyes away, then scratches the back of his head before he looks back at Eddie and snaps away again. “It’s just – uh, it’s weird, seeing you, um, without the…”
Eddie raises an eyebrow. “Handcuffs?”
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Eddie works at a strip club, and Buck's a very frequent customer.
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28 Mar 2025
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Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.
But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.
Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.
(or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)
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28 Feb 2025
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Buck kissed him. It didn’t feel like a declaration the way kisses usually do. It didn’t feel stifling. It felt like a plea. It felt like exactly what he said, like don’t go. Buck is still getting over Tommy, and Eddie is straight, and the two of them—it’s easy between the two of them.
The engine roars and Buck turns to look at him, eyebrows raised as if asking if he’s ready. Eddie nods, swallows, and puts his head back. Buck kissed him, and they won’t talk about it, and Eddie’s fine with that because really, Buck’s the only thing that’s ever been easy for Eddie.
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or Buck kisses Eddie in LA. Eddie kisses Buck in El Paso. They figure out what that means somewhere along the way to bringing Chris back home.
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23 Jan 2025
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“Buck?” Eddie asks when he opens the door. “What’s- is that a baby?”
Buck doesn’t know what to say other than, “Help.”
Buck's running late to work when he finds the baby on his doorstep, and that pretty much sums up this portion of his life. Now he must figure out what to do, how to do it, and why doing it with Eddie gives him a feeling he can’t shake.
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22 Jan 2025
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Eddie Diaz would like to say that the 118 needs a more involved HR department, or maybe he just needs friends who do less meddling
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"Eddie," Buck says seriously, once he's done hiccuping through his giggles, one stray hand resting on Eddie's knee, "I hate to break this to you, but you have a son. That can't be true."
"Exactly!" Hen's own drink sloshes dangerously towards the rim as she pointed it at Eddie. "If you couldn't have sex, then you wouldn't have a kid." She gasps. "Wait, you're from Texas! Maybe you don't know that!"
"It's a serious problem," Chimney confirms solemnly. "Poor little kids from Texas, all thinking that babies come from storks."
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18 Jan 2025
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“I feel fucking explosive, Buck. Like I’m about to go off at any second. I don’t want you caught in my mess.”
His eyes sting. At the very least, Buck contains the sound of it in his voice. “Eddie, I don’t know if you’ve noticed,” he replies, “but I already am.”
Eddie self-implodes. Christopher, seeking refuge, flees to Buck—whose priorities amount to, in varying order: take in the kid, get Eddie to talk to him, and keep the three of them afloat in the process. (Oh, and Tommy’s there too. He thinks.)
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16 Jan 2025
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He shakes his head at Buck, and then turns and walks away. And it feels like Buck is losing more than just a part of himself, it feels like he’s losing his whole heart.
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10 Jan 2025
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The first time Eddie kisses Buck, he tastes like tequila and salt.
Or: Eddie is deeply troubled. Buck is deeply in love.
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07 Jan 2025
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When he was 26, Buck had his first genuinely transformative relationship. She was smart, kind and more mature than him. She looked at him and it made him feel like maybe he mattered.
When she told him she needed to go find herself, he promised to wait.He waited for months, living like a ghost in her abandoned home, before finally walking away, humiliated and abandoned, finally realising the love he'd felt had been one-sided.
All of this to say, Evan Buckley had never been good at knowing when to let go of things.
So when Eddie Diaz told him on a chilly Friday afternoon that he had put his house on the market and started packing, Buck told himself that this time, he wasn't going to cling to someone trying to leave him behind. This time, Buck would understand what rejection looked like, and he would let someone he loved walk away with dignity.
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Eddie moves to El Paso a month before Christmas. Buck goes a little bit insane about it.
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04 Jan 2025